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He he :D Now why would you go doing that? Dirty minds lead to so much more fun ;)
No really wash, wiped off excess dirt from the surface is more to the point. The underlying gray matter comes up with enough supply daily.

intellectually lazy
lazy in general
extremely introverted (except with people I know especially well)
have trouble holding a conversation (I run out of stuff to say)
procrastination (to the last minute, sometimes to the point where I do not get things done)
perfectionism (only to the point where I get disgusted; then I slop whatever and call it done)

No really wash, wiped off excess dirt from the surface is more to the point. The underlying gray matter comes up with enough supply daily.

Wipe off dirt from the surface... ah I do usually keep the kinky side hidden, makes it all the more dark ;)

Your Hotlanta Kink Test score was 485!

Here is the chart so that you can see how you are rated:

100 or less You need to lighten up and live a little!
101 to 200 You have an average sex life in need of kink.
201 to 300 You have sweet hints of a kinky nature.
301 to 400 You are definitely a kinky player.
401 to 500 You are a major league kinkster!
501 to 600 Wow! You're too kinky for most!!!
601 or more SUPER FREAK ALERT! You da BOMB!
The maximum score for this test is 700.

Actually, that is a little higher than I thought it'd be.

I am a horrible person. I lie, I over-embellish, I lead men on, and always think I'm right and will never admit to it when I'm not. I'm sarcastic, cynical, bitter, heartless, hateful, and, oh yeah, I take advantage of people.

And the worst part of it all? I realize all of this about myself and don't care to change it. In fact, I *enjoy* being this hateful, mean, generally shitty person. I pity the next person who has the misfortune to actually like me.

^_^

I got 525 :)

Hmm.
I only got 256.
Which is odd, knowing me.

I got more than that before I'd even had sex with just my dirty mind :p

I got 525 :)

He he I still beat you :D

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And Jester III, I never asked what your actual score was? Spill!

Whoot, i have a high score. :rolleyes: Nothing new to me. (Getting too explicit gets the thread closed, eh?)
But i found the first question cute:
"If you had a choice as to how often you would have sex,*how often would it be?
As often as every day
A few times a week
Just a few times a month
Not too often - I have better things to do"

Where is "Several times a day"?
that choice is carved on my headboard.

I am a horrible person. I lie, I over-embellish, I lead men on, and always think I'm right and will never admit to it when I'm not. I'm sarcastic, cynical, bitter, heartless, hateful, and, oh yeah, I take advantage of people.

And the worst part of it all? I realize all of this about myself and don't care to change it. In fact, I *enjoy* being this hateful, mean, generally shitty person. I pity the next person who has the misfortune to actually like me.

^_^
welcome to the brutally honest thread. i am sure you can find someone here that looooves you. ;)

I've spent over AU$1000 on...

...wait for it...

...My Little Ponies.

In the past year and a bit.

I am so, so going to hell for that.
i cant wait until vittos and adrian see this one. oh , i cannot wait. ;)

but really, that is quite an obsession.

welcome to the brutally honest thread. i am sure you can find someone here that looooves you. ;)
Or wants to eat your brain, but that's a different story.

Or wants to eat your brain, but that's a different story.
i want a full report, written newspaper style :D

i want a full report, written newspaper style :D
I don't eat brains...
<.<
>.>

*runs away*

Your Hotlanta Kink Test score was 485!


601 or more SUPER FREAK ALERT! You da BOMB!
The maximum score for this test is 700.

Actually, that is a little higher than I thought it'd be.
i dont want to score high. i dont want anything to do with that phrase

And Jester III, I never asked what your actual score was? Spill!
590
Enough sidetracking. ;)
I once was in jail for armed robbery. And nearly lost my parole later for damaging cars while totally intoxicated. I drink too much, i fear losing control like my father did, ruining his family, his health and his work life. I either hate him or feel sympathy, but i dont take him serious.
This morning, i wanted to nibble the neck of a complete stranger on an escalator. Never saw her face, but it was a perfect neck.

That was a pretty cool test, I got a 600. Says I'm too kinky for most...

