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No. I heard some people mention they were talking about me, but I never did figure out exactly what it was that was said.
read this ;) thread, smarty

In person to person relationships, I spend a lot of my idle time gaming out what I think people are going to do next. I then see if they act as predicted, and try to correct my logic so that next time, I do a better job.

I am very likely to do this to an extreme if someone actually becomes a pain in the ass. Then I game it to death.

read this ;) thread, smarty
Ohh.
Hmm, I'll go do that.

Sorry...just saw this.


IMO.


Self mutilation is only a form of self gratification. Ie someone likes to masturbate, another person likes to make themself blee, another person likes to make someone else happy, another person gets off by smelling library books.

the only difference is that "cutting" (so eloquently put) scares anyone afraid of blood...so long as they aren't slitting their aeorta...you've nothing to worry about.

allow them their self gratification.
I must respectfully disagree. I have problems with self-mutilation, and it's not a gratification thing at all. I don't know what it is, but it seems to have something to do with the fact that it dissociates me.

And if it didn't, we'd probably go blow something up for fun.
explosives? you are weak ;) i would just slaughter people.
*more from me soon

* my friend slit his throat and wrists in the bathroom at his house during a party. we found him, near death, and when i was trying to stop thebleeding, i said cruel things about suicide being a pussy thing to do. i thoought he was going to live, but he didnt. those were the last words he heard
I've done something similar. More than once...

explosives? you are weak ;) i would just slaughter people.
*more from me soon
But there are sooo many places that are worthy to be blown to smithereens. We've got Lambeau Field, Daley's brownstone, the UN Headquarters, and the Eiffel Tower, just for kicks.

yeah, i (mostly) understand the whole bipolar thing. one of my closest friends (who is living with me at the moment) is very bipolar... i havent seen him in about 2 weeks, he has just vanished. bipolar disorder is never fun. i hope you never get to that level of depression again.
Vanished?
Does he do that often?
I know that when I vanished, I was either off doing something incredibly dangerous and stupid, or trying to off myself.

okay. dont hold your breath.
*i had pretty much almost sex with my boss to get a promotion to freelancer.
i had a boyfriend at the time.
* i have what i consider a pretty good friend, made on the net. i have known him for a year, and think about him way too often for it to be considered harmless. this includes during intimate moments with bf.i know nothing will ever come of it, and dont want to try, but really, i have recognized this as an issue. i am also writing this kind of sort of hoping he reads it and gets all stoked, even though i know he wont. he will be like FUCK. so if you read it, you know who- don't worry. you are after all, 1500 miles away.
* i think about sex constantly.
*i tend to think my qualities are far better than other peoples. humor, looks, physique, clothes etc.

Wow. I just read the entire thread.

even though i thought i would not give advice and try and help people through this thread, there is one poster that i feel is in a considerable danger to himself. i am TG ing him right now. i did not want to "call him out" on the forum, as i think it would be detrimental to the situation. thought i would be honest about that

* i think about sex constantly.
Completely normal, I assure you :p

even though i thought i would not give advice and try and help people through this thread, there is one poster that i feel is in a considerable danger to himself. i am TG ing him right now. i did not want to "call him out" on the forum, as i think it would be detrimental to the situation. thought i would be honest about that
Really?
Huh, I didn't really notice anything all that dangerous here except for me.
I've woken up to find I've cut myself in my sleep or something. I went to sleep, next thing I know I'm waking up the next morning and I find out that I've got a massive gash in my arm and my mattress is wrecked from the blood.

i often feel quite empty, like meursault in l'étranger by camus. does anyone else feel empathy is for the most part a lie and feel pressured into expressing emotions the don't feel by society?

i often feel quite empty, like meursault in l'étranger by camus. does anyone else feel empathy is for the most part a lie and feel pressured into expressing emotions the don't feel by society?
I don't feel that empathy is a lie. I'm very empathic. You might say that I feel more of what others do than of myself. Me, I have two moods. Happy and manic or depressed and morbid. My moods just cycle on their own, and thinking about it, I don't even really regard them as a part of me at all. Just an annoyance that comes and goes, disconnected from me.

Really?
Huh, I didn't really notice anything all that dangerous here except for me.
I've woken up to find I've cut myself in my sleep or something. I went to sleep, next thing I know I'm waking up the next morning and I find out that I've got a massive gash in my arm and my mattress is wrecked from the blood.
okay then ,you too. there is a person that i know pretty well on here, and his post on this thread alarms me. it is nothing like him, at all.

Completely normal, I assure you :p
not the kind of sex i think about . ;)

who votes for this thread to reeeaally take a downward spiral?

okay then ,you too. there is a person that i know pretty well on here, and his post on this thread alarms me. it is nothing like him, at all.
Hrm, I have no idea who you're talking about still, but I just noticed that something somebody said was reallyreally unlike them. Probably a different person, though.

who votes for this thread to reeeaally take a downward spiral?
Hrm, I can help with that.
:D

not the kind of sex i think about . ;)
Reeeally? See, now I've got a problem. I'm intrigued, but I have to go to class in five minutes. Dammit. :( I want all the sordid details.


*Bribes with 2 Toblerone bars and a bag of Haribro gummi bears.*

Reeeally? See, now I've got a problem. I'm intrigued, but I have to go to class in five minutes. Dammit. :( I want all the sordid details.


*Bribes with 2 Toblerone bars and a bag of Haribro gummi bears.*
go to class. i dont eat sugar :p you tell your sordid details, i ill tell mine about the sex tonight. it is much easier to hear in the dark

Hrm, I can help with that.
:D
i have been WAITING for you to say that. really. i think you are the most interesting person on here.

more of much more
* a friends sister in highschool sought me out saying that she needed my help, as i seemed like the non judgemental type. she let me know she needed my help getting an abortion, as she was pregnant by her dad. i know that dad was coerced into a fatal drug overdose. it was in the newspaper. it was later found out to be her brothers baby. he got lost in the woods. [disclaimer. ]those are not the real circumstances. i dont want to get anyone in trouble. but you get the idea.

i often feel quite empty, like meursault in l'étranger by camus. does anyone else feel empathy is for the most part a lie and feel pressured into expressing emotions the don't feel by society?

Empathy is not a lie, it is an extension of a persons ability to reasonable infer what another person is experiencing. Some people tend to exaggerate it, and make stupid decisions based on needless empathy, however.

Well, lesse, how's this:
I've almost murdered more than one person. One time in public, in school.

more of much more
* a friends sister in highschool sought me out saying that she needed my help, as i seemed like the non judgemental type. she let me know she needed my help getting an abortion, as she was pregnant by her dad. i know that dad was coerced into a fatal drug overdose. it was in the newspaper. it was later found out to be her brothers baby. he got lost in the woods. [disclaimer. ]those are not the real circumstances. i dont want to get anyone in trouble. but you get the idea.

You have lead a very interesting life. I, on the other hand, have lived most of my life in my own head.

You have lead a very interesting life. I, on the other hand, have lived most of my life in my own head.

Better than some people, who spend most of their life up their own...

Interesting, I suppose for my very first post ever I am going to really make a great impression.

I hate everyone I do not already know.
I have no symptoms of compassion for victims.
I use sex to further my advantage in my relationships with men. Not actual sex mind you.
I am obsessed with cleanliness.
I fear I am going to ruin my child with my desire to have everything in order in my house.
Sadness causes me to cut good friends out of my life. I am too suspicious to allow anyone other than my husband to know much about me.

Other than that, I'm rock and roll

Interesting, I suppose for my very first post ever I am going to really make a great impression.

I hate everyone I do not already know.
I have no symptoms of compassion for victims.
I use sex to further my advantage in my relationships with men. Not actual sex mind you.
I am obsessed with cleanliness.
I fear I am going to ruin my child with my desire to have everything in order in my house.
Sadness causes me to cut good friends out of my life. I am too suspicious to allow anyone other than my husband to know much about me.

Other than that, I'm rock and roll

We're all rock and roll here.

Well, lesse, how's this:
I've almost murdered more than one person. One time in public, in school.
Come on, is nobody going to ask me why the fuck I tried to pull something that idiotic?

You have lead a very interesting life. I, on the other hand, have lived most of my life in my own head. now, thanks to me, you will probally take a jump out of your head......

Come on, is nobody going to ask me why the fuck I tried to pull something that idiotic?
i want the story, written out, newspaper style.

i want the story, written out, newspaper style.
LOL, newspaper style? I'm a bad reporter.
Anyway, here's the story of the worst incident:
I often carry a knife with me, as I don't have a license to carry a gun. Which is probably a good thing for the rest of the world. This one incident, I had brought it to school, which I usually didn't do as it's illegal, but I had heard of a threat to my life.

So, I was just at lunch, when I got up and somebody hit me. Usually, I wouldn't do much, as I'm very weak, and this was in front of the entire cafeteria, so everybody would know the whole incident wasn't my fault anyway. But this time something different happened. I lunged at the kid, and pinned him against the wall by the throat. I almost choked the kid, and got in a lot of trouble for it.

