NationStates Jolt Archive

I have enjoyed my time on NS. I have met some really interesting and knowledgeable people who inspired me to research, learn, and appreciate other points of view. Indulge me and let me acknowledge a few of you folks who have really impacted my life.

Fass...Man you are too cool for words. Although our views are often polar opposites, I so respect your principals, your priorities, your wonderful sense of humor (drier than the Sahara), but most especially your desire to put your own life second to the well-being of others in pursuit of a career in medicine. Sure wish I had you in my corner right now. Fass, you have probably touched me more than anyone else on NS and I want you to know that I love you, I respect you, and I support you in everything you do. Love you big guy.

Keruvalia...you, like me, switched faith affiliation without losing sight of God's truth. That He loves us all and we are all each other's brother/sister and that whatever we do, whatever sacrifice we make, is done is His name. Brother, carry on in His service. Spread the word that no matter if we are Muslim, Jewish, B'hai, or Christian, we are all the children of the same God. I trust to you to do what you can to bring God's truth to the people.

Tink...Sweetie, I wish I could whisper in your ear every day to let you know how wonderful, special, and strong you are. You never need to pander for the attention of others because you are so special! You are bright, funny, compassionate and loving. Realize this and others will seek your notice and attention. Be strong!!

Fox...I know what you say, and I know what is. Some of us have been living this for all of our lives. Don't just say....DO!!!!! שָׁלוֹם brother.

Steph & Zepp...You two challenged me to research, read, understand, and if I couldn't agree, at least appreicate the views, beliefs, cultural differences, and ideologies of others. I remember when I first started on NS, sitting at the computer with every dining room chair, all of the bar stools, and my husband's recliner pulled up next to me. all of them covered with several Bible interpretations and reference material, as I debated one small theologoical point with you all. I really respect you two and hope that some day you will respect the views of others enough to make the effort to understand the factors and influences to their differing views, and give them the respect they are due as individuals and appreciation for not being ideological clones of yourselves. Our unique qualities are what adds spice to life and also drive us to grow and learn. Don't close your minds and your lives to the thoughts and rationale of others. Learn, absorb, understand and grow!!

Pure Metal...youngun...you are a mess! You have a totally irresponsible approach to life. You are also the first to notice when a little old lady (moi) isn't around and worry about her. Because of that, I know that the lifestyle you embrace right now isn't indicative of the fine person you are. You have the unique ability to look beyond yourself and the obvious and appreciate the quiet background noises. Sweetie, avoid the drugs and anything that doesn't enhance your spirit and highlight the wonderful person you are, put your nose to the grindstone, strive to be your best, and then get out there and kick their fuckin' asses. Of all the people I have met here on NS, I KNOW that you are the one with the most potential to do great things. So get out there and do it!!:fluffle: My heart to you.

Eut...man, what can I say? We've seen and done some shit! We can try to talk to the younger folks on here and give them the benefit of our experience, but there is no way we can make them understand and appreciate what it was like when we were their age, and, God willing, they will never have to learn first hand. I wish you had had a little more free time lately, I've needed someone to talk to, but time gets away from us all. Bro, do you remember an old movie called "The Story of O"? Do you remember what and where the "O' was? I've had the "O' for over 35 years. Huh...and these kids think they are daring...phhhtttt. Don't ever let up, keep reminding them that whatever is "new" to them is "been there, done that" to us and give them the benefit of what we have learned from our successes and mistakes. Keep impressing on them the honor in dedicating yourself to a worthy ideal. Keep trying to make them understand that the security of the whole is worth any sacrifice the individual is willing to make...and to argue the the worth of that sacrifice is to declare their sacrifice void. No guarantee that all of them will listen, but at least a few of them will understand.

Good Thoughts...your daily mediations and the teachings of your faith are what has kept me going for the last few weeks. You are an inspiration and a blessing to all who take the time to listen. You are an instrument of God and I feel blessed to have known you.

I could go on and on about all the wonderful, interesting, insightful, inspirational, and delightful people I have come across on here (CL, LP, and Cat Tribe not exluded), but it's time to get to the (as we call it here in the south) nut cuttin'.

A few months ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I got busy with the regimen. I underwent chemo and radiation and dutifully shed my hair and puked up my guts. The chemo didn't take care of my problem so I had to have a little operation a few weeks ago. That didn't do it either. Mr C marches on and now he is showing up here, there and everywhere. I'm OK with this, because I KNOW there is a God.

I didn't feel right just disappearing with no word and no clue to whoever might give a rip about me. So, if you care, or if you don't, I pray that your life be fulfilling and happy, that you appreciate each and every person who enters your life, that you freely share your life lessons with others, and that you take pride in knowing that you meant a great deal to a little old anonymous lady. Goodbye good people.

PS: For those of you who are too young to know about the "O", well, we pierced some strange places in my day,too. And I still have a pretty little gold ring in my piercing. :eek: ;)

There are no words.

I shall pray for you.

Ouch. What can anyone say?

There are no words.

I shall pray for you.

Brother, of all the people here, your prayers probably mean more to me than any other's. I trust to you to make others understand that we are all children of the same God. Peace and love, brother.