Any way, brutal honesty. :gundge: I am vengeful :mp5: . But not directly, most of the time I like to be subtle. One time I got pissed off at my sister in law, and a friend of mine said he had the perfect revenge. My sister in law lives with me. So this me and this guy who shall remain nameless were hanging out at my house, and he says, "If you give me 5 bucks, I'll get your revenge." So I give him the money, and we comence a heavy video game session. He goes home, and I remember the revenge. By this time my sister in law has gotten home from work and is in the shower. So I called him up and was like, "Dude, what the fuck?" Ok, now this is nasty. For those weak of stomach, paranoid, elderly, pregenant, or have other health conditions, stop reading now.











He told me he took of the top of her conditioner and jerked off into it both times he went to use the bathroom. For a few days, every time she came out of the shower, I couldn't help but laugh my ass off! I know that it really shouldn't be funny, but to me it is. Is that wrong?

I don't eat brains...
<.<
>.>

*runs away*
Missing out then. They taste like a good flank steak, oddly enough. :cool:

590
Enough sidetracking. ;)
I once was in jail for armed robbery. And nearly lost my parole later for damaging cars while totally intoxicated. I drink too much, i fear losing control like my father did, ruining his family, his health and his work life. I either hate him or feel sympathy, but i dont take him serious.
This morning, i wanted to nibble the neck of a complete stranger on an escalator. Never saw her face, but it was a perfect neck.

7 points... :p and neck nibbling, mmm ;) he he

That was a pretty cool test, I got a 600. Says I'm too kinky for most...

Any way, brutal honesty. :gundge: I am vengeful :mp5: . But not directly, most of the time I like to be subtle. One time I got pissed off at my sister in law, and a friend of mine said he had the perfect revenge. My sister in law lives with me. So this me and this guy who shall remain nameless were hanging out at my house, and he says, "If you give me 5 bucks, I'll get your revenge." So I give him the money, and we comence a heavy video game session. He goes home, and I remember the revenge. By this time my sister in law has gotten home from work and is in the shower. So I called him up and was like, "Dude, what the fuck?" Ok, now this is nasty. For those weak of stomach, paranoid, elderly, pregenant, or have other health conditions, stop reading now.... He told me he took of the top of her conditioner and jerked off into it both times he went to use the bathroom. For a few days, every time she came out of the shower, I couldn't help but laugh my ass off! I know that it really shouldn't be funny, but to me it is. Is that wrong?

But then there are the select few that appreciate such evilness ;)

Lol! I don't know if it's wrong but tis funny :D

First off, that was the awsomest test ever. I took it, but then I accidently closed the window, so I don't know what I got. It was pretty high, though. :D

Anyway, I'm just very lucky to have a sig. other who understands and I daresay encourages such things. We fit eachother very well. :)

*Edit* I forgot to add something. Another confession....I...*sigh* I watched Once More with Feeling, the Buffy the Vampire Slayer Musical, three times in two days. And I watched all of season six in one day. That's six hours of Buffy, at least....

First off, that was the awsomest test ever. I took it, but then I accidently closed the window, so I don't know what I got. It was pretty high, though. :D

Anyway, I'm just very lucky to have a sig. other who understands and I daresay encourages such things. We fit eachother very well. :)

*Edit* I forgot to add something. Another confession....I...*sigh* I watched Once More with Feeling, the Buffy the Vampire Slayer Musical, three times in two days. And I watched all of season six in one day. That's six hours of Buffy, at least....

He he :D well, gotta share the love of evilness, or share the evil loving :p

Indeed, as am I in having a boyfriend who definitly encourages such things. We fit together very well too... in interesting and skillful ways ;)

He he :D well, gotta share the love of evilness, or share the evil loving :p

Indeed, as am I in having a boyfriend who definitly encourages such things. We fit together very well too... in interesting and skillful ways ;)

Oh yes, evil-sharing is always fun. :D And its wonderful to have such encouraging boyfriends, isn't it? Hehe...

*would make a better post, but is sick*

Oh yes, evil-sharing is always fun. :D And its wonderful to have such encouraging boyfriends, isn't it? Hehe...

*would make a better post, but is sick*

Indeed, he he :D Yep, discover just how dark and evil I can get and convince me in numerous ways to unleash it more :p Teach me to embrace it-definitly pays off :D

Ah, but sick is good. And this is the brutally honest post. Just whether it would be removed.... you could always TG me, cruel just to tease me like that... :p

Ha, actually I have the flu. I'm sick in other ways, of course, but I don't mind those as much. :D

As for the rest of it, I'm pretty open to stuff. Depends on what you'd want to know--most of it isn't too greatly horrible, as neither of us gets to see the other very much. So when we do, we spend most of the time cuddling and talking.