What they didn't know was that with my other hand, I was holding a knife to him. I'm good at concealing weapons, so nobody had the foggiest that the kid almost died. I can't even remember who it was anymore, it wasn't even one of my real enemies, just some guy that wanted to pick a fight.

now, thanks to me, you will probally take a jump out of your head......

Nope, I will incessantly analyze and critique you in the privacy of my own head, but you would have never known if I hadn't told you. You would be very interesting to analyze, though, you seem to defy most convention.

more mayhem for the masses.
* i cannot help but the tell the truth to questions. "do i look fat?" me- yep. and i dont care really, who the hell gets hurt.
* i think people are evil if their kids are in daycare. if you need to work, dont have kids until you can afford to raise them properly.
*i want to call in to work for a week. so if my boss says no, yes, i will do whatever it takes to get my week vacation.
*i despise fat people. i am willing to take you to the gym to work out , and motivate you though.
* i am a racist, against every race. even my races. i just think fucked up shit about cultures.
* ihope this thread is making everyone uncomfortable. because i like that.
* some bodies at work, i laugh at them, and think horrible things about how they died, old age, flu, (GET A FLU SHOT), etc.

LOL, newspaper style? I'm a bad reporter.
Anyway, here's the story of the worst incident:
I often carry a knife with me, as I don't have a license to carry a gun. Which is probably a good thing for the rest of the world. This one incident, I had brought it to school, which I usually didn't do as it's illegal, but I had heard of a threat to my life.

that is awesome. good thing you can protect yourself.

more mayhem for the masses.
* i cannot help but the tell the truth to questions. "do i look fat?" me- yep. and i dont care really, who the hell gets hurt.
* i think people are evil if their kids are in daycare. if you need to work, dont have kids until you can afford to raise them properly.
*i want to call in to work for a week. so if my boss says no, yes, i will do whatever it takes to get my week vacation.
*i despise fat people. i am willing to take you to the gym to work out , and motivate you though.
* i am a racist, against every race. even my races. i just think fucked up shit about cultures.
* ihope this thread is making everyone uncomfortable. because i like that.
* some bodies at work, i laugh at them, and think horrible things about how they died, old age, flu, (GET A FLU SHOT), etc.


I detest fat people as well. This is one more thing I fear will cause harm to my child.
You have a lot farther to go to make ME uncomfortable. Which leads me to my next fault
I can not make myself care what others think about me. Don't like me? Your problem, not mine

Nope, I will incessantly analyze and critique you in the privacy of my own head, but you would have never known if I hadn't told you. You would be very interesting to analyze, though, you seem to defy most convention.
i guess. we all do though. funny thing, is you met me, i would seem quite unlike this, as everyone seems to think i am kidding or not for real. only people close to me know what is goingon when i get quiet.

I detest fat people as well. This is one more thing I fear will cause harm to my child.
You have a lot farther to go to make ME uncomfortable. Which leads me to my next fault
I can not make myself care what others think about me. Don't like me? Your problem, not mine
you read the entire thread? ;)

keep confessing people. iwill be back in two hours. i have to clean.......

I detest fat people as well. This is one more thing I fear will cause harm to my child.
You have a lot farther to go to make ME uncomfortable. Which leads me to my next fault
I can not make myself care what others think about me. Don't like me? Your problem, not mine

Aren't you just a Suzie Badass

i guess. we all do though. funny thing, is you met me, i would seem quite unlike this, as everyone seems to think i am kidding or not for real. only people close to me know what is goingon when i get quiet.

There isn't a soul who has any idea what I am thinking when I get quiet. I won't let them find out. Actually, it would normally be very bad if they did find out. I actually have paranoid delusions that people can read my mind sometimes, and I just kind of laugh about it, but it can really freak me out.

You may seem different on the surface, but I would figure you out. It may take a while to dig in, but I could figure you out.

Aren't you just a Suzie Badass


Yet another fault I have. I was under the impression you can not call people out for this sort of confession on this thread.
Meh- not caring about what other folks think about me has it's perks

Yet another fault I have. I was under the impression you can not call people out for this sort of confession on this thread.
Meh- not caring about what other folks think about me has it's perks

It is my impression that when people say openly that they don't care what people think, then they really want people to think that they don't care what other people think.

I am not calling you out for what you called a flaw. I am just saying that you seem to be proud of this particular "flaw", and if you are proud of anything you must have a certain level of self-consciousness.

i have to clean.......
I have to clean, too. As in: did not do so in the last six month. I have to be carefull not to lose my footing in things that lie on my floor. Every corner has cobwebs, dirty laundry abounds and some food may still rot here or there. The last time i cleaned was because my ex wanted to stay over. I only clean up when i am sure i need the room tidy to get laid.
I am constantly agressive and can jump at peoples throats at the drop of a hat. On the other hand, i am easily scared and jumpy. Someone inapropriate coming too near to me either gets smacked or sends me fleeing. I like pain, inflicting and receiving, and am very afraid of it at the same time. I go berserk when provoked too much. Once i attacked someone with a shovel, hitting him several times with the blade while everything was behind a red veil.
I cant get my ass up to work out, even if i really need to lose a few pounds. I postpone to the extreme and still have no patience with others. I really hate how seniors act when push-entering the tram i just want to leave, so i push them aside while shouting insults at them. That is partly because i hate being nearly immobilized in a crowd, and partly because i have no understanding whatsoever for old geezers with tons of time to be that obsessed with being punctual to shopping or whatever.
I rationalize emotions. To the point that i feel i dont really love someone, even if i do. If someone says: "I would die for my lover" my answer is "And what is it that you gain? Your lover is important to you, but the you no longer exists. Let the lover die and find another"

More another time.

It is my impression that when people say openly that they don't care what people think, then they really want people to think that they don't care what other people think.

I am not calling you out for what you called a flaw. I am just saying that you seem to be proud of this particular "flaw", and if you are proud of anything you must have a certain level of self-consciousness.

Wow it only took 3 posts for you to completely figure me out. I must be sooo transparent.

Some more:

Sometimes when I get really excited, I feel a strong urge to laugh insanely. If this happens and people are around, I get a little irritated wait until I get home, but otherwise, I laugh as insanely as I possibly can for a little while. (I also try to make the laugher sound a bit evil, but I don't succeed especially well with that)

Whenever I walk home at night, (doesn't happen too often, but once in a while...) I get really excited in a weird way. (can't really explain) When that happens, I don't just feel like laughing insanely, but my thougts reach yet another level of weirdness...

I am extremely absent minded and distant whenever I concentrate hard on something. (extremely is no exaggeration. I don't notice anything that happens around me at all unless it is either something very unusual or something I'm waiting for)

I never feel guilt, and I'm never affected at all emotionally by "tragedies" unless they happen to someone I know. I am also never surprised, since I hardly ever have any expectations of anything. (and when I do have expectations, they are never strong)

Wow it only took 3 posts for you to completely figure me out. I must be sooo transparent.

I most certainly haven't figured you out. But anytime someone makes the statement that they don't care what people think, I immediately think he/she is trying to hard to be Joe Cool.

If I cared, I could figure out whether you were that way or not.

Sometimes when I get really excited, I feel a strong urge to laugh insanely. If this happens and people are around, I get a little irritated wait until I get home, but otherwise, I laugh as insanely as I possibly can for a little while. (I also try to make the laugher sound a bit evil, but I don't succeed especially well with that)
I used to have a huge problem with laughing when other people got injured. I'd laugh until I was at the point where I'd fall down or faint due to lack of oxygen to the brain, and I couldn't stop it. Luckily I'm over that.

LOL, newspaper style? I'm a bad reporter.
Anyway, here's the story of the worst incident:
I often carry a knife with me, as I don't have a license to carry a gun. Which is probably a good thing for the rest of the world. This one incident, I had brought it to school, which I usually didn't do as it's illegal, but I had heard of a threat to my life.

So, I was just at lunch, when I got up and somebody hit me. Usually, I wouldn't do much, as I'm very weak, and this was in front of the entire cafeteria, so everybody would know the whole incident wasn't my fault anyway. But this time something different happened. I lunged at the kid, and pinned him against the wall by the throat. I almost choked the kid, and got in a lot of trouble for it.

What they didn't know was that with my other hand, I was holding a knife to him. I'm good at concealing weapons, so nobody had the foggiest that the kid almost died. I can't even remember who it was anymore, it wasn't even one of my real enemies, just some guy that wanted to pick a fight.
Did you back off by yourself or were you pulled off?

I have to clean, too. As in: did not do so in the last six month. I have to be carefull not to lose my footing in things that lie on my floor. Every corner has cobwebs, dirty laundry abounds and some food may still rot here or there. The last time i cleaned was because my ex wanted
-snip-

More another time.
fucking awesome you took me up on this. :)

There isn't a soul who has any idea what I am thinking when I get quiet. I won't let them find out. Actually, it would normally be very bad if they did find out. I actually have paranoid delusions that people can read my mind sometimes, and I just kind of laugh about it, but it can really freak me out.

You may seem different on the surface, but I would figure you out. It may take a while to dig in, but I could figure you out.
i think you could. problem is, we are a lot alike.

Did you back off by yourself or were you pulled off?
I backed off myself. I luckily came to my senses.

