NationStates Jolt Archive

Dearest Son,
If you are reading this, you have found the hidden sections of my journal. Words must suffice in these dark days, for I could not tell in person my most regrettable actions, actions that are painful to bear, but even more painful to hide.

I write this as you have left my side and gone into self-imposed exile, even now I cannot find you... I suppose you wish to stay hidden, as that is what you said. I will allow you that mercy; I will not try to find you. Your self-imposed exile, out of hate of me is understandable, I suppose. You loved your mother, as did I... her death struck us both deeply... I wish you could understand my choices.

The death of a wife causes pain that, for some such as I, can only be consoled by the love of another. For this you grew angry with me, not so much as I had betrayed the memory of your mother, but that you saw my new love as lowly... a peasant. Son, I made my choices, I wish you could understand but it is clear you are not able to as this time.

I still love your mother, I will never stop loving her, but I must look to the future. I must look to the future, even if it means burying the past. I cannot describe the immense pain and anguish I feel for hiding the facts that I must now reveal to you....

Though you are my most beloved child, you are not my only... For before you were born, before your mother... I was foolish in my youth and had a relationship, a love affair if you will... I was in love with the wife of a man killed in combat. The widow, Isa, came to me... she was lonely and I was foolish... we spent a summer away from the cities, interloping to the coastal cities untouched by the civil war that our army was so gallantly fighting in.

We, in our love, had two children. A son and a daughter, twins but not identical. I fled the day they were born, but I later made sure they were cared for, I knew that one day you would wish them to be cared for, for they are your siblings... even if they were "less that us." My children with Clara Reck... Danny and Anne... I pray for them still.

Please do not think less of me. I will always love your mother, please realize that... please come home soon, I pray a safe return from what ever you are doing. Do not hate me, son. If you so wish... I will live my days without comfort, without love... just come back.
-Emperor Lazarus Kersk-

ooc:
Dan Reck, Grand General of the ITDGF - Erik actually met him while in exile. Both were working as hitmen in various parts of the globe. They worked together for several years. When Erik returned home, he gave Dan a position as a high-level security guard in the capital. Their father, Lazarus, was assassinated shortly afterwards.

Anne Reck - Has been living in the capital for several years prior to Dan getting his security job. She has no prior knowledge of the nature of her lineage, until now.

more coming soon....

Following the rise of Emperor Lazarus to the blood stained throne; the construction of a dynasty was necessary. There are always two types of Emperors, wartime and peacetime, unfortunately for Lazarus; he was wartime Emperor. His lands wrought with strife and civil war, he set out to unify the Empire and drive out the enemies from his lands. His war lasted the better part of four decades, leaving him middle aged and with no heir. This was unacceptable for his vision of the future; he would require a line to follow him.

Lazarus found comfort in the arms of a young woman, Clara Valor, daughter of the Advisor Brian Valor, whom aided the Emperor in his efforts to unify the lands. This lady became his lover and the mother of his first children, Daniel and Anne. However, the law regarded these children as illegitimate and would not allow them access to the throne. Emperor Lazarus bade farewell to his lover and took a noble bride, Princess Rose, who was 11 years younger than he was. In instances of pressure, Lazarus would secretly sneak back to Clara, but she bore him no other children.

Rose was young, but old enough to realize what went on around her, she knew her husband was unfaithful. She bore him a son, Erik, and suffered for many years from depression and mental stress, until she finally killed herself. Before dying, she revealed the source of her torment to the teenage Erik, whom became enraged and appalled at his father’s unfaithfulness. Fearing retribution, Clara Valor changed her last name to Reck, which means “recreate” in the native tough of Ninthok. She fled with her children.

Erik fled from his father’s house, deciding that he could not follow the man who was responsible for his mother’s death. Erik quickly became known in the crime industry for his brutal tactics and sometimes-bloodthirsty use of force when dealing with both enemies and innocents alike. He was paired with a fellow killer, Daniel Reck who was just a few years older than Erik, but calmer and more able with firearms, as opposed to Erik who found greater joy using a melee type weapon to dispatch his enemies.

Erik and Daniel worked well together, bonding and creating a friendship; they were both unaware of their connection. During this time Clara died, and Anne moved back to the capital to live off the money Daniel was sending her. Lazarus was unaware of the death of his lover, but found comfort in a third woman, who bore his last two children, Peter and Mary. She died in childbirth. Around this time, Lazarus located Erik and sent him a plea to return home. He offered to cease his affairs, if it would allow for Erik to return. Erik returned to his father, bringing his friend Daniel with him and even finding a seemingly low risk security position at the capitals media building.

Erik was appointed chief of security in the capital, but had alternate motives. Using his connections in the crime industry, he aided several small bands of anarchists in gaining access to the armories in several outposts. This lead to a small civil war but was easily contained. Containing the uprising, however, allowed several anarchists to enter the capital and seize control of the media building. This led to a large-scale containment of the building, as the computers in the building had access to the primary weapons and security information of the entire Empire. Daniel Reck was able to sneak, through the air ducts, from room to room and slowly kill the anarchists, this made him a hero to the press. A second group was able to enter the capital, and the cities sewer system to enter the main capital building, which was oddly unguarded in many locations. One man teams were sent into the capital building, but only one made it into the throne room; he was able to put down Emperor Lazarus but was quickly killed himself. Erik’s coup was successful, he would now be crowned Emperor. In the process of taking the Empire over, Erik had avenged his mother, destroyed his former employer’s capabilities and made his friend, Daniel, a national hero.