And will someone, please, define what TG is? I'm afriad I'm all confused....

And will someone, please, define what TG is? I'm afriad I'm all confused....
TG=Telegram.
You know, the function for in-game communication between nations.

Ha, actually I have the flu. I'm sick in other ways, of course, but I don't mind those as much. :D

As for the rest of it, I'm pretty open to stuff. Depends on what you'd want to know--most of it isn't too greatly horrible, as neither of us gets to see the other very much. So when we do, we spend most of the time cuddling and talking.

And will someone, please, define what TG is? I'm afriad I'm all confused....

Lol, see? My mind works far too dirtily :p Hope you feel better :)

What I want to know... when did I ask? Just if you had things to say, is cruel to tell someone but not actually say what you had to say....

I know that feeling, don't get to see my bf much either-long distance. But we manage to fit in a nice range of activites ;)

TG just means telegram. I only figured it out a few days ago when someone said 'check your TGs' and then I happened to find a new one from him and it clicked lol

Thank you, yay. Now I know what TG means, and I can die from this horrible flu happily. =^.^=

And yeah, it is cruel to say but not really say. Maybe that's why I do it all the time...hmm...I'll have to ponder that one.

An example of what tends to happen: The other weekend, I resdiscovered that the cuticle cutter in my manicure set is quite sharp. And my poor boyfriend still has marks. He enjoyed it, though, so I think that takes away a bit of the evil.

...Right? :D

Thank you, yay. Now I know what TG means, and I can die from this horrible flu happily. =^.^=

And yeah, it is cruel to say but not really say. Maybe that's why I do it all the time...hmm...I'll have to ponder that one.

An example of what tends to happen: The other weekend, I resdiscovered that the cuticle cutter in my manicure set is quite sharp. And my poor boyfriend still has marks. He enjoyed it, though, so I think that takes away a bit of the evil.

...Right? :D

Lol, my pleasure :)

He he, well of course, it's all that wonderful pain/pleasure balance... mmm ;)

Lol, my pleasure :)

He he, well of course, it's all that wonderful pain/pleasure balance... mmm ;)

Quite so. :D I didn't really discover it until I started with him. I was giving him a back massage, and he asked if I'd mind terribly using my nails. Turns out I didn't.

Quite so. :D I didn't really discover it until I started with him. I was giving him a back massage, and he asked if I'd mind terribly using my nails. Turns out I didn't.

:D Had always been in my mind before, but he brought it out of me, twisting me into his evil creation :p

Ah, the joys of dirty emails... We have a nice little story going along. Last time I was the slave (over 20,000 words) but this time he is so I get my revenge, mwah ha ha :D

Mmm...dirty emails ARE fun. Dirty IM conversations are even better, however, as are phone calls. Our last one spanned...two nights? Three? I don't remember. I do remember that he was the slave, though. We both prefer it that way. :D

The question here is, did you make money on the transaction?
yes, I did indeed make money

Mmm...dirty emails ARE fun. Dirty IM conversations are even better, however, as are phone calls. Our last one spanned...two nights? Three? I don't remember. I do remember that he was the slave, though. We both prefer it that way. :D
girls this is not the girls gone wild sex thread. so cut it out,. because if my thread gets locked because of two gigglers posting bedroom tips out of Cosmopolitan magazine, i am going to get pissed. so, if you want to continue that type of conversation, start your own thread.

Hmm.
I only got 256.
Which is odd, knowing me.

wow. i scored... well i scored low. extra low.