Yet another fault I have. I was under the impression you can not call people out for this sort of confession on this thread.
Meh- not caring about what other folks think about me has it's perks
dont mind vittos- he has no self control :D

I'd laugh until I was at the point where I'd fall down or faint due to lack of oxygen to the brain, and I couldn't stop it. Luckily I'm over that.

like how hard you just made me laugh when i read that.? i still laugh at decadents when they come into the prep room with fucked up expressions. and people getting hurt? oh thats bad. i spend half my time on ogrish dot com getting really really happy at those pictures.

some more thoughts

*before i started posting on this forum: i really hated , i mean really fucking hated, loathed, could kill stab, mutilate people like Neo . that whole gender misidentification thing really fucking irked me. but for some reason, right when i found that out about Neo, it did not bother me a bit. maybe because her personality really comes through the typed word, and she is so effing funny and sarcastic and witty, and deadpan, that it reaches beyond that thing about her. or maybe its intervention from another plane in life telling me to quit being so damn ignorant. whatever it is, it is a welcome change in me, because she is one of the best people i have met online. i mean that, too, Neo.

dont mind vittos- he has no self control :D

I was hoping to get a rise out of her, she was wise to ignore me.

;) I was hoping to get a rise out of her, she was wise to ignore me.
yes. did you see my pickup line from your thread?

I used to have a huge problem with laughing when other people got injured. I'd laugh until I was at the point where I'd fall down or faint due to lack of oxygen to the brain, and I couldn't stop it. Luckily I'm over that.

I hope you aren't joking.

Brutally Honest, eh?

I care way too much what people think about me to the point of obsession. I stand on the brink of sanity because the road I took to get there washed out behind me. Afraid of death, but more of life, I look forward to sleeping and the oblivion it brings. Anti-social because nobody confirmed my existence until I turned 16. I have a way of seeing into other people's character and refuse to focus it on myself. When others see light, I see dark, because the light is the oblivion, and destroys all it touches. All the good and humane things in this world I see as forbidden, as they are swept from my sight before I can grasp them. If there is a god, he must be an asshole, because I'm always on the flip side of every coin toss, of every hand of poker, of every fucking game of bingo. Losing streak a lifetime long, hard-pressed to find a moment of even partial happiness. Depressed from the happiness others find, and my own lack of any. Depraved and willing to change the world in dastardly ways, wishing for another solution. I have to say, my only strong point is my will to survive, and that's based mostly on vengeance, so . . .

I see conspiracies, I really do.

"I think it's time for some chlorine in the gene pool."
---Imposticy

"Justice is found only at the end of a double-barrel shotgun."
---Scott Benedeau

I hope you aren't joking.
Aren't joking about what in that?
That I'm mostly over it?

Aren't joking about what in that?
That I'm mostly over it?
note the use of mostly.

"Justice is found only at the end of a double-barrel shotgun."
---Scott Benedeau

Justice is lost at the end of a double-barrel shotgun.

Aren't joking about what in that?
That I'm mostly over it?

Everything before that.

Im extremely sociopathic, quite homecidal (though i havnt actually killed anyone yet) im a terrible perv and just generally lazy.

Im extremely sociopathic, quite homecidal (though i havnt actually killed anyone yet) im a terrible perv and just generally lazy.

You should be in therapy in some institution, far away from me.

also i will (if i ever get the chance ) honestly try to take over the world. ive written up this huge plan including timetables for construction budgets and propaganda to round up loyal followers :p

Im extremely sociopathic, quite homecidal (though i havnt actually killed anyone yet) im a terrible perv and just generally lazy.
well, you havent killed anyone yet because you are lazy. sorry, i said i wouldnt, but i had to............ :(

well, you havent killed anyone yet because you are lazy. sorry, i said i wouldnt, but i had to............ :(

lol...i was actually going to state that as a reason but forgot while reading posts

Justice is lost at the end of a double-barrel shotgun.
between this, and....................
this...........

You should be in therapy in some institution, far away from me.

you have to stop.
really.

Everything before that.
:confused:
You're hoping I'm not joking about laughing at hurt people?
Why?
I wish I were joking.

All right, here's some brutal honesty:

In person, around large groups of people, I'm always withdrawn and quiet. Around one or two people, I'm good, but any more than that, I just shut up and try not to talk. It doesn't matter if I know the people or not, I even do it with friends.

That wouldn't be so bad, by itself, but because of that, I spend a lot of time by myself, and I've started to talk to myself. Its not quite schizophrenia (is that spelled right?) or any sort of multiple personality thing, but I've had conversations with myself before. Infact, some times its a three way talk, with three different sides of myself: the meek side, the brave side, and the crazy side. I'm worried that this may be a precursor to my going insane or developing multiple personalities.

Well, here I go...

I'm obsessive compulsive (not that bad, I just fall into habits and patterns really easily), I have motivational problems, and I suck at relationships. I'm also a weird mix of insanely polite and assholish. I also look at porn way too much, and I make fun of practically everything. Literally, it seems like nothing is sacred to me, not even those tsunami victims, hell, while I felt bad for them, I still joke about it with friends. I troll on Christian forums, spammed goatse and tubgirl on a forum for teenage girls, and almost seem to go out of my way to piss off special interest groups.

EDIT: Oh yeah, I hate crowds a lot. In social groups of about three people, I shine, but anymore then that and I typically withdraw into myself. Oh yeah, I'm also pretty egotistical, but I usually manage to hide it.

between this, and....................
this...........



you have to stop.
really.

Sorry.

All right, here's some brutal honesty:

In person, around large groups of people, I'm always withdrawn and quiet. Around one or two people, I'm good, but any more than that, I just shut up and try not to talk. It doesn't matter if I know the people or not, I even do it with friends.

That wouldn't be so bad, by itself, but because of that, I spend a lot of time by myself, and I've started to talk to myself. Its not quite schizophrenia (is that spelled right?) or any sort of multiple personality thing, but I've had conversations with myself before. Infact, some times its a three way talk, with three different sides of myself: the meek side, the brave side, and the crazy side. I'm worried that this may be a precursor to my going insane or developing multiple personalities.
i dont have good advice, but 80% of the posters on this thread talk to themselves. among other things.

i dont have good advice, but 80% of the posters on this thread talk to themselves. among other things.
yeah, I mean, c'mon, DID can't be all that bad. Less boring and all.
:D

Sorry.

i didnt expect an apology from a persom who is making me laugh.
did you think i was serious?

i dont have good advice, but 80% of the posters on this thread talk to themselves. among other things.

I also converse with myself and in animate objects, and last week I um kinda fel asleep cuddling my bass

i dont have good advice, but 80% of the posters on this thread talk to themselves. among other things.

Well, its nice to know that I won't be alone at the loony bin later on. :D

Now for some small details:

I hardly use body language at all, and I always speak in the exact same way, with a few exceptions. For me talking with someone is simply an exchange of information, and nothing more.

I usually only sleep 5-6 (mostly around 5) hours a night with the exception of weekends and holidays. The reasons are as follows: 1. The earth rotates too fast, meaning each day far too short for me. :D 2. I keep sitting in front of my computer all night.

Well, here I go...

I'm obsessive compulsive, I have motivational problems, and I suck at relationships. I'm also a weird mix of insanely polite and assholish. I also look at porn way too much, and I make fun of practically everything. Literally, it seems like nothing is sacred to me, not even those tsunami victims, hell, while I felt bad for them, I still joke about it with friends. I troll on Christian forums, spammed goatse and tubgirl on a forum for teenage girls, and almost seem to go out of my way to piss off special interest groups.
well, well. see you ogrish dot com.

Got woken up early this morning cause some asshole put the phone in my room and rang me a couple of times. I thought while I was here I might aswell add some thing..
I have a habbit of blaming every thing bad on one person. I call him Gaweth or Gaget but his real name is Gareth. When ever some thing bad happens to me I have no trouble coming up with what his sneaky little plan was to make it work. It was probably even him who put the phone in my room. I cant really think of any examples but use your imagination.... just remember that he causes every thing and I mean EVERY THING to go wrong. You might not think that is possible but it is and I know because he does it to me.

Okay,
I've admitted this elsewhere on this forum, but in keeping with the theme I'll share my disgraces:

I left my first wife of 5 rocky years. I gave up dealing with difficult but not impossible issues. I then had an affair with a married woman that lasted almost 2 years and tried very hard to get her to marry me and probably would have succeded if I had kept it up much longer. My conscience finally got the best of me and I ended the relationship.

During both of those relationships, I was involved in viewing pronography.

As an adolescent, I could seriously have hurt my brother by hitting him in the forhead with a rock. Lost my temper and threw it to scare him. Didn't really mean to hit him. It scared me pretty bad and from then on I have been much better at controling my temper/haven't been violent with anyone since.

I have suffered Suicidal ideations under extremely emotionally trying circumstances, though never with intent to actually do myself harm as much as just wishing I had never been. This is not currently, nor has it recently been the case.

That's enough for now I suppose.

i didnt expect an apology from a persom who is making me laugh.
did you think i was serious?

Add a damn smiley face or something, I thought that I had pissed you off for some reason.