I never met you on NS but know that you have touch the heart of this little Buddhist who has feared that he has lost almost all connection to his most basic humanity due to severe Apathy.

I shall pray for you, to whatever God is out there in the infinity of the Universe.

oh no zooke :( :(
i'm at a loss for words for once.... i mean the thing eut had, he's battling through it, but that... i dunno - you're a braver person than i thats all i can say :fluffle:
i hope that your belief pays off - and cross-fingers that the big guy will send you some kind of miracle cure (so you can come back and keep me company agian :D ;) )

i'm also touched that you not only mentioned me there, but also i'm touched by your words... you'll be pleased to know i actually haven't done any drugs (not even drunk anything) since about july :)


is this to be your last post on NS? and i hope your family are taking it as well as you seem to be :(


sorry if this post belies the sadness (for want of a better word) of the situation, but if i know you at all i know you'd hate to leave on a sour note :p

its hard to finish a post like this though - i don't know how... zooke, you're a wonderful lady and in the vein of eut, i've learned quite a lot from you :)
thank you, and you will be sorely missed by me at the very least :fluffle:

Don't feel bad, don't grieve, don't second guess. I have had a wonderful life. I just want to inspire all of you to have as a fulfilling and blessed life as I have. And don't count me out. I'm a pretty tough old lady. I'm not one to roll over and die because of a couple of sick tits. :p

Don't feel bad, don't grieve, don't second guess. I have had a wonderful life. I just want to inspire all of you to have as a fulfilling and blessed life as I have. And don't count me out. I'm a pretty tough old lady. I'm not one to roll over and die because of a couple of sick tits. :p
thats the spirit! go zooke! :p
*punches air*


damn battery about to run out on this thing... grr

oh no zooke :( :(
i'm at a loss for words for once.... i mean the thing eut had, he's battling through it, but that... i dunno - you're a braver person than i thats all i can say :fluffle:
i hope that your belief pays off - and cross-fingers that the big guy will send you some kind of miracle cure (so you can come back and keep me company agian :D ;) )

i'm also touched that you not only mentioned me there, but also i'm touched by your words... you'll be pleased to know i actually haven't done any drugs (not even drunk anything) since about july :)


is this to be your last post on NS? and i hope your family are taking it as well as you seem to be :(


sorry if this post belies the sadness (for want of a better word) of the situation, but if i know you at all i know you'd hate to leave on a sour note :p

its hard to finish a post like this though - i don't know how... zooke, you're a wonderful lady and in the vein of eut, i've learned quite a lot from you :)
thank you, and you will be sorely missed by me at the very least :fluffle:

Sugar, you have to know that I adopted 4 kids that, due to various handicaps, were written off by society. Through love and enouragement, all of them made good lives for themselves and passed on this love to their spouses and children of their own. You are special just like they are. No one can ever cite how drugs or alcohol ever enhanced or improved their lives. You've gotten through the worst of the dependancy syndrome. Now, take your natural intelligence, compassion, and talent and kick ass!! And like I said before, I'm not rolling over for dead because of a couple of saggy old sick tits.

It's hard to know quite what to say. I keep typing, deleting, and re-typing. My first draft was meant to be comforting, but seemed cold; the second philisophical, but instead read like a poor man's Desiderata; and the third I tried relating my own family's experience with cancer, but it was as though I was stealing fire.

Zooke... go in Peace. With admiration.

Brother, of all the people here, your prayers probably mean more to me than any other's. I trust to you to make others understand that we are all children of the same God. Peace and love, brother.

It's probably why I'm here (on the planet, not necessarily the forums heh), and I shall now double my efforts. Try to remember in all of this that everything is the will of Allah (even those sick tits ;) ) and for all we know, you could come out of this stronger and better.

I shall make no predictions nor attempt to assuage any fears except to say that you are blessed. In Talmud it says that God counts the tears of women and in Qur'an it says that Heaven is at the feet of mothers. With God on your side, none (not even illness) can stand against you.

Stay in touch and be well and may Allah's peace be with you.

It's hard to know quite what to say. I keep typing, deleting, and re-typing. My first draft was meant to be comforting, but seemed cold; the second philisophical, but instead read like a poor man's Desiderata; and the third I tried relating my own family's experience with cancer, but it was as though I was stealing fire.

Zooke... go in Peace. With admiration.

Thank you Dobbs. I go, if I go, with and to God. I'm not the least bit scared. I am a little worried about folks who may not have the benefit of my self-righteous interference. But, I'm sure there are plenty others to step in. In the meantime, I charge you and everyone else to find a clip of that Woodstock video highlighting these traitorous boobs wiggling and jiggling under a wet t-shirt as I lost myself to my main life-long love...music. I'll get a current photo of myself to match to that sexy young thing in our personal info thread.

Zooke, I know that I haven't been around long, but you have made me think, and laugh and sometimes even question why I am the way I am. I thank you for that. I will pray for you every chance I get. I know that you deserve nothing less.


Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again--rejoice! 5Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon.
Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:4-7

I am not sure what you believe, but I hope that those verses bring you comfort, it is one of my favorite passages.

