NationStates Jolt Archive

So today I've just had a major thinking and discovery sesion trying to piece together the puzzle that is me, to work out who I am. Here are some conclusions I came to:

I would kill without a second thought if any member of my family was in danger.

If the nation became a dictatorship, I would join rebel forces to overthrow such rule.

I have also realised that I have become friends with some people just to use them for my own gain.


So what have you come to realise about yourself recently?

That I'm one of a kind :cool:

That I'm one of a kind :cool:

Just remember...everybody is unique.

The sick kind? (I must be; I'm enjoying NSG... XD)

So today I've just had a major thinking and discovery sesion trying to piece together the puzzle that is me, to work out who I am. Here are some conclusions I came to:

1). I would kill without a second thought if any member of my family was in danger. :cool:

2). If the nation became a dictatorship, I would join rebel forces to overthrow such rule. :cool:

3). I have also realized that I have become friends with some people just to use them for my own gain. :eek:


So what have you come to realize about yourself recently?


I realize that I agree with one & two but not three.

Just remember...everybody is unique.

I'm not.

I have disturbing simlarities to Bernard Black.

Oh, and I'm selectively a bastard and a nice person. It tends to depend upon any number of factors, but generally instinct.

I realize that I agree with one & two but not three.

I'm not happy about 3 but it's the kind of person I am.

i realized that i would rather be in the midst of a tragedy than be an observer of that tragedy who had to make inane small talk with other observers.

i wonder if that is unusual.

I like Pina Coladas and getting caught in the rain.

I like Pina Coladas and getting caught in the rain.

hey darlin' if you think im going to be amused when you answer my personal ad, you are sadly mistaken.

its over.

Just remember...everybody is unique.

Except that one guy in Monthy Python :D

Edit: Who just happens to be Barringtonia, interesting :p

I would join the secret police or military of the dictatorship government and arrest those who rebel with crimes against the state. I would kill anyone who threatens my family. But I would not be friends with someone simply to further my success, only a selfish scumbag does that!

I would join the secret police or military of the dictatorship government and arrest those who rebel with crimes against the state. I would kill anyone who threatens my family. But I would not be friends with someone simply to further my success, only a selfish scumbag does that!

I already said I'm not happy about number 3 and I'm going to change that. Out of curiousity why would you join the ranks of the dictatorship government?

So today I've just had a major thinking and discovery sesion trying to piece together the puzzle that is me, to work out who I am. Here are some conclusions I came to:

I would kill without a second thought if any member of my family was in danger.

If the nation became a dictatorship, I would join rebel forces to overthrow such rule.

I have also realised that I have become friends with some people just to use them for my own gain.


So what have you come to realise about yourself recently?

I agree with one and two, but not three. Not because I'm too principled or honest, but because I don't have the patience to pretend that I like people I don't, or to try to get people to like me when they don't.

The other day at work someone cracked a joke about our temporary supervisor saying that "she hates you," (meaning me) after she asked me a quick question then had a conversation with another colleague. I responded that I was quite certain that the temp supervisor liked me, but was pretty sure that our regular one did hate me. I was joking but the aforementioned colleague who just caught the end of that exchange chimed in by assuring me that the temp supervisor didn't hate me, but the regular one did.

My response? I shrugged and pointed out that she would be retiring soon.

its over.

I'm in the midst of a tragedy!

I'm not.

But that would make you unique because everyone is unique, but you not being unique would make you different, hence unique...:eek: :eek: :eek:
*self-destruct in 3..*
*2*
*1*
*mushroom cloud*

i realized that i would rather be in the midst of a tragedy than be an observer of that tragedy who had to make inane small talk with other observers.

i wonder if that is unusual.

I am at that point right now.......what do you say to someone who is dying? I have no idea.

I brought pumpkin bread....now I feel like an idiot.

"sorry you are dying, here's some seasonal bread! it's got raisins!"

:headbang:

I already said I'm not happy about number 3 and I'm going to change that.

Why?

Provided you make a distinction between real friends and expedient friends, I really don't see an issue.

I am at that point right now.......what do you say to someone who is dying? I have no idea.

I brought pumpkin bread....now I feel like an idiot.

"sorry you are dying, here's some seasonal bread! it's got raisins!"

:headbang:

Assuming I have my sense of humour up till the very end, I would appreciate that.

Why?

Provided you make a distinction between real friends and expedient friends, I really don't see an issue.

Guilt hit me. I don't know when. It just crept up on me and now I can't shake it off.

Assuming I have my sense of humour up till the very end, I would appreciate that.

he was surprisingly upbeat. I am kinda really worried about that.

he was surprisingly upbeat. I am kinda really worried about that.