Add a damn smiley face or something, I thought that I had pissed you off for some reason. oh, is that what they make those things for? :D

I'm obsessive compulsive (not that bad, I just fall into habits and patterns really easily), I have motivational problems, and I suck at relationships. I'm also a weird mix of insanely polite and assholish. I also look at porn way too much, and I make fun of practically everything. Literally, it seems like nothing is sacred to me, not even those tsunami victims, hell, while I felt bad for them, I still joke about it with friends. I troll on Christian forums, spammed goatse and tubgirl on a forum for teenage girls, and almost seem to go out of my way to piss off special interest groups.
.

I got a PS2 hockey game a few days after the tsunami, when I first created a team, they were called the Indonesia Tsunamis, I even had a logo for it.

Pissing off people is always good, if you can pick out the right people, their reactions can be priceless. This thread is attracting a lot of gloomy angst ridden people and is a good place to start.

:confused:
You're hoping I'm not joking about laughing at hurt people?
Why?
I wish I were joking.
While it doesn't exactly seem positive, and sounds like a problem that others (especially the ones getting hurt) might have found serious, it makes you a far more intresting person. :D (plus that I find the thought of it happening pretty hilarious, almost to the point of laughing if I try to visualise it, but then I do have a weird sense of humor. I should also note that I find it faschinating at the same time, and that I mean no offense)

I got a PS2 hockey game a few days after the tsunami, when I first created a team, they were called the Indonesia Tsunamis, I even had a logo for it.

Pissing off people is always good, if you can pick out the right people, their reactions can be priceless. This thread is attracting a lot of gloomy angst ridden people and is a good place to start.
i found Tsunami deodorant by Axe. bought it for all my friends.

And to think before the whole deal in Indonesia, I though tsunami was a type of art where you fold up the paper into little animals and stuff.

i found Tsunami deodorant by Axe. bought it for all my friends.

That is a good one, you have to actually think to come up with that one.

I wonder if they will discontinue that line.

That is a good one, you have to actually think to come up with that one.

I wonder if they will discontinue that line.
hopefully, they will just change the scent to dead bloated corpse.

hopefully, they will just change the scent to dead bloated corpse.

Or Washed Out To Sea.

Oh yeah, I forgot. I'm also pretty shallow.

I can be really lazy, except when it comes to things i really have to do or really want to do. I also have a tendency to procrastinate sometimes and i can be really indecisive, but only with the small decisions, such as what to eat for dinner.

returning from my third shower today.... aaahhhh. mental illness never felt so good, until this thread. ;)

I am insanely lazy, and I procrastinate horrifically. I'm also a horrible speller, and I believe I spelled procrastinate wrong. Being nosy is my trademark, and I constantly ask questions. I have lost friends by my constant need to know everything, even things that do not concern me. I go out of my way to make others mad, then occasionally when they get mad I grin maliciously and take advantage of it. I'm manipulative, and addicted to online RPs.

In addition, I have the talent of discovering the exact wrong thing to say to someone, to hit them where it hurts as it were. I go out of my way to not do that, though--its not fair to the other person.

There are a few other things, but I need to find a way to phrase them without sounding horrible....

okay. an interesting thought. i am now wondering what is going on with the people who WONT post on here. hmmmmmmm???i also noticed there are two people who ghost read, and then had the audacity to jump in with advice for other people, but issues of their own went unmentioned. gotta love that perfection complex, eh?

also, where are the MODS posts on here? Myrth= sometimes i beam idiots like you into their CD burners. Kidding, he didnt say that. :D

There are a few other things, but I need to find a way to phrase them without sounding horrible....
did you read the rest of this thread? dont worry about putting anything lightly- :)

This message has been deleted by The Plutonian Empire. Reason: Illegal sexual activity :D
Some of you may have seen this. Let me explain.

I posted some sex-related stuff, but I got cold feet and felt it was revealing too much, so deleted the post, and typed "illegal sexual activity" for humorous purposes.

I'll repost that post, but with less information...

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More stuff about me:

I was born with a very active libedo/sex drive. I started masturbating when I was five. Many times as I grew up, I somehow managed to somehow screw up everytime I was about to get laid! :headbang: :mad:

I also download porno, to counter the fact that I remain single and without a lifelong sex partner.... *weeps uncontrollably*

Some of you may have seen this. Let me explain.

I posted some sex-related stuff, but I got cold feet and felt it was revealing too much, so deleted the post, and typed "illegal sexual activity" for humorous purposes.

I'll repost that post, but with less information...

-----------------------------------

More stuff about me:

I was born with a very active libedo/sex drive. I started masturbating when I was five. Many times as I grew up, I somehow managed to somehow screw up everytime I was about to get laid! :headbang: :mad:

I also download porno, to counter the fact that I remain single and without a lifelong sex partner.... *weeps uncontrollably*
you are young, dont stress too :) hard.

did you read the rest of this thread? dont worry about putting anything lightly- :)

Oh, I read it and all that jazz. Most of the really horrible stuff is quite revealing, however, and also I'm not sure what, exactly, I'm allowed to speak of on the boards. So I wouldn't know what to say, or I would.

This is the worst so far,

I have listened to that Mahna-Mahna song from the Muppet thread three straight times.

*hangs head*

I am such a douche.

you are young, dont stress too :) hard.
*sniff*

*sniff*

Thanks.

*sniff*

i found Tsunami deodorant by Axe. bought it for all my friends.
Oooh, secret fantasy of mine. Ever since Axe became big I have wanted to just hold a zippo right next to the guys(mainly jocks) who put waaaayyy too much on to see if they would burst into flame. I've managed to keep from doing it, however, mainly because I have a sneaking suspicion it would actually work.

Oh, I read it and all that jazz. Most of the really horrible stuff is quite revealing, however, and also I'm not sure what, exactly, I'm allowed to speak of on the boards. So I wouldn't know what to say, or I would.
just dont use anything too profane. you will be fine. and no porn links

This is the worst so far,

I have listened to that Mahna-Mahna song from the Muppet thread three straight times.

*hangs head*

I am such a douche.yeah you are. want to be my douche? because a real person would feel so much nicer than the cold unforgiving steel the current one is made of. insert smiley-

Oooh, secret fantasy of mine. Ever since Axe became big I have wanted to just hold a zippo right next to the guys(mainly jocks) who put waaaayyy too much on to see if they would burst into flame. I've managed to keep from doing it, however, mainly because I have a sneaking suspicion it would actually work. it would. ask the jocks if they are wearing the tsunami scent.

I hate most people and can hardly get along with anyone even if I try, I care very little about peoples feelings because I often find it hard to relate, I don't care what I look like-my hair is often pulled back in a makeshift ponytail, I never wear makeup even though it makes me look a ton better, I rarely do any work for school, I obbsess about my writing all the time and never get a boyfriend. :(

Hm, well then. Here it goes?

I'm supposedly a Catholic, was baptized when I was 12. Was in Italy at the time, and then moved back to where I am now. As I got older, I saw the corruption inherent within the system, and lost quite a bit of faith. Now, I go to Catholic church every week, sing and make innocent and sweet, then go home and read Tarot cards. This effectively makes me a hypocrite.

Also...well. I keep a whip. Not for defence.

insert smiley-

Oh, so now you are joking.

i'm lazy, shy, introverted, distant, absent-minded, forgetful, useless with maths (though not too bad with data analysis in progs like excel), i am a burden to my parents, i never get jobs done on time, i rarely finish things, im overweight, i have a tendancy (especially when tired or drunk) to unwittingly say snide remarks which have, on occasion, offended people (i don't mean to). i like to wake up as late as possible and generally would rather stay in bed all day - a combination of laziness and not wanting to face the world. i have become increasingly anti-social recently (this academic year) partly cos all my friends now have houses the other side of campus and i no longer share modules with any of them, partly cos im a bit of a bastard. i have no self esteem and rely completely on others for self-gratification; when i get none (most of the time at uni) i can get very depressed. i have tried to kill myself. i have never had a girlfriend (that one really smarts). i find it hard to hold conversations with people as often i simply don't listen - too easily distracted with my own thoughts. i never know what to say unless with people i know (even then its hard at times - i just want to get away a lot). i get easily distracted in whatever i do. i'm dyslexic but of an odd sort - not with letters etc as is normal, but with patterns - they just make no sense (hence problems with maths). i'm not particularily intelligent (IQ of 138 when i was 13, now at 19 its dropped to 112). i have trouble learning things for the first time and cannot be shown how to do something - i have to learn by experimentation, by doing it myself (for most things). i have a smile that makes my mouth go slightly diagonally accross my face... it looks odd to me (though others tell me i have a nice smile... whatever). i spend too long in intoverted thoughts analysing myself. i don't like myself.
so basically a useless waste of skin, unloved and unlovable (apart from parents of course).

rant over (if you read to the end of that, go take some anti-depressants.)

I'm kinda fat and I'm going bald, does that count?

Yet another thing about me, I tend to be rude to animals, mainly when I'm getting impatient. For example. I'm surfing the internet. All of a sudden, my cat Tornado wants to be brushed (he's a persian cat). Everytime he comes down to my room, I complain "Uh! Dammit! I'm downloading porno! I already brushed you once today!" So therefore, I try to keep the basement door closed (the entire basement is my bachelor pad--sort of).