Smunkee;)

It's probably why I'm here (on the planet, not necessarily the forums heh), and I shall now double my efforts. Try to remember in all of this that everything is the will of Allah (even those sick tits ;) ) and for all we know, you could come out of this stronger and better.

I shall make no predictions nor attempt to assuage any fears except to say that you are blessed. In Talmud it says that God counts the tears of women and in Qur'an it says that Heaven is at the feet of mothers. With God on your side, none (not even illness) can stand against you.

Stay in touch and be well and may Allah's peace be with you.

Keru, I have always thought that you believed as I do and I have respected you for your belief in our God. We are all from Abrahaam, children of the same God, with the same commandments of right and wrong. It doesn't matter how you personalize or practice your belief in our Father, our common purpose is to proclaim Him and His word to the enlightenment of all. God has already blessed me beyond belief. He took from me the ability to give birth to children, but then gave me motherless children who are the joy and the light of my life. He gave me a husband who loves me and devotes his life to me and our family. He gave me many hard challenges in life, but He gave me the strength to withstand and overcome those challenges and still have the faith to sing praises of His love. When I go, I know that I go to a better place...to our Father's kingdom. God's love to you.

:fluffle: XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO :fluffle:

from TCR :D

I'm not sure what to say or how to say it. I don't want to talk of you as if you're already gone, or linger on when...
Everything is cheesy. You leave a body of work here that has an imprint. If it is a reflection of you life then that imprint has to be in all you've touched.

For what it's worth.

Zooke, I know that I haven't been around long, but you have made me think, and laugh and sometimes even question why I am the way I am. I thank you for that. I will pray for you every chance I get. I know that you deserve nothing less.


Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again--rejoice! 5Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon.
Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:4-7

I am not sure what you believe, but I hope that those verses bring you comfort, it is one of my favorite passages.

Smunkee;)

What can I say? I am Israeli, raised as a Jew, was married to an Italian Catholic for 25 years, follow the teachings of the Catholic church, remarried to a fundamentalist (Pentecostal) Christian, and my best friend is a Muslim from Pakistan. What brand or flavor of religion am I? Phhhttt.....how about I am a child of God and know that Jesus died for my sins.

I'm glad to know that I made you wonder why you are the way you are. That has always been my main goal. Why do we compartmentalize each other and ourselves based on random differences such as race, religion, politics, nationality, gender, sexuality, etc? What exactly is the barrier that keeps us from knowing each other as equals? Who has the wisdom or the right to determine who is worthy and who is less than worthy?

I'm not saying I have the answers, but I sure have the questions!!

Smunkeeville, God willing, we'll still have time to compare notes and beliefs.

fluffle: XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO :fluffle:

from TCR :D:fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle:
Which I guess is what I am trying to tell everyone here. Big ol sugar hugs. :fluffle:

I'm not sure what to say or how to say it. I don't want to talk of you as if you're already gone, or linger on when...
Everything is cheesy. You leave a body of work here that has an imprint. If it is a reflection of you life then that imprint has to be in all you've touched.

For what it's worth.

Bingo!! You got it!! I am not a prolific poster, I am not an "in your face" poster, I am not a controversial poster. I reserve my comments for issues that are really important to me and I put my thoughts and opinions out there for review as diplomatically as I am able. My goal has never been to alienate, but to share. And I have always tried to do this while letting others know that I accept and appreciate them just as they are, even if I don't agree with them.

Now, the ugly truth is, it's after 10 PM my time, and I am pure wore out. I would love to spend hours letting each of you know how much you mean to me on an individual basis, but I'm tuckered. I just want you all to know that each and everyone of you are special and unique and a treasure. And, I love you.

ITMT, lights out for bonzo. :fluffle:

Sorry to hear that Zooke. Hope the best of luck to you, and may you fare better than my aunt and grandmother did. And may you fare as well as my mother and still live to see another ten years and still counting. Although right about now it looks ver very grim for her.

I just sent you a TG that says just about everything. Even after that, I'm at a loss for words.

I wish you all the best. Your faith will carry you through, one way or another.
:fluffle:

We will celebrate your life, my dear. We'll send you out with the biggest jazz celebration we can master, and we'll dance to your life, a life well lived and filled with love.

We will celebrate your life, my dear. We'll send you out with the biggest jazz celebration we can master, and we'll dance to your life, a life well lived and filled with love.
I like your style. Something just screams out "When the Saints Go Marching In" or perhaps Janis Joplin - Try;)

"Hey little girl, gotta push on"

Zoooooke! <3
We never talked much, but I always felt you were a beautiful soul.
Thank you for all your shared wisdom and good intentions.

http://www.wisarts.com/digital/mandala/images/mandala017_jpg.jpg

Sorry to hear that Zooke. Never had to deal with that myself. Family doesn't have it. Just bad hearts, CF, and a case of Hodkins and Lou Gerhings.....

I hope for you......

"Shared pain is lessened, shared joy increased. Thus, we refute entropy."
-Spider Robinson.

This makes me think of the first line in the ethical rules the Swedish medical association has adopted:

"Läkaren skall i sin gärning ha patientens hälsa som det främsta målet och om möjligt bota, ofta lindra, alltid trösta, följande människokärlekens och hederns bud."