Why, what's the worst that can happen?

The real problem with dying is all your miserable friends coming around and being miserable.

Why, what's the worst that can happen?

The real problem with dying is all your miserable friends coming around and being miserable.

Exactly.
He probably doesn't want everyone else to be more upset than they are and he has nothing to lose.

I am at that point right now.......what do you say to someone who is dying? I have no idea.

I brought pumpkin bread....now I feel like an idiot.

"sorry you are dying, here's some seasonal bread! it's got raisins!"

:headbang:

id rather sit with the dying person, not saying much but helping out in whatever small way that i could than wait somewhere else trapped with the people who want to talk about how its either his own fault for ...smoking too much...or how its all god's will.

i just cant stand "stupid talk".

a dying person might love to have someone drop by a yummy loaf of quick bread instead of have someone come by to end up talking about how horribly someone else met his end.

Guilt hit me. I don't know when. It just crept up on me and now I can't shake it off.

do you really have friends that you dont like but keep around for what you can get from them?

why feel guilty? surely its an easy enough problem to fix.

do you really have friends that you dont like but keep around for what you can get from them?

why feel guilty? surely its an easy enough problem to fix.

Aye, one Wrench in the Ballroom and its all over.

I'm also an unapologetic double-dipper.

Brooding and impulsive.

Exactly.
He probably doesn't want everyone else to be more upset than they are and he has nothing to lose.

I feel like such a freaking dork though, I brought the man pumpkin bread and some Gameboy advance games.....like he wants to spend his last 3 days pigging out and playing Final Fantasy.

This sucks. :(

I feel like such a freaking dork though, I brought the man pumpkin bread and some Gameboy advance games.....like he wants to spend his last 3 days pigging out and playing Final Fantasy.

This sucks. :)

I wouldn't know what to do either, but I guess something is better than nothing.
*pats you on the back*
...and yes, I turned that frown upside down.

I wouldn't know what to do either, but I guess something is better than nothing.
*pats you on the back*
...and yes, I turned that frown upside down.

he seemed excited to get the games.....I am going back tomorrow to see if he wants me to cook him anything (it's kinda morbid....."do you want any food before you die?")

I am not usually this......callous, but it's keeping me from crying.

he seemed excited to get the games.....I am going back tomorrow to see if he wants me to cook him anything (it's kinda morbid....."do you want any food before you die?")

I am not usually this......callous, but it's keeping me from crying.

Anything that makes him happy is good and it seems you are doing a fine job at that.
My condolences to you and all those who know him.
Even though those are just words and all, I do mean it.

I feel like such a freaking dork though, I brought the man pumpkin bread and some Gameboy advance games.....like he wants to spend his last 3 days pigging out and playing Final Fantasy.

This sucks. :(

ya but heres the thing. (at least this is the way i think about such situations)

you cant say anything to make it better. that is impossible. all you can do is offer what help and normalcy that you can. acknowleging that its a bad situation, that it sucks, that anyone might feel angry or sad about it.

you can allow him the space to feel whatever he is feeling and accept it as normal and correct. sad, angry, bitter, regretful, whatever he might feel at the time.

you can avoid saying the stupid platitudes that people cant seem to keep themselves from saying. (its god's will; god doesnt give us anything that we cant handle; its some kind of blessing; or whatever other very stupid thing that someone might say in a misguided attempt to make a dying man feel better)

and you can just be there without expecting anything from him. he doesnt have to comfort you in your distress over his situation, he doesnt have to be brave for you, whatever. its his time and you are just there as a kind of helpful witness.

and you can be fully there while you are there so he doesnt have to be alone in this terrible time.

what more can one person do for another?

ya but heres the thing. (at least this is the way i think about such situations)

you cant say anything to make it better. that is impossible. all you can do is offer what help and normalcy that you can. acknowleging that its a bad situation, that it sucks, that anyone might feel angry or sad about it.

you can allow him the space to feel whatever he is feeling and accept it as normal and correct. sad, angry, bitter, regretful, whatever he might feel at the time.

you can avoid saying the stupid platitudes that people cant seem to keep themselves from saying. (its god's will; god doesnt give us anything that we cant handle; its some kind of blessing; or whatever other very stupid thing that someone might say in a misguided attempt to make a dying man feel better)

and you can just be there without expecting anything from him. he doesnt have to comfort you in your distress over his situation, he doesnt have to be brave for you, whatever. its his time and you are just there as a kind of helpful witness.

and you can be fully there while you are there so he doesnt have to be alone in this terrible time.

what more can one person do for another?
this was helpful. thanks ;)

I will go hang out with him tomorrow, see if he needs anything......

do you really have friends that you dont like but keep around for what you can get from them?

why feel guilty? surely its an easy enough problem to fix.