Ill just say i share a lot of similarities with a lot of ppl on this thread. This seems to be a good place for the intraverted.

I'm overweight (slightly!)
and I'm lethargic
and I am overly sensitive.

Vanished?
Does he do that often?
I know that when I vanished, I was either off doing something incredibly dangerous and stupid, or trying to off myself.

yeah, one night he said he was gonna leave for awhile i havent seen him since.

I'm overweight (slightly!)
and I'm lethargic
and I am overly sensitive.

ohhh.


yeah I didn't add those to my list...but me too.

Oooh, secret fantasy of mine. Ever since Axe became big I have wanted to just hold a zippo right next to the guys(mainly jocks) who put waaaayyy too much on to see if they would burst into flame. I've managed to keep from doing it, however, mainly because I have a sneaking suspicion it would actually work.

good idea, but axe puts the fire out when sprayed lightly into it. yes, i've tried this.

that reminds me, tiny bit more to come.

these are all kinda boring so far... mostly ones about people with low self esteem... i try to sleep (and sometimes succeed) with high school girls..... and i steal things from the bar... mostly over priced bars...but still... com'on people be more evil

I thought the rule was "no passing judgement..." but hey...

these are all kinda boring so far... mostly ones about people with low self esteem... ........


and i steal things from the bar... mostly over priced bars...but still... com'on people be more evil

Lmao...Oh no! not the ashtray!!!.....

i take the blame for lots things. even things arent my fault. even for people i hate. i just have a tendency to find a way to blame myself.

i am way to forgiving, i never hold a grudge, and no matter what you did, i just "bottle up" (i hate that phrase) any anger i may have and forget anything ever happened. and with the bottling up anger thing.. i tend to do that, and pretend nothing even happened. once in a great while, as you would expect, i snap.

i am a pyromanic. a HUGE one. i like to turn all sorts of things into bombs, napalm, just plain old fire. come to think of it, i enjoy all sorts of things that *can* cause harm to people, i find them beautiful. i find great pleasure in mixing amoina and bleach. makes great tear gas.

* i say can because i dont actually enjoy hurting people, i just like things that have the ability to.

i have such a problem with being in public, even with my closest friends. i say i dont care what people that, but thats a blantat lie. i cant help but care, and because of it i dont even like to leave my house. i especially hate working, because every few days my lack of sleep will catch up with me making me very clumsy, and its embarrassing. execpt for today, i dropped a really hot grilled chicken, but caught it and burnt myself. t'was the tastiest flesh wound i have even experienced.

I don't like me very much. I'm horribly ambivalent about just about every opinion I consider, being able to easily put holes in pretty well every idea I can conceive of, thus I'm horribly, horribly conflicted about most everything. That doesn't stop me from being biased, though, ultimately judging just about everything within seconds of seeing it for the first time, and then tearing holes in my first judgement... it's a vicious cycle. What else... oh, I am almost certain that I have no positive qualities that can hope to recommend me to those that I would wish to be closer to, so I lack the capacity to honestly recommend myself to anyone, and spend entirely too much time in isolation as a result. In an odd contrast, while I genuinely desire to end this isolation, I'm still defensive about it, and don't take well to those that would infringe upon my exile from the outside world. I wish I could believe in something, but scorn certainty in all it's forms. Oh.. and one more thing: defying all reason, I have an all-consuming enamorment with a young Australian lady who is at this present moment no less than five time zones away, and who, furthermore, I do not at all believe to have any desire to even see me again although another three or four months will certainly see her within 20km of my location

I helped MI6 bring down James Callaghan's Labour government in the 1970s. I don't feel bad about it though.

I might have been involved in that Grenada thingy too.

these are all kinda boring so far... mostly ones about people with low self esteem... i try to sleep (and sometimes succeed) with high school girls..... and i steal things from the bar... mostly over priced bars...but still... com'on people be more evil

as far as i was concerned, this thread was for the brutally honest, not the particularly evil, or the incredibly exciting. guess thats my mistake though.

i know... wasnt really ment to be... but its still better then reading

"im sad all the time"... over and over

I am almost certain that I have no positive qualities that can hope to recommend me to those that I would wish to be closer to, so I lack the capacity to honestly recommend myself to anyone, and spend entirely too much time in isolation as a result.

im like you in this way, but not so much the part about wanting to end your isolation. for some reason i am happy alone. most of the time, that is, not all the time.

for some reason i am happy alone. most of the time, that is, not all the time.




Generally people annoy the shit out of me. I like to be alone.....

i know... wasnt really ment to be... but its still better then reading

"im sad all the time"... over and over

but thats what everyone felt like writing.

ah well, you are entitled to your opinion, especially on this thread.

I am the kind of person that is pretty much unable to let the assinine actions/statements of other people go unpunished. This only seems to apply to people/POVs that are diametrically opposed to mine though, so you Bushies out there, be very careful when addressing me. In cases where my ire is roused I tend to loose any filters I might normally have in my language, and I become focused on proving you wrong before we end the conversation.

That's it really.

Generally people annoy the shit out of me. I like to be alone.....

its not that people annoy me... well not the majority, as im pretty laid back. i dont know, i just feel more comfortable alone.

Hm, well then. Here it goes?

I'm supposedly a Catholic, was baptized when I was 12. Was in Italy at the time, and then moved back to where I am now. As I got older, I saw the corruption inherent within the system, and lost quite a bit of faith. Now, I go to Catholic church every week, sing and make innocent and sweet, then go home and read Tarot cards. This effectively makes me a hypocrite.

Also...well. I keep a whip. Not for defence.
i love this post. esp. the whip part. :D

i love this post. esp. the whip part. :D



grrarrrr. :eek:

these are all kinda boring so far... mostly ones about people with low self esteem... i try to sleep (and sometimes succeed) with high school girls..... and i steal things from the bar... mostly over priced bars...but still... com'on people be more evil
oh please. you obviously skipped over my posts......and where is your evil shit? how old are you, sleeping with high school chicks?

I Voted for George Bush...




Just kidding im not that bad

God, everyone here is using this place for self gratification, as if you want people to feel sympathetic to you. Completely defeated the purpose. Here's a proper one:
I masterbate far too often.
I know everyone does, but no one is willing to admit it, so here i am. No i dont think i have OCD, no i dont care too much for people, no i am not an attention seeking moron. I just masterbate like every other real person in the world.

[QUOTE=Adrian Barbeau-Bot]

i am a pyromanic. a HUGE one. i like to turn all sorts of things into bombs, napalm, just plain old fire. come to think of it, i enjoy all sorts of things that *can* cause harm to people, i find them beautiful. i find great pleasure in mixing amoina and bleach. makes great tear gas.

* i say can because i dont actually enjoy hurting people, i just like things that have the ability to.

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fire. awesome. thats me too. that last part is a beautiful quote. well said. :)

I sort of have a split personality, 3 ways
one side wants to kill everything and everyone
one side is apathetic, and doesn't care about anything
one side is really sensitive and cares

the violent side has managed to beat down the sensitive side, while the apathetic side has taken control, due to the constant beatdowns of the sensitive side. thinking about it, the apathetic side is prolly the best one for the job, being as he thinks with logic.

lets see, I've scared little children, without trying. I've also scared my peers, by laughing, most of the rest of my peers are too scared to be near me, afraid that I'll hurt them or something.

I nearly choked someone to death in the woods.

I nearly killed my mother in her sleep, and I was plotting about an hour ago, but she deserves it.

I threatened someone who was harrassing one of my female friends.

I bought a gun on the black market, only to sell it later.

I've sat in a tree in a local park with a 30.06 aiming at people, no one saw me, and I didn't shoot anyone.

I'll think of more later.

a few more, of the same thing really. it must be pretty boring at this point.

i am very arguementitive. i will argue for hours about the most mundane, everyday things. i will argue until i win, and i will never, ever let it end with a "whatever, your right" (with obvious sarcasm)

i refuse to be swept off my feet unless genuineness and honesty can be absolutely vouched for. therefore i keep a strict and watchful control on my emotional relationships, as i have to know exactly where i stand. i demand complete sincerity from anyone who actually gets close to me, as a protection against my own tendency to be too trusting

i like to use my strange imagination to do everyday things, or come up with new ways to do it altogether, but my own self image always screws that up. i create restrictions based on my insanely low view of my abilities, and i never actually use the things i want to try out, thus half-assing everthing i do.

God, everyone here is using this place for self gratification, as if you want people to feel sympathetic to you. Completely defeated the purpose. Here's a proper one:
I masterbate far too often.
I know everyone does, but no one is willing to admit it, so here i am. No i dont think i have OCD, no i dont care too much for people, no i am not an attention seeking moron. I just masterbate like every other real person in the world.

no. you misssed the point COMPLETELY!! read the entire thread before you make judgements. and if you already read it, and you still came to that conclusion, well, you are just a d***f***. there was plenty more self love confessions, and you didnt think so, here is another- HEY! even though i get laid on a regular basis, i get off about every hour. i collect sex toys. things you have most likely have never seen. oh, i am a chick too....... and yes,iam being rude, but you begged for it.