It means "The doctor shall in his deed have the patient's health as the foremost goal and if possible cure, often sooth, always comfort, following the message of love of man and honour."

Zooke, you anything but the little old anonymous lady, you, are not the only one to have had people from here mean things to them, and you are one of the few who have done so to me. You are in my thoughts, and I offer any comfort I can give. Knowing you has been an honour that has allowed me to fulfil that message of love, regardless of value system.

I shall continue to keep a lookout for that Woodstock video (http://forums.jolt.co.uk/showpost.php?p=8308280&postcount=38) of the bold young woman dancing in the rain-wet t-shirt, so that I can say "I know her."

Zoooooke! <3
We never talked much, but I always felt you were a beautiful soul.
Thank you for all your shared wisdom and good intentions. Seconded.

Keep on fighting, Zooke!

And like I said before, I'm not rolling over for dead because of a couple of saggy old sick tits.
haha i know :p
my post sounded a little... like 'the end' and i knew its not, but as other people have said here, its hard to write a post like that. like dobbsy i wrote and re-wrote it about 3 or 4 times, and eventually just wrote what came to me and posted it as-is, heh. didn't want to sound so melodramatic or 'final'... damn now i don't know what i'm saying here either :headbang:

what i mean to say is: we love ya zooke :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :)
i think i can safely speak for everyone here sincerely wishing you the very best of luck fighting it, and a speedy recovery :fluffle:

haha i know :p
my post sounded a little... like 'the end' and i knew its not, but as other people have said here, its hard to write a post like that. like dobbsy i wrote and re-wrote it about 3 or 4 times, and eventually just wrote what came to me and posted it as-is, heh. didn't want to sound so melodramatic or 'final'... damn now i don't know what i'm saying here either :headbang:

what i mean to say is: we love ya zooke :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle: :)
i think i can safely speak for everyone here sincerely wishing you the very best of luck fighting it, and a speedy recovery :fluffle:

I know what you meant sugar. As a matter of fact, after reading a TG from a friend here on NS, I went back and re-read my original post and it does sound like "Goodbye, forever." Good Lord no! I was just indulging myself in one of those dramatic NS departures (don't you just hate them?). Also, I have said a few times that I would eventually explain my repeated absences. I felt that you guys deserved to know what was going on and not be left wondering where I was or if I was a news headline. I'm still working, but I get awfully tired so I'm trimming my activities down to the bare essentials. So this is just goodbye until I get to feeling better. Trust me, I fully intend to win this one. As Arnold said "I vill be back!"

Love you, hon! :fluffle: :fluffle: :fluffle:

Call me.

I seem to remember you from a while back on a different account, Ive had quite a few throughout the years on NS :)
Anyway, I am sad to see you go, the posts I have seen from you very often dont make me want to scream and smash my computers monitor with my forehead at the sheer assanine stupidity of humanity in general.

Lacking anything else to use, as an amature writer in High School I own very little :P, I hereby dedicate the Gundabad National Goblinball Championship games to Zooke:
http://forums2.jolt.co.uk/showthread.php?t=459788
Bit of an IC mix carried over from the II forums there, but hey, enjoy :)

"Shared pain is lessened, shared joy increased. Thus, we refute entropy."
-Spider Robinson.
Oooooooo! I love that! Thanks! :)

1. Why do we compartmentalize each other and ourselves based on random differences such as race, religion, politics, nationality, gender, sexuality, etc?

2. What exactly is the barrier that keeps us from knowing each other as equals?

3.Who has the wisdom or the right to determine who is worthy and who is less than worthy?
1. Because we lose sight of the fact that we're all in this together, that life is the only universally terminal experience, and because we forget that when we were little everything was new and bright and fascinating ... and still is.

2. Lack of vision.

3. No one.

Love you! :fluffle:

I don't know you, but just from what I've read here, I can tel you are a great wpman, full of knowledge and love for you fellow man. If anybody deserves heaven, I am sure it is you. God bless you, dear Zooke.

Kepp your chin up, and fight tooth and nail, because if I'm right about you, the world would do well to keep you around for a while longer. We need more people like you. You will be in my prayers and thoughts.

I won't put a sad smiley here, I'm sure you'd rather get one of these. :fluffle:
Stay strong, young lady. We are all thinking of you and pulling for you.

:( I don't know what to say, just know that you're in my thoughts and always will be, thank you for all your kind words and all those times you've cheered me up over the last year or so, love you sweetie xoxoxoxox:fluffle:

:( I don't know what to say, just know that you're in my thoughts and always will be, thank you for all your kind words and all those times you've cheered me up over the last year or so, love you sweetie xoxoxoxox:fluffle:
You're such a wonderful young woman! :fluffle:

Best of luck to you. That's all I can say. :(

Hey Zooke, Sanctaphrax here.
I know we never really met here, but I always saw your posts, and had/have nothing but admiration for you. I believe you'll pull through, and just so you know, there's at least one Jew praying for you, and for the things you believe in. Here's to peace and understanding between all religions.
-Sanctaphrax, back from the dead for one last post-

(p.s thanks Tink for linking me to this)

I know we have not had any direct contact but every one of your posts have reminded me of something my mom would say if she was ever inclined to post on a board, which means i have enjoyed them thoroughly. Good luck and know you have influenced more people then you could possibly know. We are cheering for you!