Seems like an easy enough question to answer but it isn't. Since I came to university I've realised that my friends back home weren't all they were cracked upto be. Good to go to the pub with but not the kind of people I'd share problems with. Since I've come to uni I've met people who I can trust more and are closer to me as friends than the ones back home. I realised that I became friends with my home friends to simply further myself socially and to climb the social ladder.

My friends here at university are just that, friends. Nothing more, nothing less.

Seems like an easy enough question to answer but it isn't. Since I came to university I've realised that my friends back home weren't all they were cracked upto be. Good to go to the pub with but not the kind of people I'd share problems with. Since I've come to uni I've met people who I can trust more and are closer to me as friends than the ones back home. I realised that I became friends with my home friends to simply further myself socially and to climb the social ladder.

My friends here at university are just that, friends. Nothing more, nothing less.

thats the difference between highschool and university.

in highschool and in your neighborhood you have to take what you can get for friends. sometimes you are lucky and they match up with you well, sometimes not.

in college, you have more of a chance to meet the kind of people you describe. there are far more people who are enough like you to develop a better kind of friendship.

dont pass up the chance to suck up to the rich guys with great connections though. its nice to have a semi-friend who can get you an interview for your dream job.

So today I've just had a major thinking and discovery sesion trying to piece together the puzzle that is me, to work out who I am. Here are some conclusions I came to:

I would kill without a second thought if any member of my family was in danger.

If the nation became a dictatorship, I would join rebel forces to overthrow such rule.

I have also realised that I have become friends with some people just to use them for my own gain.


So what have you come to realise about yourself recently?

I agree with none of the above.

As for what kind of person I am... I'm a brownie-baking, picture-painting, book-reading, gardening little slut who's looking forward to her first day at the swinger's club :D
I think that pretty much sums me up, yes.

So what have you come to realise about yourself recently?That running a webcomic is going to be a lot more strenuous than I thought it would be.

What kind of person am I?

I'm the kind of person who if my nation became a dictatorship overnight, I'd join forces with the Secret Police. I'd sell out those who I hate and protect those I care about. Those who have made the shit list would be living in hell. I would join for my own self interest...because I'm a bitch. I would abuse my powers to exact revenge on people who wronged me. I would have no problem abusing my powers. Power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely.

Outside of that? I'm just your everyday pinko commie who enjoys smutty manga (preferably the yaoi variety), writing, playing games and smokin'. :)

Just remember...everybody is unique.

If everybody IS unique then everybody IS the same.

I'm considering myself not as unique.

a peson living in a very small provincial town... I guess I could accept a benevolent dictatorship, but not one without freedom of speech so I have a strong feeling this will never happen:) I guess I must be speciel, kind of freaky maybe as I like NationStates :D

According the transactional analysis (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transactional_Analysis)model from Bern:

I'm a high level rebel.
I'm a very innovative person.

My child component is rather in balance:
I'm still wondering around but I sometimes have the nature to be a little professor but not that hard.

My parent and thus rational component is rather average:
I'm moderate normative, I know what’s good & wrong and in general I behave myself according the rules (but not always).

The Agerias is the Agerias.

What more is there to say?

The Agerias is the Agerias.

What more is there to say?

The best way to put it :)

I'm different around different people.

Lacking in confidence, caused by a strong self-dislike and a general uncomfortableness in social situations.

So today I've just had a major thinking and discovery sesion trying to piece together the puzzle that is me, to work out who I am. Here are some conclusions I came to:

I would kill without a second thought if any member of my family was in danger.

If the nation became a dictatorship, I would join rebel forces to overthrow such rule.

I have also realised that I have become friends with some people just to use them for my own gain.


So what have you come to realise about yourself recently?

Why is so many people against #3? I mean that's just typical business networking. As long as it remains a win/win or win/neutral situation I don't see whats the problem with it. Just because you are benefiting doesn't mean the other person can't benefit as well, and being moralistically against that is really doing nothing more than shutting yourself in.

So, sure I will know people for personal gain. I mean when you consider personal gain objectively it includes emotional and intellectual gains, and who is to say they haven't make a friend because it's fun to be around the person? And even if we are only talking about something like a business relationship, I still don't see anything wrong unless you intend to get what you want even if you will hurt the other person in the process.

A quiet, unassuming bureaucrat with big dreams that aren't easily visible behind my exterior personality. A cross between Sam Lowry from Brazil and Peter Gibbons from Office Space.