God, everyone here is using this place for self gratification, as if you want people to feel sympathetic to you. Completely defeated the purpose. Here's a proper one:
I masterbate far too often.
I know everyone does, but no one is willing to admit it, so here i am. No i dont think i have OCD, no i dont care too much for people, no i am not an attention seeking moron. I just masterbate like every other real person in the world.


Masturbation......Self Gratification.... Priceless. :)

BTW, how in the hell did you masturbate too much? Did it fall off or break or something? Because I can't think of any other reason why you would say it was too much.

I masterbate far too often.
I know everyone does, but no one is willing to admit it, so here i am.
Well, how much is too often? I don't think I masterbate too often, although I'll admit that I do. Just about daily: it's apparently good for the prostate, as more frequent ejaculation has been shown to decrease the chances of getting prostate cancer. So, if you're not masterbating until you ejaculate about 5 times a week, I don't think you're not masterbating enough. There's some honesty from me.

a few more, of the same thing really. it must be pretty boring at this point.
.
this is not for entertainment, so it is impossible to judge boring- ness :)

God, everyone here is using this place for self gratification, as if you want people to feel sympathetic to you. Completely defeated the purpose. Here's a proper one:
I masterbate far too often.
I know everyone does, but no one is willing to admit it, so here i am. No i dont think i have OCD, no i dont care too much for people, no i am not an attention seeking moron. I just masterbate like every other real person in the world.


lol...I like how people like you place their confessions over everyone elses....yeah. no self gratification there...


I *masturbate* too. Frequently. 3...sometimes 4 times daily. But that doesn't make me "weird"...and is not worth "confessing". If you're going for shock value...well. Tell me you like watching dogs fuck or something.... :headbang:

and Hills of Frivolity- there is much more where that came from..... be back in 20-

Tell me you like watching dogs fuck or something.... :headbang:
That I do.. damn, I forgot a lot of things I should have included/

God, everyone here is using this place for self gratification, as if you want people to feel sympathetic to you. Completely defeated the purpose. Here's a proper one:
I masterbate far too often.
I know everyone does, but no one is willing to admit it, so here i am. No i dont think i have OCD, no i dont care too much for people, no i am not an attention seeking moron. I just masterbate like every other real person in the world.

hm.. "everyone here is using this place for self gratification."

err.. thats the point. to say the things you wouldnt normally say, to actual people who will read it.. feels good to get some things off your chest.

fire. awesome. thats me too. that last part is a beautiful quote. well said. :)

thank you, i was trying to put something else and thats what came out. i laughed, and decided you and neo of all people would get a kick out of it.

One more thing: I HATE England. I don't hate English people.. just England. Got it?
And French Canadians: Canadiens.

That I do.. damn, I forgot a lot of things I should have included/


dood! You should *SO* join my MSN fangroup....it's called "quadraped reproduction makes us wet".....really. you should check us out...



lol.... :p

dood! You should *SO* join my MSN fangroup....it's called "quadraped reproduction makes us wet".....really. you should check us out...



lol.... :p
Oh, so you meant dogs having sex with eachother? Not with people? Hmm.. well I guess that's somethi.... you know what? I think I'll just stop this line of thought.

fine then people ignore my evilness

Oh, so you meant dogs having sex with eachother? Not with people? Hmm.. well I guess that's somethi.... you know what? I think I'll just stop this line of thought.


So *YOU'RE* the one who conviced half of my members to come to "a new, more favorable" forum.


I see how it is.

Heres one I dont think anyone posted...
Whenever I shave, I cant get all the hair underneath of my chin. It drives me wild. I have to try like 3 or 4 times to shave it all off. Also, I make fun of people on the interwebs.

So *YOU'RE* the one who conviced half of my members to come to "a new, more favorable" forum.


I see how it is.
..I know nothing! Nothing!

A sad, sorrowful quirk that I find myself succumbing to more and more frequently is my lack of patience with people less intelligent than I. Usually I avoid contact with most people, since they are, in general, of ridiculously lower intelligence than I. Another thing I dislike is reading material written by horrible, terrible writers. But the real thing that gets me is reading material written by people with no intelligence AND no writing skill! Irks me to no end!

As a matter of fact, it irks me so much that I am liable to post about it!

I can't wait until my roommates go to bed so I can talk to my internet friends. Is that not pitiful?
I am extremely critical, of myself and others.
I had a consensual relationship with a relative.
I was very violent as a child. I sent my brother to the ER a couple of times.
I am sooo obsessed with sex. When my last boyfriend and I broke up he told me that even after all our problems he never could critisize anything I did in the sack. Instead of being upset with the breakup, I was like "Yeah, I may be a total psycho bitch, but I'm great in bed."

fine then people ignore my evilness
well, the point here was not to judge, however, since you asked...... youre pretty fucked up, man. ;)

Heres one I dont think anyone posted...
Whenever I shave, I cant get all the hair underneath of my chin. It drives me wild. I have to try like 3 or 4 times to shave it all off. Also, I make fun of people on the interwebs.
the only way i will feel bad for you is if you are a female.

1.I can't wait until my roommates go to bed so I can talk to my internet friends. Is that not pitiful?
2.I am extremely critical, of myself and others.
3.I had a consensual relationship with a relative.
4.I was very violent as a child. I sent my brother to the ER a couple of times.
5.I am sooo obsessed with sex. When my last boyfriend and I broke up he told me that even after all our problems he never could critisize anything I did in the sack. Instead of being upset with the breakup, I was like "Yeah, I may be a total psycho bitch, but I'm great in bed."

1.guilty
2.guilty
3. if any of my cousins were hot enough.....guilty
4.i just took it out on myself
5. oohh!!ooohhh!!! very guilty of that one. :D

#3. step-sister

#3. step-sister
man. no blood relation. i guess i really may be sick.

lol
When I was twelve I had crushes on two of my cousins.

lol
When I was twelve I had crushes on two of my cousins.
like i said, if any of mine were hot enough. which brings us to this little point.
in a much earlier post, i mentioned having a sexual relationship with a guy who has been with his girlfriend for 10 years. well, he is one of parents foster kids.
*i ask people such intensely personal questions, they avoid me. may not seem bad, but, hell, try being friends with me.

dood! You should *SO* join my MSN fangroup....it's called "quadraped reproduction makes us wet".....really. you should check us out...

that, my friend, is wrong. on several different levels.

...do you have alot of members?

A sad, sorrowful quirk that I find myself succumbing to more and more frequently is my lack of patience with people less intelligent than I. Usually I avoid contact with most people, since they are, in general, of ridiculously lower intelligence than I. Another thing I dislike is reading material written by horrible, terrible writers. But the real thing that gets me is reading material written by people with no intelligence AND no writing skill! Irks me to no end!

As a matter of fact, it irks me so much that I am liable to post about it!

wut doo u meen? i dunno no wat ure talkin bout

me no him not mene us

Ok, *my turn*!

I am very egotistical, it doesnt matter what someone is talking about, i can relate it back to me, and will manage to interrupt them.

I'm incredibly vain. I spend hours in front of the mirror.

I have to be nice. To everyone. I want to be liked by people even if it's detrimantal to me.

I put off making decisions as long as i can, until I have to make a decision, and once i have made it, i stick by it, even if it is bad.

There's prob more, but im too lazy to put em in now ;)
:fluffle:

wut doo u meen? i dunno no wat ure talkin bout
OMG!!! like i am sooooo totally not stoopid! LOLZ! dood, man, like really, i cant B leev he sed that!!! how meen! how eeeevul!! protect me hun, cuz , like , rite now, i am like soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo scared of that krazi post!!like,OMG!!!!









sorry, had to do it again, folks ;)

Ok, *my turn*!

I am very egotistical, it doesnt matter what someone is talking about, i can relate it back to me, and will manage to interrupt them.

I'm incredibly vain. I spend hours in front of the mirror.

I have to be nice. To everyone. I want to be liked by people even if it's detrimantal to me.

I put off making decisions as long as i can, until I have to make a decision, and once i have made it, i stick by it, even if it is bad.

There's prob more, but im too lazy to put em in now ;)
:fluffle:

thats a first for this thread - who knew brutal honesty was so refreshing.

OMG!!! like i am sooooo totally not stoopid! LOLZ! dood, man, like really, i cant B leev he sed that!!! how meen! how eeeevul!! protect me hun, cuz , like , rite now, i am like soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo scared of that krazi post!!like,OMG!!!!

you know.. your getting really good at that.

Ok, *my turn*!

I am very egotistical, it doesnt matter what someone is talking about, i can relate it back to me, and will manage to interrupt them.

I'm incredibly vain. I spend hours in front of the mirror.

I have to be nice. To everyone. I want to be liked by people even if it's detrimantal to me.

I put off making decisions as long as i can, until I have to make a decision, and once i have made it, i stick by it, even if it is bad.

There's prob more, but im too lazy to put em in now ;)
:fluffle:

OMG, you're lazy too.
For shame!

I am very sociopathic, I rarely care for the feelings of others unless I know that my actions may come back to bite me in the future. I don't really believe that I ignore thinking about other people, whereas other people just rarely cross my mind.