Hey Zooke, Sanctaphrax here.
I know we never really met here, but I always saw your posts, and had/have nothing but admiration for you. I believe you'll pull through, and just so you know, there's at least one Jew praying for you, and for the things you believe in. Here's to peace and understanding between all religions.
-Sanctaphrax, back from the dead for one last post-
Knowing Zooke fairly well, I'm sure she will greatly appreciate your praying for her, Sanct. Shaloam. :fluffle:

i am sorry to hear what you are going though i will remeber you in my thoughts always may your bravery in the face of this give others hope where there was none before.

Zooke, I have always appreciated your advice to others and your great caring, though we haven't met many times. Thanks for your wonderful contribution. I know you have the courage to fight, and we will see you back soon. And for what my prayers are worth, I'll send some out.

Well, I've not talked to you so much, but I still know you as a warm, compassionate person. I also don't want to play "who can be the deepest using the least words" as I'm wont to do at such moments, so I'll try and refrain.

Which kinda means I'm done. Besides, from your attitude, I couldn't say anything without feeling I'm preaching to the choir :D

Wow i really don't know what to say to this.

You had the good grace to put me on a list of people you would most like to meet purely for crazy times and i was confused and also deeply humbled by this.

I sure hope it does happen.

Damn you i have a tear in my eye.

Damn you i have a tear in my eye.
Join the club. :(

http://www.clicksmilies.com/s0105/traurig/sad-smiley-012.gif

I can't seem to find my own words and I'm not really sure much needs to be said that hasn't already been said by those who know you far better than I. I may be fairly new here, but I have observed enough to know that you are a truly inspirational, wonderful woman.

I wish you enough. (http://tmsyn.wc.ask.com/r?t=an&s=dw&uid=242d6daf842d6daf8&sid=342d6daf842d6daf8&qid=6DA84A80ED1A0645B068815B16B86C38&io=2&sv=za5cb0dfc&o=0&ask=i+wish+you+enough&uip=42d6daf8&en=te&eo=-100&pt=I+%3cb%3eWISH%3c%2fb%3e+%3cb%3eYOU%3c%2fb%3e+%3cb%3eENOUGH%3c%2fb%3e&ac=24&qs=121&pg=1&ep=1&te_par=196&te_id=&u=http://community-1.webtv.net/e-encouragement/IWISHYOUENOUGH/)

:(

I wish you the best.

:) :) :) :) :)

(I would give you a twenty-one smiley salute, but I think that may be spam. )

Join the club. :(
I hate this whole thing about needing sleep/Time Zones and Working.:(

A few months ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I got busy with the regimen. I underwent chemo and radiation and dutifully shed my hair and puked up my guts. The chemo didn't take care of my problem so I had to have a little operation a few weeks ago. That didn't do it either. Mr C marches on and now he is showing up here, there and everywhere. I'm OK with this, because I KNOW there is a God.

I didn't feel right just disappearing with no word and no clue to whoever might give a rip about me. So, if you care, or if you don't, I pray that your life be fulfilling and happy, that you appreciate each and every person who enters your life, that you freely share your life lessons with others, and that you take pride in knowing that you meant a great deal to a little old anonymous lady. Goodbye good people.
I have a friend who is a 10 year survivor of breast cancer. I prayed for her and I will pray for you.

Yes there is a God. May HE watch over you.

Take care and God Bless!!

I have a friend who is a 10 year survivor of breast cancer. I prayed for her and I will pray for you.

Yes there is a God. May HE watch over you.

Take care and God Bless!!
A very wise man once told me that no prayer is ever wasted. If the person you're praying for isn't helped for some reason, at the very least it will help the one praying.

I like that. :)

I hate this whole thing about needing sleep/Time Zones and Working.:(
Why is that? What's wrong, bro?

Why is that? What's wrong, bro?
I always seem to get the raw Slab of steak when it comes to important things here.

I am fine really.
Well mostly...

Why do you have so many posts?:gundge:

I always seem to get the raw Slab of steak when it comes to important things here.

I am fine really.
Well mostly...

Why do you have so many posts?:gundge:
'Cause iz one verbose son-of-a-bitch! :D

Ok. Just sounded like a kind of strange post for you is all.

argh. I keep thinking of more to say, yet continue to be at a loss for how to say it.

Anyway, I was going through by black box (memory box) today looking for something, and I found the memorial card for my friend. Reading the quote, it makes me amazed how similar you two really are. She seemed like she is what you would have been like at the age of 19.

Anyway, here is the quote on it.
I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one,
I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when my life is done.
I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways,
Of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days.

I'd like the tears of those who grieve to dry before the sun
Of happy memories that I leave
When life is done.

*sigh* RIP Kim, and as always Zooke, my thoughts are with you and your family. Give the beast hell.

argh. I keep thinking of more to say, yet continue to be at a loss for how to say it.