He told me he took of the top of her conditioner and jerked off into it both times he went to use the bathroom. For a few days, every time she came out of the shower, I couldn't help but laugh my ass off! I know that it really shouldn't be funny, but to me it is. Is that wrong?
well. well. well. i am not trying to top that , like a boaster, but, fucking a , i think along the same lines. but worse :) here is an idea for next time.
i have 5 best friends, all male. been friends with them since first grade. as adults, we all live with 2 blocks of each other, and we have an open door policy. so, it is well known to them that during my three plus showers per day, i tend to sing classic metallica, LOUD. sometimes, i switch out to some cheesy hair metal, but usually it is a fullon cliff burton tribute in my steamy shower. they thought it would be hysterical to put a little camera in the vent. and to run a mic in the medicine cabinet. i had no clue about this,until my birthday party. i was treated to my terrible voice, singing "master! master! where s the dreams that i ve been after!", and my soapy breasts on a BIG SCREEN TELEVISION in front of about 70 people. needless to say, a riot ensued.anyhow, i waited, and plotted my revenge. i knew in two months, some girls from slovakia were coming to visit some family friends, and some of the guys were interested- BIG TIME. the weekend before the company came, we were sitting around, and i got them all worried about their skin, and conned them into trying some of my chick facial mask stuff. little did they know, i had given a big jar to my homosexual neighbor who was the enforcer at a gay night club. (the little shrimp. i kid you not) he had collected some , well, face it, A LOT of "DNA " samples in a week. apparently, the bois at thatr club loooove giving semen samples. so, here is jeremy, steven and brandon, laying on my living room floor, faces covered in what they thought was clinique turn around mask, and steve says, "this stuff smells like shit, what the fuck is in this?" and "my skin better not smell like this after" here goes I- "hey, why dont you ask this guy about it?" and i handed him a picture of a mid to late fifties balding naked guy, penis in hand, beauty product jar in other, BIGG smile on his face. i dont know what was worse, the fact that two of them vomited on my carpet, or the fact that the third vomited on ME. hahahaha. revenge is a bitch, eh?

Well, I'm a compulsive eater and I have a terrible sense of humor. I can rarely pull off a joke correctly because I always bring obscure things that only I know about into humor.

I'm also horrendously impatient. And I pop zits whenever one shows up.

I'm unconsciously mildly prejudiced against "alternative lifstyles." Typically when the reaction comes up, my conscious mind comes along and beats it down, but the reaction still comes up.

Caffeine addict.

I often fail to express my opinions verbally properly.

well. well. well. i am not trying to top that , like a boaster, but, fucking a , i think along the same lines. but worse :) here is an idea for next time.
i have 5 best friends, all male. been friends with them since first grade. as adults, we all live with 2 blocks of each other, and we have an open door policy. so, it is well known to them that during my three plus showers per day, i tend to sing classic metallica, LOUD. sometimes, i switch out to some cheesy hair metal, but usually it is a fullon cliff burton tribute in my steamy shower. they thought it would be hysterical to put a little camera in the vent. and to run a mic in the medicine cabinet. i had no clue about this,until my birthday party. i was treated to my terrible voice, singing "master! master! where s the dreams that i ve been after!", and my soapy breasts on a BIG SCREEN TELEVISION in front of about 70 people. needless to say, a riot ensued.anyhow, i waited, and plotted my revenge. i knew in two months, some girls from slovakia were coming to visit some family friends, and some of the guys were interested- BIG TIME. the weekend before the company came, we were sitting around, and i got them all worried about their skin, and conned them into trying some of my chick facial mask stuff. little did they know, i had given a big jar to my homosexual neighbor who was the enforcer at a gay night club. (the little shrimp. i kid you not) he had collected some , well, face it, A LOT of "DNA " samples in a week. apparently, the bois at thatr club loooove giving semen samples. so, here is jeremy, steven and brandon, laying on my living room floor, faces covered in what they thought was clinique turn around mask, and steve says, "this stuff smells like shit, what the fuck is in this?" and "my skin better not smell like this after" here goes I- "hey, why dont you ask this guy about it?" and i handed him a picture of a mid to late fifties balding naked guy, penis in hand, beauty product jar in other, BIGG smile on his face. i dont know what was worse, the fact that two of them vomited on my carpet, or the fact that the third vomited on ME. hahahaha. revenge is a bitch, eh?
Abases himself in awe of Occidio's creative revenge. :eek:

Abases himself in awe of Occidio's creative revenge. :eek:
that was hard to think of. all the revenge i think of involves blood, bullets, sharp shiny things, dull rusty things, dead cats, contagious disease, etc. etc. etc. but they are my dearest friends. and i would never hurt them.

dead cats
I would hope these are cats that die naturally. If it were dogs I wouldn't really care, but cats...