Wait a minute, does admitting one is narcissitic preempt one from being narcissitic?
Boards like this simply fuel your desire to talk about yourself. Not something we should indulge in often to remain stable or interesting. Holy shit....I have read to much Jane Austin.

OMG, you're lazy too.
For shame!
and a skank. ;)

Boards like this simply fuel your desire to talk about yourself. Not something we should indulge in often to remain stable or interesting. Holy shit....I have read to much Jane Austin.
yeah you did. we are all improving our lives here.......apparently, you are perfect.

OMG, you're lazy too.
For shame!

Yeah well, you would be too, if you were tired as from a big music festival the day before :P

:D

and a skank. ;)

Whats wrong with that? :D

you know.. your getting really good at that.
yeah i am. and due to this thread, i am getting better at embracing my sick self.
















wanna fuck, kid?

Whats wrong with that? :D
depends on what you look like :D

thats a first for this thread - who knew brutal honesty was so refreshing.

.

Thanks for the support, everyone else seems to be bagging me out :p

depends on what you look like :D

Don't worry about that! If you had read between the lines of my post, you'd know i'm pretty good looking (or at least i think i am!) :D

yeah i am. and due to this thread, i am getting better at embracing my sick self. wanna fuck, kid?

hahahahahahahahah

wait... whats so sick about that me huh?

oh yeah. i have the mad young. wait two years - you dont end up in jail now do you?

Don't worry about that! If you had read between the lines of my post, you'd know i'm pretty good looking (or at least i think i am!) :D
a/s/l ??? :D

Thanks for the support, everyone else seems to be bagging me out :p
dont take it like that. we are giving you hell, because you appear as though you can take it :)

a/s/l ??? :D

hahaha

17 (almost 18!)/f/Australia :D

interested? lol

dont take it like that. we are giving you hell, because you appear as though you can take it :)

What, Im so up myself, you wanna bag the crap out of me an have me cowering in a corner?

What are you, jealous? :D

hahaha

17 (almost 18!)/f/Australia :D

interested? lol
28 (almost 13!)/f/ America :D

nope.

What, Im so up myself, you wanna bag the crap out of me an have me cowering in a corner?

What are you, jealous? :D
i wont even touch this. if i try, hold me back, bryce.

28 (almost 13!)/f/ America :D

nope.

lol, anyone else interested? :D

i wont even touch this. if i try, hold me back, bryce.

hahaha... down ms. linda.

lol, anyone else interested? :D
Do you take guys? :D

Do you take guys? :D

I like guys!!! :D

I like guys!!! :D
Good, cause I'm single and waitin! :D :D :D :D :fluffle:

Good, cause I'm single and waitin! :D :D :D :D :fluffle:

Aww! I didn't put you off with my "faults"?

:fluffle:

a/s/l? ;)

Aww! I didn't put you off with my "faults"?

:fluffle:

a/s/l? ;)
What faults? (sorry, wasn't paying attention ;) )

20/m/Princeton, Minnesota, USA

do not, i repeat, do not turn my dark disturbing gutwrenching truth thread into a singles bar please.we like problems.plus, i will kill any joy you may have with my next post.

What faults? (sorry, wasn't paying attention ;) )

20/m/Princeton, Minnesota, USA

:fluffle:

:fluffle:
To respect OM"s wishes, I created a "singles bar" thread :D

do not, i repeat, do not turn my dark disturbing gutwrenching truth thread into a singles bar please.we like problems.plus, i will kill any joy you may have with my next post.

hah... occidio, should i still be holding you back?

old/f/oklahoma ;)

i hate australian girls on the net with stupid names and no problems except for..."like , i am vain! but i have a right to be! because i am the best! tee hee!" however, good thing i have not seen anyone like that on here....

i was going to edit this, but , fuck , no, i wont . because i mean it.

i hate australian girls on the net with stupid names and no problems except for..."like , i am vain! but i have a right to be! because i am the best! tee hee!" however, good thing i have not seen anyone like that on here....

i was going to edit this, but , fuck , no, i wont . because i mean it.

ah well. at least the lovers took off. suppose it did kinda derail the malfunction route this was headed.. no worries, we have brutally honest people to get it back on track.

omg but I'm so vain and I didn't clean my room and I flirted with some guy in science class even tho I have a bf

OMG, I'm a bit vain but that's like not a character flaw at all because everyone else thinks I'm brilliant too!!! ;) :fluffle:

omg but I'm so vain and I didn't clean my room and I flirted with some guy in science class even tho I have a bf

on that note, im going to step as far away as i can... while still able to get a good view of what may happen.

omg but I'm so vain and I didn't clean my room and I flirted with some guy in science class even tho I have a bf
ya, and i am like this cuz i was molested, and that should be bad, but, now that i am older, and i c how GOR_JUS i am, i have 2 say- daddi couldnt help but tuch me- i was irresis-table! +, it gave me sooo much xpeereeense. o how i luv b ing a god-ess!

OMG, I'm a bit vain but that's like not a character flaw at all because everyone else thinks I'm brilliant too!!! ;) :fluffle:
do i know who this is??
because, if i dont, that is one hell of a first post.

ya, and i am like this cuz i was molested, and that should be bad, but, now that i am older, and i c how GOR_JUS i am, i have 2 say- daddi couldnt help but tuch me- i was irresis-table! +, it gave me sooo much xpeereeense. o how i luv b ing a god-ess!

lol, I think ur kidding.

do i know who this is??
because, if i dont, that is one hell of a first post.

Heh heh heh...

By the way, shall we get back on track?

ya, and i am like this cuz i was molested, and that should be bad, but, now that i am older, and i c how GOR_JUS i am, i have 2 say- daddi couldnt help but tuch me- i was irresis-table! +, it gave me sooo much xpeereeense. o how i luv b ing a god-ess!

theeere we go. back on track now.

nicely done. i think after im done gagging, i'll be ready to post some new stuff.

on second thought, i really oughta get to sleep. i would post this in the "signing off" thread, but its vanished again, and im starting to get the impression people dont want it.

Heh heh heh...

By the way, shall we get back on track?

yes. tell us something really bad, please.

I'm a hypocrite, I say that I hate people who take advantage of friendships and then I sleep with friends who has fallen in love with me and use "honesty" as an excuse, like: "I told you I wasn't in love with you, can we still be friends?"

I've cheated more than once, and I'm sure it will happen again.

The more I realize I look somewhat good I start to take advantage of that to get trips from girls falling for me or atleast giving me attention.

I do illegal drugs from time to time and I introduced a friend to pot.

I procastrinate, alot. I've started to get my shit together though.

I like rough sex, to the point of consensual abuse, strangeling and shit, I love the feeling of power and control.

I like the rush you get when you kill something, I've only mercy killed animals that has been hit by cars so far but sometimes I dream of killing a human, purely self defence... riiiiiight...

I work part time in healthcare with mentally handicapped kids and I've worked on a nursing home for elderly. People think I'm such a nice guy who really cares about others, and I do, aslong as it suits me.

I tell people the truth about me being an asshole, but I do it with a smile and they think its a joke, that way I can get away with being a pig.

One of the times I've cheated I had a threesome with a friend of mine and her other friend, who I later ended up dating, I did it cause I just would not miss the chance of a threesome(at age 19, that's a big thing atleast).

I'm sure there are worse people out there, but this is me.

theeere we go. back on track now.

nicely done. i think after im done gagging, i'll be ready to post some new stuff.

on second thought, i really oughta get to sleep. i would post this in the "signing off" thread, but its vanished again, and im starting to get the impression people dont want it.
the mods tged me about that. it is spam they say. and i if post it again, i will owe a TON of blowjobs.kiddddding myrth!!!

glad i made you sick. have a good night- put my pic on your desk top and self gratify 453 times. just so you can fit in with the crowd on this thread.

yes. tell us something really bad, please.

I would, but I can't think of any particularly bad character flaws I have.

I'm a bit socially inept, I almost never initiate a conversation myself. If I find someone attractive I can barely talk to them at all, for some reason. I'll post more later.