Anyway, I was going through by black box (memory box) today looking for something, and I found the memorial card for my friend. Reading the quote, it makes me amazed how similar you two really are. She seemed like she is what you would have been like at the age of 19.

Anyway, here is the quote on it.
I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one,
I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when my life is done.
I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways,
Of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days.

I'd like the tears of those who grieve to dry before the sun
Of happy memories that I leave
When life is done.

*sigh* RIP Kim, and as always Zooke, my thoughts are with you and your family. Give the beast hell.
That's very well done. I'm sorry you lost her.

Gods! All this shit people have to go through pisses me off so much I feel like killing something! Fucking cancer! Argghhh! [ throws shit ]

That's very well done. I'm sorry you lost her.

Gods! All this shit people have to go through pisses me off so much I feel like killing something! Fucking cancer! Argghhh! [ throws shit ]
Kill the cancer!

I miss her, but the fact that she was so faithful (to the last day, even when she couldn't speak, she would open her eyes when her priest said the Lords Prayer) that I know she was okay with it, and her memory makes me so happy that I can't help but be okay with it. That is actually one of the ways Kim reminds me of Zooke...hugely faithful, but instead of treating faith as a burden, treated it as a blessing and lived with enormous passion. And just ask Zooke how much I admire her passion.

'Cause iz one verbose son-of-a-bitch! :D

Ok. Just sounded like a kind of strange post for you is all.
Everything about me is strange.

I think i always hated working though(I actually like work but would rather be doing nothing and still getting an income.

Kill the cancer!

I miss her, but the fact that she was so faithful (to the last day, even when she couldn't speak, she would open her eyes when her priest said the Lords Prayer) that I know she was okay with it, and her memory makes me so happy that I can't help but be okay with it. That is actually one of the ways Kim reminds me of Zooke...hugely faithful, but instead of treating faith as a burden, treated it as a blessing and lived with enormous passion. And just ask Zooke how much I admire her passion.
I devoutly wish I could "kill the cancer!" Sigh.

IMHO, any "faith" which is a burden, is actually no faith at all.

Everything about me is strange.

I think i always hated working though(I actually like work but would rather be doing nothing and still getting an income.
Nahh. You just think that "everything about [ you ] is strange" 'cause you don't have enough experience to know that we're ALL strange! :D

I've had a few jobs that I loved with a passion, but those seem to be few and far between. I don't work now, although I'm still getting an income, but I paid for it ... big time!

Zooke- you're in my thoughts and prayers now.
My best wishes to you.

How many times have you given me a laugh-or made my mouth water describing food?
;)

Goodbye and good luck Zooke, where ever it may be.

May the Forum 7 gods of old honor you with a shrine unto the end of the NS.

Hey, you've burned yourself an imprint onto my memory. And this brain is just 15 years old. Of course your memory will make it a looooooooong way into the future. So don't you worry about that.

Hey Zooke, you probably don't know me because I am not a really frequent poster (I usually post just in spurts when I have time and such), but I would like to say my thoughts and prayers are with you as you undergo this battle. I wish you the best of luck.

Sincerely,

The Capitalist Vikings

Nahh. You just think that "everything about [ you ] is strange" 'cause you don't have enough experience to know that we're ALL strange! :D

I've had a few jobs that I loved with a passion, but those seem to be few and far between. I don't work now, although I'm still getting an income, but I paid for it ... big time!
I have been around here longer than you............

I don't think killing VC counts as a job.....*Shifty eyes*:gundge:

War Pension?

My God.

I knew you barely, ma'am, but...please accept my sincerest condolences. I shall pray for you---it's all I can do. May the Father take you into his kingdom, and may you rest there happily with all of your loved ones until the end of time.

I devoutly wish I could "kill the cancer!" Sigh.

don't we all bro :(

sorry to hear about your loss again, Sarkhaan.


edit: and zooke, you're still in my thoughts. have been a lot these past few days :fluffle:

Hey Zooke, I only chatted to you once or twice that I can remember, but I remember those times as you being someone that I respected. I'll be praying for you, luv Lashie :fluffle:

PS Don't forget how much everyone on here (and God) loves you

http://www.studip.uni-goettingen.de/pictures/smile/blumen.gif

"Gott gebe mir die Gelassenheit,
Dinge hinzunehmen,
die ich nicht ändern kann,
die Kraft, Dinge zu ändern,
die ich ändern kann,
und die Weisheit,
das eine vom anderen zu unterscheiden."
(Friedrich Christoph Oetinger, 1702-1782)

"May God grant me the serenity
to accept the things
I cannot change,
the strength to change those things
which I can change,
and the wisdom
to distinguish one from the other."

http://www.studip.uni-goettingen.de/pictures/smile/kerze2.gif

I like you and wanted to express that. I don't know how though, 'cause I've got this big lump in my throat. Wish you all the best. ;)

sorry to hear about your loss again, Sarkhaan.


edit: and zooke, you're still in my thoughts. have been a lot these past few days :fluffle:
Thanks muchly.

And Zooke, I think you've been in alot of peoples thoughts alot recently. Who woulda guessed someone on the internet could impact this many people?:fluffle:

Touching words.

