09-10-2003, 00:45
Dear [Violet]/NS members
For the past months, I have been posting under aliases, as obvious as they were: rpisevil etc..
Deep reflection on the events that followed the ban, and that caused the ban, as well as these months of my "reign of stupidity",the ban it was for my abusive behavior, and my tendency to "spam" the forums, rather than by normal Rp.
Regardless of all the abuse I may have recieved due to my aggression, if not spam on various sections of NS forums, it is all the past.
It does not matter any more.
I have shamed myself and blindly I continued to do so for weeks, even months out of a desire to be reaccepted in NS.
My spam was aimed, however justly I felt, wrongly towards specific people,i thought they were just ignoring me without any reason.
I also insulted the Moderators in the chatroom repeatedly by spamming, as good as the chat may have been, horribly corrupted by a hate that seemed to exist in me.
A passion that consumed me. Drove me to spam the NS forums.
And this passion anchored me in a tunnel, where-by my vision became limited. And unacceptable.
For all of these things, and more, I deeply and most sincerely apologize. :oops:
I doubt I can ever make it up to NS, and its members/moderators, all I can ask for is that no more will I be judged for the past I have created for myself.
And the enraging spam I have spread.
please reurn me the nation of klamath. :o
And in return, I can only give my peace. And utter desire to vindicate myself, for my "crimes" towards the Civility of this RP board.
All along I was complaining to myself, and a few others, that people ignored nations without reason, that civility was dying, and low-quality Ignore posts were amassing.
I refused to see that most of this degredation was of my OWN fault.
That the RP died where I posted.
That the RP quality lacked where I placed my posts.
Again, I apologize.
And again there is nothing more that can be done, but to let the past be the past, and a new future be found.
As such, I would expect no tollerance should my behavior continue as such.
Which is why I should devote myself, to living up to this apologetic covenant.
To crawl out of my past, and to be "reborn".
To live up to the name I wanted, and to the Fraternity for which it is after!
I am sorry, for all of the below:
1) Fanatical Spamming.
2) posting in an abusive manner, usually directed towards other members.
3) Convencing myself that certain members of NS were not just wrong, but against me.
4) Seeking, in part, to cause a disruption, in order to try and gather attention, that I could then use to make others feel "pity" for my banning.
I'm sure you can expand that list beyond words, and feel free to, in your own mind.
For anything you can imagine me apologizing for I am apologizing for.
I wish nothing more, than Klamath to return, and for all that was Klamath, to be gone.
In doing so, I hope your silence of my past transgressions, would be enough for you to regain at least a part of the trust I seek.
That I might better be able to let the past die, and forge a better future for myself.
And do what I most sought, bring quality RP to Nationstates.
With utmost regret of the shame I have brought to myself, and full apologies.
Sincerely, Klamath :)
For the past months, I have been posting under aliases, as obvious as they were: rpisevil etc..
Deep reflection on the events that followed the ban, and that caused the ban, as well as these months of my "reign of stupidity",the ban it was for my abusive behavior, and my tendency to "spam" the forums, rather than by normal Rp.
Regardless of all the abuse I may have recieved due to my aggression, if not spam on various sections of NS forums, it is all the past.
It does not matter any more.
I have shamed myself and blindly I continued to do so for weeks, even months out of a desire to be reaccepted in NS.
My spam was aimed, however justly I felt, wrongly towards specific people,i thought they were just ignoring me without any reason.
I also insulted the Moderators in the chatroom repeatedly by spamming, as good as the chat may have been, horribly corrupted by a hate that seemed to exist in me.
A passion that consumed me. Drove me to spam the NS forums.
And this passion anchored me in a tunnel, where-by my vision became limited. And unacceptable.
For all of these things, and more, I deeply and most sincerely apologize. :oops:
I doubt I can ever make it up to NS, and its members/moderators, all I can ask for is that no more will I be judged for the past I have created for myself.
And the enraging spam I have spread.
please reurn me the nation of klamath. :o
And in return, I can only give my peace. And utter desire to vindicate myself, for my "crimes" towards the Civility of this RP board.
All along I was complaining to myself, and a few others, that people ignored nations without reason, that civility was dying, and low-quality Ignore posts were amassing.
I refused to see that most of this degredation was of my OWN fault.
That the RP died where I posted.
That the RP quality lacked where I placed my posts.
Again, I apologize.
And again there is nothing more that can be done, but to let the past be the past, and a new future be found.
As such, I would expect no tollerance should my behavior continue as such.
Which is why I should devote myself, to living up to this apologetic covenant.
To crawl out of my past, and to be "reborn".
To live up to the name I wanted, and to the Fraternity for which it is after!
I am sorry, for all of the below:
1) Fanatical Spamming.
2) posting in an abusive manner, usually directed towards other members.
3) Convencing myself that certain members of NS were not just wrong, but against me.
4) Seeking, in part, to cause a disruption, in order to try and gather attention, that I could then use to make others feel "pity" for my banning.
I'm sure you can expand that list beyond words, and feel free to, in your own mind.
For anything you can imagine me apologizing for I am apologizing for.
I wish nothing more, than Klamath to return, and for all that was Klamath, to be gone.
In doing so, I hope your silence of my past transgressions, would be enough for you to regain at least a part of the trust I seek.
That I might better be able to let the past die, and forge a better future for myself.
And do what I most sought, bring quality RP to Nationstates.
With utmost regret of the shame I have brought to myself, and full apologies.
Sincerely, Klamath :)