I would hope these are cats that die naturally. If it were dogs I wouldn't really care, but cats... i am the exact opposite.

i am the exact opposite.
Hissssssssssssss :p


I have never met an evil cat. On the other hand, I've known some pretty nasty dogs. There was also this one mastiff that was quite nice. The thing would push you over trying to get you to pet it, of course, but it was a beautiful dog.

Hissssssssssssss :p


I have never met an evil cat. On the other hand, I've known some pretty nasty dogs. There was also this one mastiff that was quite nice. The thing would push you over trying to get you to pet it, of course, but it was a beautiful dog.

Most cats I've known are evil. That's why I like them. Dogs lack the imagination to be evil.

Most cats I've known are evil. That's why I like them. Dogs lack the imagination to be evil.

cats suck, mostly because they are boring. dogs, now they do all sorts of affectionate things. plus, they are much more fun to play with. dogs are a billion times better then cats.

cats suck, mostly because they are boring. dogs, now they do all sorts of affectionate things. plus, they are much more fun to play with. dogs are a billion times better then cats.
How are dogs better than cats? cats are also better than dogs, so they cancel eachother out.

How are dogs better than cats? cats are also better than dogs, so they cancel eachother out.

dogs are extra affectionate, as opposed to cats who just sit around. dogs are more fun and playful, as opposed to cats who just.. sit around. dogs are cooler lookin too.

either way, this isnt very relevant, so i'll stop here.

perhaps some more disfunction, i'll have to think of some things.

Most cats I've known are evil. That's why I like them. Dogs lack the imagination to be evil.

Cats are not evil. They just don't like rude people. If you know cat manners they treat you well.

for some reason a slew of things i completely forgot about just came to mind

i dont know how i forgot it, but i recall getting my 8th grade math teacher mrs. aurthur fired simply cause i despised her. from what i heard she moved to her hometown somewhere in texas to teach there. that could be wrong

as an even younger child, someone i knew told me they were horribly allergic to garlic salt. i wanted to test the theory out. he wasnt lying.

and the whole dog/cat discussion made me remember a few cruel things i have done to animals.

i did alot of fun things like sodomizing a frog with a blackcat, lighting it, and tossing the fucker up in the air with a resounding "boom". i used to have a cat that i would throw into a pool from a pretty high distance. i have taken one of my sisters small fish, shoved the stick for a can of compressed air at it, and shot it towards a friend. fish dont fly. another time i trapped a frog in a foldgers can with the lid on, and through a small opening soaked him in candle wax with the intent to make a statue. it worked, however the smell was awful.

most of that wasnt really all that bad, just felt like posting.

Cats are not evil. They just don't like rude people. If you know cat manners they treat you well.
thats one thing in life i consider to be top on my un- important things list-\
Cat Manners.

anyhow, nice post Adrian. you sick f**k. ;) you should go to mortuary school.
BTW- the deadcat thing involved the vivisection cat from mortuary school. after working on the dead pussy for a few days, instead of turning him in for "a respectful disposal" [yeah right, they threw them in the dumpster] i stole him. i named him sweeets, i remember. well, i put him in the freezer, and knew he would come in handy. he did , twice. once , when i met a guy that i knew was pretended to be this satanist, but was nothing but a danzig fan, if that. after a few hours {I MEAN WEEKS!} (heheh, got you though didnt i?) of dating, it was about time we started getting naked. right in the middle of relations, i was like, you know your so fucking evil, you know what would turn me on? he- "yeah, tell me, young one" me- reach hand , under bed, and pull sweets under the blanket, and put him right between us. he- "WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK!!OH MY GOD ! IS THAT A DEAD CAT??? YOU SICK BITCH" and on and on, and on. it was super awesome.
i will post another brave thing sweets did later.

But you did freeze Sweets everytime after working on him for days? A dead cat is one thing, a decomposed mess that looks vaguely like a cat is another. :D
I have nothing to confess right now, my mind being busy otherwise.

thats one thing in life i consider to be top on my un- important things list-\
Cat Manners.

anyhow, nice post Adrian. you sick f**k. ;) you should go to mortuary school.
BTW- the deadcat thing involved the vivisection cat from mortuary school. after working on the dead pussy for a few days, instead of turning him in for "a respectful disposal" [yeah right, they threw them in the dumpster] i stole him. i named him sweeets, i remember. well, i put him in the freezer, and knew he would come in handy. he did , twice. once , when i met a guy that i knew was pretended to be this satanist, but was nothing but a danzig fan, if that. after a few hours {I MEAN WEEKS!} (heheh, got you though didnt i?) of dating, it was about time we started getting naked. right in the middle of relations, i was like, you know your so fucking evil, you know what would turn me on? he- "yeah, tell me, young one" me- reach hand , under bed, and pull sweets under the blanket, and put him right between us. he- "WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK!!OH MY GOD ! IS THAT A DEAD CAT??? YOU SICK BITCH" and on and on, and on. it was super awesome.
i will post another brave thing sweets did later.