My empathy and best wishes go out to you, Zooke. Hang in there.

I posted a thread to let a "few" people know why I have been MIA a lot the last few months and may not be back for a while. I'm not much of one to share and whine about my personal issues, but I've started getting a little worried about this whole thing lately and I just didn't want them to worry about me and and not know what is going on if I was gone for any length of time. I got an email from a friend this morning letting me know that I had more than a few replies to my thread and all I can say is "Holy shit!!!". I had no idea that that many of you knew who I was much less having made an impression on you plus all the kind souls who sent good wishes and prayers to a stranger. You people have humbled me and thrilled me with your kindness and compassion. This may be the only NS thread I have ever seen that didn't have one single negative post, and I am just awed beyond words. I have to say, this whole cancer thing has been so erratic and discouraging and aggrevating and tiring, for me and my family. But, the overwhelming messages of support and love that you have sent to me makes me 101% more determined to beat this. One of us is going to win and it isn't going to be Mr C.

Now for the bad news. Some of you are probably familiar with Fox (Israelities et Buddist). In my opinion, a really super person. I received an email from his roommate yesterday, and he passed away yesterday morning. I don't know the exact details of his passing, I have a vague hunch, but that is not important. What is important, is to send him on to his God with our prayers and best wishes. I'll start a new thread to do just that. God loves you Fox, and so do I.

I posted a thread to let a "few" people know why I have been MIA a lot the last few months and may not be back for a while. I'm not much of one to share and whine about my personal issues, but I've started getting a little worried about this whole thing lately and I just didn't want them to worry about me and and not know what is going on if I was gone for any length of time. I got an email from a friend this morning letting me know that I had more than a few replies to my thread and all I can say is "Holy shit!!!". I had no idea that that many of you knew who I was much less having made an impression on you plus all the kind souls who sent good wishes and prayers to a stranger. You people have humbled me and thrilled me with your kindness and compassion. This may be the only NS thread I have ever seen that didn't have one single negative post, and I am just awed beyond words. I have to say, this whole cancer thing has been so erratic and discouraging and aggrevating and tiring, for me and my family. But, the overwhelming messages of support and love that you have sent to me makes me 101% more determined to beat this. One of us is going to win and it isn't going to be Mr C.

Now for the bad news. Some of you are probably familiar with Fox (Israelities et Buddist). In my opinion, a really super person. I received an email from his roommate yesterday, and he passed away yesterday morning. I don't know the exact details of his passing, I have a vague hunch, but that is not important. What is important, is to send him on to his God with our prayers and best wishes. I'll start a new thread to do just that. God loves you Fox, and so do I.
hmm...I'll save my comments about fox for that thread...


however, it turns out that us NSers can unite on something besides...wait...we've never been united on anything. ever.

except for the fact that we all love Zooke, it would seem. Whine all you want about cancer. Its one of those things that I think exempts you from "no whining". If anyone can beat "Mr. C" (I keep picturing Mr. T). However, if you ever feel the need to escape back to some good stories, you have my e-mail;) :fluffle:

Sorry to hear about your cancer, Zooke. I hope that either

a) You recover from the cancer and continue to survive another 20+ years anyway

or

b) You die a quick and painless death before the cancer enters that painful terminal phase.

Personally, I'd prefer b) for myself, but then I'm young and the young never want to live... it's only once we're past the first bridge that we really begin to enjoy life.

Also, sorry to hear about Israelites and Buddist. I remember working with him on the NS Musical. Interesting kid. Can't say much else.

Dear Sister Zooke,
You're words pierced like a sword. I am so sorry to hear about your illness; it really shocks me. It is hard for me to believe. Of course you know that I will say prayers for you. I will also call my friends in Turtle Mt and ask them to pray when they go into the sweat lodge. I will post a very long and very powerful healing prayer for you in a seperate post. I really am shocked to hear this news. I am quite certain if we had met in person we would have been very good friends. I suspect that we went to different schools together. I didn't make to Woodstock, but several friends did. I have a relative down where you live, perhaps she could visit you for me. I will send the prayer right after I send this. No matter what happens we will meet again.

He is the Healer, the Sufficer, the Helper, the All-Forgiving, the All-Merciful.

