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Well, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and purpose and all. Well, as many of you know, I am planning to do some mission work once I graduate from Uni. Well, its like I have become obsessed with this idea of serving God. I am only happy when I am learning more, or studying, or praying or what have ya. The thing is, I cannot find the same happiness for my school work, and ultimately finishing my degree. It seems as if all the passion I used to have for politics(my degree), and schooling has left me.

Here is my question, what would you folks do? I mean, if you were in my shoes, having to decide between something that makes you happy, or doing something that is slightly beneficial, but does not make you happy, which would you choose?

same thing happened to me at uni, minus the god stuff.

i couldn't make the choice, became clinically depressed, took a lot of drugs, dropped out of uni and had to move back in with my parents after a brief stint in hospital.

i don't recommend that. however i do recommend, if you can, finishing your degree as best you can (what year are you in?), and then making that decision.
life works in funny ways, and you can never tell at the time... with hindsight you might be able to say in 10 years time that dropping out and serving god was the best decision you ever made. then again, you might find that not getting your degree is something you regret for years to come. so if you can, make the effort to finish what you've started before moving on to your next calling :)

I needed a change so I joined the military. Not sure that I'd recommend that as your course of action though. It was just a change.

same thing happened to me at uni, minus the god stuff.

i couldn't make the choice, became clinically depressed, took a lot of drugs, dropped out of uni and had to move back in with my parents after a brief stint in hospital.

i don't recommend that. however i do recommend, if you can, finishing your degree as best you can (what year are you in?), and then making that decision.
life works in funny ways, and you can never tell at the time... with hindsight you might be able to say in 10 years time that dropping out and serving god was the best decision you ever made. then again, you might find that not getting your degree is something you regret for years to come. so if you can, make the effort to finish what you've started before moving on to your next calling :)

Well, I am a sophmore, and I am likely to graduate at least a semester early, but like I said I am not happy with this path anymore. But at the same time, I am feeling guilty and selfish, because my family has sacrificed a lot, and shed many tears to ensure i get here. If I left because I was unhappy, its like spitting on them. But I am afraid of being here too much longer, because of the unhappiness and often times, depression. You don't know how many times I have planned ways to off myself because I was so unhappy. :\

Like PM said; finish the degree, then do what you like. If you don't finish it now you'll never go back and do it, and it doesn't - all things considered - take that long.

Patience is a virtue, eh? ;)

Well, I am a sophmore, and I am likely to graduate at least a semester early, but like I said I am not happy with this path anymore. But at the same time, I am feeling guilty and selfish, because my family has sacrificed a lot, and shed many tears to ensure i get here. If I left because I was unhappy, its like spitting on them. But I am afraid of being here too much longer, because of the unhappiness and often times, depression. You don't know how many times I have planned ways to off myself because I was so unhappy. :\

sounds like you and i are coming from pretty damn similar places then. the thing that kept me there, like you, was the guilt of failing my parents.

if you're feeling suicidal then you should really get help. talk to your parents and let them know how you feel as best as you can. i'm sure they care and will help you get through this.

remember that if you do drop out you can (at least in this country) revisit and finish your degree later


good luck :)

Before you make an irrevocabl decision, consider the reasons you went into your degree in the first place. What were the events that led you to that choice? What aspects of it do you still enjoy?

Also, if you can, take a break. Find a week where you don't have to work hard, and take off for a few days. Many things look different after a much-needed rest.

I'd stay in school. You may regret not spending a mere two years getting your degree. College degrees are important, or so they tell me. You might consider changing your major, or your school, before anything else, if you want to get more satisfaction out of your education.

Besides, sometimes, good things can happen when you least expect them. Like the Spanish Interrobang. No one expects the Spanish Interrobang.

http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h278/NazcaVisitor/SpanishInterrobang.png

I'd stay in school. You may regret not spending a mere two years getting your degree. College degrees are important, or so they tell me. You might consider changing your major, or your school, before anything else, if you want to get more satisfaction out of your education.

Besides, sometimes, good things can happen when you least expect them. Like the Spanish Interrobang. No one expects the Spanish Interrobang.

http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h278/NazcaVisitor/SpanishInterrobang.png

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A spanish interrobang!
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:eek:
A spanish interrobang!
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You see? No one expected that. It was totally unexpected.


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... holy shit you have a lot of posts now ... wow, where have I been?

You see? No one expected that. It was totally unexpected.


:fluffle:

... holy shit you have a lot of posts now ... wow, where have I been?

In the corner masturbating?

I really think that service to one's nation and military service are highly over rated.

There is the shitty pay, leaving friends and family, Type A assholes called sergeants always yelling. Hell I don't know why anyone would want to join the military.

Then there is the Girl Friend. Chicks that can do that thing like she does with her mouth are hard to find, you should take that into consideration as well.