I'm a hypocrite, I say that I hate people who take advantage of -snip-

I'm sure there are worse people out there, but this is me.
you smoke pot , too right? ;)
welcome to the thread lord ganja.

before i go, some minor things..

when i was 11 i terrorized a nun for weeks because she wouldnt listen to me when i told her my beliefs. i smashed her car window, he screen door in back (which wasnt that big of a thing, we lived in apts/townhomes so it was fixed pretty quickly), spray painted "666" on her door. and was never caught.

for more of my pyromania, i have set an abandoned building on fire, but it didnt burn very well.. not much damage.

i have caused several car accidents, mostly for the fun of seeing such powerful machines turned into twisted metal. none were really serious

wrecked a womans car with her passed out in the back, then took off leaving her there. then convinced her that she did it after dropping me off.

yes, at one point i was an asshole. g'night all.

before i go, some minor things..

when i was 11 i terrorized a nun for weeks because she wouldnt listen to me when i told her my beliefs. i smashed her car window, he screen door in back (which wasnt that big of a thing, we lived in apts/townhomes so it was fixed pretty quickly), spray painted "666" on her door. and was never caught.

for more of my pyromania, i have set an abandoned building on fire, but it didnt burn very well.. not much damage.

i have caused several car accidents, mostly for the fun of seeing such powerful machines turned into twisted metal. none were really serious

wrecked a womans car with her passed out in the back, then took off leaving her there. then convinced her that she did it after dropping me off.

yes, at one point i was an asshole. g'night all.
i think i love you......
;)
night bryce.

the mods tged me about that. it is spam they say. and i if post it again, i will owe a TON of blowjobs.kiddddding myrth!!!

glad i made you sick. have a good night- put my pic on your desk top and self gratify 453 times. just so you can fit in with the crowd on this thread.

hhaha.. i wonder if myrth will be pissed after reading that.. doubt it, but it would be funny. unless you get in trouble that is.

i guess i have another "flaw" to add, seeing as how its a trait i share with nobody else here.

i place very little importance on sex, or just plain getting off. who knows, im a freak apparently.

ya, and i am like this cuz i was molested, and that should be bad, but, now that i am older, and i c how GOR_JUS i am, i have 2 say- daddi couldnt help but tuch me- i was irresis-table! +, it gave me sooo much xpeereeense. o how i luv b ing a god-ess!
it says it all. this post right here. another really bad thing about myself. everytime i joke like this, i can hear a thousand jaws drop, a million victims weep, and vittos inordination laugh.

I smoke like a fiend and tell my non-smoking roommates that if they don't like it they can move out.
When I first got divorced I made the rounds, seducing all my baby brothers little friends.
I'd rather buy clothes than pay my car insurance.
I didn't get my drivers liscense until I was twenty, but I had been driving for years with no DL or insurance.

h


i place very little importance on sex, or just plain getting off. who knows, im a freak apparently.
apparently.

"koo koo kichoo, Mrs. Robinson, heaven holds a place for those who ......."

i hope you get that.

I smoke like a fiend and tell my non-smoking roommates that if they don't like it they can move out.
When I first got divorced I made the rounds, seducing all my baby brothers little friends.
I'd rather buy clothes than pay my car insurance.
I didn't get my drivers liscense until I was twenty, but I had been driving for years with no DL or insurance.
you rule :) the second one, esp.

i think i love you......
;)
night bryce.

heh, i love you too (insert excessive amout of fluffles..)

but, as my last post... seriously this time... the car wreck i was in when i ditched the chick was actually pretty bad. if you gave a damn, i could tg you the details before i go to sleep.

you smoke pot , too right? ;)
welcome to the thread lord ganja.

Me? Pot? WHat!?! Never in my whole life...

Oh yes, I'm a liar too, forgot that one...

I love you, OM.
How could someone not love such a sicko? :D

heh, i love you too (insert excessive amout of fluffles..)

but, as my last post... seriously this time... the car wreck i was in when i ditched the chick was actually pretty bad. if you gave a damn, i could tg you the details before i go to sleep. i give a damn.

I love you, OM.
How could someone not love such a sicko? :D
tell that to my parents. :D

Yeah, well, my dad thinks I'm a total failure because I never became a hot shot lawyer.
That's alright, I think he's a total failure because he never remembers his kids birthdays and never paid child support. :sniper:

Yeah, well, my dad thinks I'm a total failure because I never became a hot shot lawyer.
That's alright, I think he's a total failure because he never remembers his kids birthdays and never paid child support. :sniper: and for the record, i thought he was a total failure in bed. :D




sorry!!! i had to !!!!!!!

Oh, as mentioned before, I'm a damn good liar, and proud of it since its very beneficial for me.
And I'm also proud of being an asshole, of course I don't admit that to anyone... except to very public message boards...

i give a damn.

there - you are tged. g'night, mrs. robinson

jesus loves you more then you will know.

of course I don't admit that to anyone... except to very public message boards...
it is okay. we know thats not your real name.

it is okay. we know thats not your real name.

Nah, my real name is Adam Johannes <Family name omitted>... two biblical names although I hate religion... oh! And I got babtized just for the damn gifts I would get, and I was VERY dissapointed.

Nah, my real name is Adam Johannes <Family name omitted>... two biblical names although I hate religion... oh! And I got babtized just for the damn gifts I would get, and I was VERY dissapointed.
yeah, but you got dunked under water by some guy who probally downloads animal porn in his spare time. that is a gift in itself.

and for the record, i thought he was a total failure in bed. :D




sorry!!! i had to !!!!!!!

ROFL

Funny story.
A gay friend of mine and I were visiting my sister who lived with my parents. Star Trek was on and my friend is drooling over Captain Picard.
Gilbert goes "Ohh, I have such nasty daddy fantasies." Just as my dad walked in. I'm not sure who was more embarrassed, Gilbert or my dad. My sister and I about died laughing.

okay, i need my two hours of sleep. it was fun, and remember- confession is good for the soul. even if you dont have one, just pretend. read the thread, leave a few sins behind, and hopefully, that will leave you some room to commit more.- Me,my own worst enemy.

Goodnight, OM.

yeah, but you got dunked under water by some guy who probally downloads animal porn in his spare time. that is a gift in itself.
Yeah, I'm honored, I've signed off from the church now though:D

Oh, I look at porn, and right now I'm pondering however I should fuck up a potentially great friendship just to sleep with the girl, It could go either way but sadly I have a conscience, damn!

Nighty night OM

I am not tolerant of stupidity. Once i scolded an intern so hard he was crying and thinking about quitting. Too bad, i sure dont feel guilty for him not being able to grasp simple concepts on the fourth try.
On the other hand, if people assume i wont be able to fulfill easy tasks and mention them several times in a row, or explain me how to do it, i get really riled up, shouting the german equivalents of "I heard it, asshole" or "I am not stupid, are you?". To bosses, parents, partners, whoever. Which obviously makes me at least shortsighted. I am, physically, btw. I am too afraid of anything coming near to my eyes, so i dont get contacts. Everyone tells me i would look better because it emphasizes my big brown puppy eyes instead of optically shrinking them, my fear still gets the better of me.
I make a point of nothing being sacred. Nothing is above a joke, criticism or profanity. Went to a party after i buried my mother, dancing and drinking. I really liked her, it wasnt out of spite.
I cant get up to eat healthy. I alternate eating fresh self-cooked good and being lazy the next day and munching down burgers again. Which brings me to a special hypocrisy of mine. I expect woman to accept that i have love-handles and a small beer belly, but find too much fat repulsive on a woman. As well as too little, which i then say straight in her face. Cost me a potentially nice romping session once, she was so angry at me because i told her she looked like a stick-woman that she left. ;) Too bad, since i dont get enough as it is now.
I like to gross people out, telling nice hospital and disease stories during meals. Or by telling them that i have nearly enough body hair to be considered an atavism. Which is true, btw.
More later.

I'm lazy, and i am very good at playing the game so to speak at work. many come and go because i'm good at appearing to be always to be telling the truth.

oh jester. as an embalmer, i have THE stories. and i spare NO ONE from the disgust. :D

okay, i need my two hours of sleep. it was fun, and remember- confession is good for the soul. even if you dont have one, just pretend. read the thread, leave a few sins behind, and hopefully, that will leave you some room to commit more.- Me,my own worst enemy.

a new day, a fresh crop of guilty consciences...... i will be back this evening. keep this going.

I enjoy watching all kinds of suffering. Only humans actually. If I ever see anyone torturing an animal I walk in front of the fucker to protect the defenceless animal from the pest of earth. It doesn't matter if the animal has just eat someone. I always protect them. I'm also extremely narcistic.

I'm underage and yet the talk earlier of whips and wild hand movements turns me on. Wahoo for BDSM :D

Kinky Test (http://www.hotlanta.com/kinktest.htm)

I got 583. And now off to reply back to my boyfriends email with another edition of our slave story... :p

I'm underage and yet the talk earlier of whips and wild hand movements turns me on. Wahoo for BDSM :D

Kinky Test (http://www.hotlanta.com/kinktest.htm)

I got 583. And now off to reply back to my boyfriends email with another edition of our slave story... :p
Hmm.
I only got 256.
Which is odd, knowing me.

Whoot, i have a high score. :rolleyes: Nothing new to me. (Getting too explicit gets the thread closed, eh?)
But i found the first question cute:
"If you had a choice as to how often you would have sex,*how often would it be?
As often as every day
A few times a week
Just a few times a month
Not too often - I have better things to do"

Where is "Several times a day"?

Whoot, i have a high score. :rolleyes: Nothing new to me. (Getting too explicit gets the thread closed, eh?)
But i found the first question cute:
"If you had a choice as to how often you would have sex,*how often would it be?
As often as every day
A few times a week
Just a few times a month
Not too often - I have better things to do"

Where is "Several times a day"?

Exactly what I thought. Great and dirty minds think alike :p

I bought a gun on the black market, only to sell it later.
The question here is, did you make money on the transaction?

Great and dirty minds think alike :p
Dirty? :eek: Just washed it the other day. :D

I've spent over AU$1000 on...

...wait for it...

...My Little Ponies.

In the past year and a bit.

I am so, so going to hell for that.

Dirty? :eek: Just washed it the other day. :D

He he :D Now why would you go doing that? Dirty minds lead to so much more fun ;)