I call on Thee O Exalted One, O Faithful One, O Glorious One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Sovereign, O Upraiser, O Judge! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Peerless One, O Eternal One, O Single One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Most Praised One, O Holy One, O Helping One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Omniscient, O Most Wise, O Most Great One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Clement One, O Majestic One, O Ordaining One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Beloved One, O Cherished One, O Enraptured One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Mightiest One, O Sustaining One, O Potent One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Ruling One, O Self-Subsisting, O All-Knowing One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Spirit, O Light, O Most Manifest One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Thou Frequented by all, O Thou Known to all, O Thou Hidden from all! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Concealed One, O Triumphant One, O Bestowing One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Almighty, O Succoring One, O Concealing One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Fashioner, O Satisfier, O Uprooter! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Rising One, O Gathering One, O Exalting One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Perfecting One, O Unfettered One, O Bountiful One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Beneficent One, O Withholding One, O Creating One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Most Sublime One, O Beauteous One, O Bounteous One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Just One, O Gracious One, O Generous One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O All-Compelling, O Ever-Abiding, O Most Knowing One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Magnificent One, O Ancient of Days, O Magnanimous One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Well-guarded One, O Lord of Joy, O Desired One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!
I call on Thee O Thou Kind to all, O Thou Compassionate with all, O Most Benevolent One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Haven for all, O Shelter to all, O All-Preserving One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Thou Succorer of all, O Thou Invoked by all, O Quickening One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Unfolder, O Ravager, O Most Clement One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Thou my Soul, O Thou my Beloved, O Thou my Faith! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Quencher of thirsts, O Transcendent Lord, O Most Precious One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Greatest Remembrance, O Noblest Name, O Most Ancient Way! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Most Lauded, O Most Holy, O Sanctified One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Unfastener, O Counselor, O Deliverer! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Friend, O Physician, O Captivating One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Glory, O Beauty, O Bountiful One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O the Most Trusted, O the Best Lover, O Lord of the Dawn! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Enkindler, O Brightener, O Bringer of Delight! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Lord of Bounty, O Most Compassionate, O Most Merciful One! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Constant One, O Life-giving One, O Source of all Being! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Thou Who penetratest all things, O All-Seeing God, O Lord of Utterance! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Manifest yet Hidden, O Unseen yet Renowned, O Onlooker sought by all! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

I call on Thee O Thou Who slayest the Lovers, O God of Grace to the wicked! Thou the Sufficing, Thou the Healing, Thou the Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

O Sufficer, I call on Thee, O Sufficer!

O Healer, I call on Thee, O Healer!

O Abider, I call on Thee, O Abider!

Thou the Ever-Abiding, O Thou Abiding One!

Sanctified art Thou, O my God! I beseech Thee by Thy generosity, whereby the portals of Thy bounty and grace were opened wide, whereby the Temple of Thy Holiness was established upon the throne of eternity; and by Thy mercy whereby Thou didst invite all created things unto the table of Thy bounties and bestowals; and by Thy grace whereby Thou didst respond, in thine own Self with Thy word "Yea!" on behalf of all in heaven and earth, at the hour when Thy sovereignty and Thy grandeur stood revealed, at the dawn-time when the might of Thy dominion was made manifest. And again do I beseech Thee, by these most beauteous names, by these most noble and sublime attributes, and by Thy most Exalted Remembrance, and by Thy pure and spotless Beauty, and by Thy hidden Light in the most hidden pavilion, and by Thy Name, cloaked with the garment of affliction every morn and eve, to protect the bearer of this blessed Tablet, and whoso reciteth it, and whoso cometh upon it, and whoso passeth around the house wherein it is. Heal Thou, then, by it every sick, diseased and poor one, from every tribulation and distress, from every loathsome affliction and sorrow, and guide Thou by it whosoever desireth to enter upon the paths of Thy guidance, and the ways of Thy forgiveness and grace.

Thou art verily the Powerful, the All-Sufficing, the Healing, the Protector, the Giving, the Compassionate, the All-Generous, the All-Merciful.

- Bahá'u'lláh

(Compilations, Baha'i Prayers, p. 90)

Zooke the prayer is very powerful. I have seen medical recovery that I can't explain in any physical sense. Please feel free to say it often, ask others to say to for you. My prayers are for you and your family.

Zooke the prayer is very powerful. I have seen medical recovery that I can't explain in any physical sense. Please feel free to say it often, ask others to say to for you. My prayers are for you and your family.

Brother, I have tried to tell you before, but you are my rock of learning and enlightenment. Whenever I have confusion in my life, I have turned to you and you never fail to light my way to the right path. I know from experience the power of prayer and I know that yours are most powerful in their purity. We will meet some day and recognize each other as brother and sister.

As for Fox, folks, I know the judgements you are making. My mother's people are from Israel and I am aware of some of the bustling around that goes on over there. Fox was a bright light that is no longer with us, however or for whatever reason. We're all lessened by his absence.

Brother, I have tried to tell you before, but you are my rock of learning and enlightenment. Whenever I have confusion in my life, I have turned to you and you never fail to light my way to the right path. I know from experience the power of prayer and I know that yours are most powerful in their purity. We will meet some day and recognize each other as brother and sister.

As for Fox, folks, I know the judgements you are making. My mother's people are from Israel and I am aware of some of the bustling around that goes on over there. Fox was a bright light that is no longer with us, however or for whatever reason. We're all lessened by his absence.

I really hope you will use the prayer. If I have a chance later today I will look up the history on it and share it with you.

Zooke, I'm so sorry to hear this. I just don't know what to say, but I hope you'll recover, I hope you don't suffer and you have good friends and family around you.

Hi Zooke. I am so sorry to hear of this. To my recollection, we rarely encountered each other, and the few times we did, we probably disagreed (I am a self-confessed oddball ;)). However, the fact that I, a relatively infrequent poster, am well aware of your existence highlights the fantastic impression you've made here - to all of us, as this thread attests. I must admit that your post even brought a tear to my eye.

I hope you experience no suffering and I wish you all the luck in the world in beating this horrible thing. You will be in my thoughts.