And damn you are getting old. I bet there are mornings that you wake up and you actually need to piss more than you need to beat your morning hard on. You are going down hill fast, let me tell you. I figure you have got only a couple more years until you wake up one morning and you don't even have a hard on! Eek

Never forget that Yoda said that Luke Skywalker was too old and look at how he turned out... kissing his sister and losing one hand.

I don't really know where this is going other than to say that you should consider a collection of leather bound books and a career in Journalism.

I really think that service to one's nation and military service are highly over rated.

There is the shitty pay, leaving friends and family, Type A assholes called sergeants always yelling. Hell I don't know why anyone would want to join the military.

Then there is the Girl Friend. Chicks that can do that thing like she does with her mouth are hard to find, you should take that into consideration as well.

And damn you are getting old. I bet there are mornings that you wake up and you actually need to piss more than you need to beat your morning hard on. You are going down hill fast, let me tell you. I figure you have got only a couple more years until you wake up one morning and you don't even have a hard on! Eek

Never forget that Yoda said that Luke Skywalker was too old and look at how he turned out... kissing his sister and losing one hand.

I don't really know where this is going other than to say that you should consider a collection of leather bound books and a career in Journalism.

I thought Zilly wanted to be a missionary, not serve in the military :confused:

I thought Zilly wanted to be a missionary, not serve in the military :confused:

Someone suggested he serve.

Someone suggested he serve.

Em no, someone said they served.

well I say you finish your degree before you go anywhere have some fun and more importantly take some time to learn some useful survival skills, religious missions have a tendency to be accident prone

I really think that service to one's nation and military service are highly over rated.

*nods* I for one can't understand how that can be a reason for joining the military in fact I've never met anyone who joined the military for that reason

There is the shitty pay, leaving friends and family, Type A assholes called sergeants always yelling. Hell I don't know why anyone would want to join the military.

I did it for adventure and to make something of myself :)

edit: dis thread as bin jkd yo!

well I say you finish your degree before you go anywhere have some fun and more importantly take some time to learn some useful survival skills, religious missions have a tendency to be accident prone



*nods* I for one can't understand how that can be a reason for joining the military in fact I've never met anyone who joined the military for that reason



I did it for adventure and to make something of myself :)

edit: dis thread as bin jkd yo!

I was trying to be sarcastic - I served as well...

why not start studying theology? you are a sophomore, you can fit it in as a minor. if it end up as more than that you can major in theology and minor in political science.

Well, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and purpose and all. Well, as many of you know, I am planning to do some mission work once I graduate from Uni. Well, its like I have become obsessed with this idea of serving God. I am only happy when I am learning more, or studying, or praying or what have ya. The thing is, I cannot find the same happiness for my school work, and ultimately finishing my degree. It seems as if all the passion I used to have for politics(my degree), and schooling has left me.


Thing is, you should get PAID to be a nark. *nods sagaciously* :)



You might consider putting yourself in a situation where your politics have more dire consequences than being able to walk away from a conversation about them. You know, like starting fights on subways, calling Mike "Savage" Weiner and inciting an argument, perhaps speak aloud about your beliefs in church ... for starters. Maybe even go on tour for a little while.

Well, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and purpose and all. Well, as many of you know, I am planning to do some mission work once I graduate from Uni. Well, its like I have become obsessed with this idea of serving God. I am only happy when I am learning more, or studying, or praying or what have ya. The thing is, I cannot find the same happiness for my school work, and ultimately finishing my degree. It seems as if all the passion I used to have for politics(my degree), and schooling has left me.

Here is my question, what would you folks do? I mean, if you were in my shoes, having to decide between something that makes you happy, or doing something that is slightly beneficial, but does not make you happy, which would you choose?

Finish your degree because it will help you better serve God. Everytime you think of quitting, just think how much better for serving God it will be to finish.

Well, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and purpose and all. Well, as many of you know, I am planning to do some mission work once I graduate from Uni. Well, its like I have become obsessed with this idea of serving God. I am only happy when I am learning more, or studying, or praying or what have ya. The thing is, I cannot find the same happiness for my school work, and ultimately finishing my degree. It seems as if all the passion I used to have for politics(my degree), and schooling has left me.