Oh, poor little satanist. that is awesome. but tell me, did you keep dating him simply for the opportunity to rub a dead cat on him at his most vulnerable?

(meaningless emoticon time: :sniper: :mp5: :p :gundge: :fluffle: :mad: )

Oh, poor little satanist. that is awesome. but tell me, did you keep dating him simply for the opportunity to rub a dead cat on him at his most vulnerable?

(meaningless emoticon time: :sniper: :mp5: :p :gundge: :fluffle: :mad: )
hell, no. that guy wouldnt come near me again if his life depended on it. i think he was scared that i was going to make fun of how tiny his genitalia was when he jumped out of the bed....

Jester- sweets remained a well preserved specimen- thanks to the freezer, and the fact he had already been injected the world over with embalming chemicals at mort school.

since noone is reading this thread right now,and i am not busy posting responses to all of the confessors on here, i will now post the second use of sweets, my beloved stolen laboratory feline. (read prior posts to get to know him)
after sweets was used to disrupt what i know for a fact was going to be crappy sex, he wen tback to the freezer, only to emerge as an important guess, at an important event.
my mother had a heart attack, from stress. she was in the hospital for almost a month, and the doctors the docs told her she needed to lighten up,live a little, laugh a lot, and the what not. her friends decided to have her a big mother day party, seeing how she has 13 kids, and was a foster mom ,and blah blah. it was a fun day, my brothers and sisters did different cool things, like making our home movies into these funny vignettes and giveing her collages of family photos with funny captions. did i do that? hell no. i walked right up to her matron of honor chair, with a covered silveplatter in hand. i said- "Ma.i know i was your hardest kid to raise. i want you to know i appreciate all your advice t me. i used to get frustrated when i couldnt find the perfect way of doing things (subscribers of this thread, you know i have serious OCD) and you would tell me- "linda there are different ways of skinning the cat" and anow, i figured out, there is absolutely a way to literally SKIN A CAT!" i took the lid off the platter, and presented her with sweets. i had put an american flag bikini on him, and stuffed an apple in his mouth. people thought it was pretty funny- the ones that knew me. others thought it was sick, and still hold disdain for me to this day. one of my sisters puked. my dad almost fainted, and my mom? she was so used to her "different kid" she just said "Linda, i hope you washed your hands. Now get that thing the hell away from me" she laughed later though, and it is her favorite story about me.

:D
That's awesome.
I'm surprised she didn't have another heart attack or something.

:D
That's awesome.
I'm surprised she didn't have another heart attack or something.
nahhh. she is used to me by now.

Where am I supposed to start reading, Occidio?

Where am I supposed to start reading, Occidio?
the whole thread.





kidding. unless you want. page 36, post 535 my revenge stories start.

Another thing... :D


Sometimes, someone posts something, even though it's completely harmless, I get quite infuriated, and begin contemplating typing up something really nasty. Eventually, of course, after a few seconds, my cooler side prevails :)

Quite resurrecting threads you necromancer.

Poor Pluto.
Probably because you're about half my age.
But maybe this will make up for it. :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle:

<snip>
Gee, um thanks :D

:fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle:

Plus, I like older ladies... http://img227.exs.cx/img227/8438/pimp4tq.gif

;)

You perv.
I like that in a person. :D

You perv.
I like that in a person. :D
*blush*

Thank you! :D

:fluffle:

*blush*

Thank you! :D

:fluffle:
Do you two want the rest of us to leave?
oh, shameless and largely pointless bump, by the way.

I avoid unplesant thoughts and duties until I am forced to face them. This gets me in a lot of trouble.

I don't know if I already said this earlier in this thread, but another thing I have is a bad back--multiple scoliosis, two curvatures in my spine resembling the letter "S".