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If you were able to gather any of your old friends or acquaintances who would it be.

Mine would be my old friends from when I was 16/17/18

I miss them. We were close and we loved each other.

Before Lil B got hooked on cracked, before Punchy was shot, before Dave was sent up state.

Before life hit us.

I actually think if it was posssible for us to come together right now .... we'd still be ok with each other.

Before Arduu went right off his nut and succumbed to one of the greater legacies, schizophrenia. There was much potential ... now, only discontent, disrepute, and disassociation.
His favourite joke was the-bowling-ball-in-the-sink, and really loved that dream about his car screwing his girlfriends' truck.
Now his favourite joke is the mirror. At least, the one he practices his lines the most with.

Even though since then . I happen to ... for a bit .. get into the White Nationalist stuff. I'd bet money they they themselves have been in contact at least with organizations who hate whites. But I know they wouldn't hate me. Same as I wouldn't hate them.

I miss them. =(

I saw one of my old friends, recently, from a while back. He had not been long out of jail. He still remembers our times when we were younger. In his words ' We raised each other'.

I miss all my friends.

Ya'll think I'm bullshitting, I am not.

Even though since then . I happen to ... for a bit .. get into the White Nationalist stuff.
Quo?

Ya'll think I'm bullshitting, I am not.I don't think it's that.
I think it's more along the lines of someone telling you to get a blog at some point.

I don't think it's that.
I think it's more along the lines of someone telling you to get a blog at some point.

I asked a legitimate question. We all had freinds when we weer young. Well most of us. Friendship that took on things that in our adult life wouldn't be so. Because were were so young. We were innocent in a way. At least with each other. I am not alone in this.

Quo?

Everyone here at the time saw it, if the were on. It's been a while, but yes I did.

The only thought that kept me from going full force was my old friends. I'm hoping the same has kept them from full force also.

Well thanks Straughn for asking questions and being a smartass. At least you put forth some effort.

People think I'm bullshitting.

I asked a legitimate question. We all had freinds when we weer young. Well most of us. Friendship that took on things that in our adult life wouldn't be so. Because were were so young. We were innocent in a way. At least with each other. I am not alone in this.You did, and i answered sincerely. You should probably allow a few other responses, in time, is all i'm saying.

Or being bloggy. I've never had a blog. Maybe I should try it. Be like a Journal anyone can read right? I couldnt be myself in it.

Only a few times I have revealed thing about me on the web, here. This is one.

My friends from infant and junior school. =(

only time I ever posted a pic of myself on the ewb was here too. thank goodness it's gone. Though I'm sure it's still floating around somewhere.

Everyone here at the time saw it, if the were on. It's been a while, but yes I did.

The only thought that kept me from going full force was my old friends. I'm hoping the same has kept them from full force also.What is your turning point in this context?

What is your turning point in this context?

The extreme hate .. the extreme ignorance. Then I got in to with them and was banned. That is NOT why I turned away .. I turned away before and it was the reason for my ban. Not all, but most were just fucking stupid. This was Stormfront. Only the small percentage actually has legitimate thoughts.

Plus having that sort of hatred or paranoia makes your life miserable.

It's fruitless.

It's wrong. Not saying you should never learn from exp with ppl, but hate.. NEVER good. Hurts your spirit.


And also my old friends kept popping into my head. But was actually able to shuffle that aside for a while. But it was always there.

The music I like .. man I could go on and on. Nothing better than good black folk. ( that might sound racist to you all, but I honestly mean it) Southern.

One of my old friends Porogio (YoYo). He joined the new Black Panthers.. should've seen how awkward it was for him when he saw me. I actually felt sorry for him .. cause I understood. This dude use to call me his sister, and I called him my brother. We are both Libras.

So Sad =(

And I cannot blame him for joining them. I went through a phase where I hated being white (earlier .. ye I been all over the board -- but I understood it) .. if I was black.. I'm sure I'd despise whites.