Here is my question, what would you folks do? I mean, if you were in my shoes, having to decide between something that makes you happy, or doing something that is slightly beneficial, but does not make you happy, which would you choose?

i'm in almost the same position as you. after nearly 4 years of uni i am utterly sick of it and just want an end to it and hang the grades. although my alternative isn't god bothering but socialising. at the moment i have very little in the way of a social life and when i am socialising i feel guilty that i am not studying so i end up being no fun at all, but when i study all i think about is going out to see my friends. but what i've thought is i just have to deal with it, i hate studying but if i don't storm my next exams i'm going to fail my degree. i don't know how long you have left of your degree, i only have a month, but i was feeling pretty much the same at the end of last year but less intensely. the key factor keeping me at uni and not dropping out to follow what i feel is right for me emotionally is money. uni costs a fuck-load of money for me (about x10 what most british people have to pay) and not my money either so i literally cannot afford to drop out of uni or else i'd owe my parents about 50 grand with no professional job to see my way to paying up. much better to get the qualification, not owe too much and still have a professional job at the end of it.

i've had a few drinkies so this may be a bit rambling but i hope it helps anyway.

Well, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and purpose and all. Well, as many of you know, I am planning to do some mission work once I graduate from Uni. Well, its like I have become obsessed with this idea of serving God. I am only happy when I am learning more, or studying, or praying or what have ya. The thing is, I cannot find the same happiness for my school work, and ultimately finishing my degree. It seems as if all the passion I used to have for politics(my degree), and schooling has left me.

Here is my question, what would you folks do? I mean, if you were in my shoes, having to decide between something that makes you happy, or doing something that is slightly beneficial, but does not make you happy, which would you choose?

Always, always go with the happiness. If you are not happy in what you do, then depresion has habit of following you until it can see the point to strike.

You don't know how many times I have planned ways to off myself because I was so unhappy. :\

Your problem is not one of choosing a future course, but rather of coping with depression. See a doctor.

Zilam,

I think if i was in your shoes, i would probably choose to see if i either could pull myself together, to finish the degree i was taking, or i would try and see if it could give me some credit points - in order to get a little bit ahead than rock bottom, and then read theology instead.

Your profession has to be where your heart is! But at the same time, my best advice to you, is to be careful!

I know many people who love one thing for many years, decide to work with it, and slowly lose their love for it, because it becomes a burden rather than a hobby or a passion. I would say pick something you really like as your profession, and something you love as your hobby!

Not to sound ignorant or anything, im not religious you see - But i am sure God is as good a hobby as any

Here is my question, what would you folks do? I mean, if you were in my shoes, having to decide between something that makes you happy, or doing something that is slightly beneficial, but does not make you happy, which would you choose?
Happiness wins.

I'd say you should (re)read 1984, but since you seem depressed I recommend that you DON'T read 1984.

(The logic would be it'd either get you more interested in politics or less interested in God, and possibly both. No matter what it'd get you out of your rut. But it's a depressing book, so it's not good as a cure for depression.)

See a doc about the depression and possibly take some time off. College will still be there when you are ready to return (barring nuclear war).

Well, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and purpose and all. Well, as many of you know, I am planning to do some mission work once I graduate from Uni. Well, its like I have become obsessed with this idea of serving God. I am only happy when I am learning more, or studying, or praying or what have ya. The thing is, I cannot find the same happiness for my school work, and ultimately finishing my degree. It seems as if all the passion I used to have for politics(my degree), and schooling has left me.

Here is my question, what would you folks do? I mean, if you were in my shoes, having to decide between something that makes you happy, or doing something that is slightly beneficial, but does not make you happy, which would you choose?

There's a difference between belief and addiction. If the only thing that makes you happy is getting a fix with religion you have an addiction just like any drug addiction.

I think you need to find why you have this need to get high.

There's a difference between belief and addiction. If the only thing that makes you happy is getting a fix with religion you have an addiction just like any drug addiction.

I think you need to find why you have this need to get high.


Very well said!

Well, I have been thinking a lot lately about my life and purpose and all. Well, as many of you know, I am planning to do some mission work once I graduate from Uni. Well, its like I have become obsessed with this idea of serving God. I am only happy when I am learning more, or studying, or praying or what have ya. The thing is, I cannot find the same happiness for my school work, and ultimately finishing my degree. It seems as if all the passion I used to have for politics(my degree), and schooling has left me.

Here is my question, what would you folks do? I mean, if you were in my shoes, having to decide between something that makes you happy, or doing something that is slightly beneficial, but does not make you happy, which would you choose?

That's some serious shit.

There's a difference between belief and addiction. If the only thing that makes you happy is getting a fix with religion you have an addiction just like any drug addiction.

I think you need to find why you have this need to get high.

I just had this odd thought along the lines of "Stop smoking that Jesus."

I felt I should share it with you all.

I just had this odd thought along the lines of "Stop smoking that Jesus."

I felt I should share it with you all.
I'm, uhm, curious as to whether a specific punctuation mark should go somewhere in that sentence, one that isn't currently provided .... ?

I think you are refering to this comma:

"stop smoking that, Jesus"

However i think he was refering to Jesus being smoked - in relation to getting high off of God.

What's yellow during the day and green at night?

A banana that moonlights as a pickle.

:p