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I should kill myself...

MrMopar
25-11-2006, 07:16
I'm seriously considering. I don't feel anything anymore, anything aside from the fact that I miss my dad. Nothing looks good to my eyes, nothing sounds good to my ears, nothing smells good, nothing feels good, nothing tastes good.

The only thing I am capable is missing my dad. My current family doesn't love me at all, and admit it. They barely feed me, and I'm seriously sick and tired of telling people what to do.

If I could drive, I'd consider going out alal Kowalski in Vanishing Point, but I can't, and blades and nooses sound painful and I'm a complete and utter pussy, as I and everyone I know would have you believe. I am a worthless pile of trash, and although one of them won;t admit it, everyone else does.

I just want to live my own life the way I want to, but I can't because then I wouldn't be normal. I have to be a rich white "Christian" like my family, and everyone who disagrees goes to hell. Because they're different. And that's what happens in this country when you're different- you go to hell. But not before they humiliate and even sometimes jail you for it. I wish someone, anyone, would just respect me for who I am and appreciate me for it. But no, I'm the BAD GUY.

Post your thoughts. Should I do everyone a favor and go jump off a bridge, or trash my house and make their lives a living hell?
Zatarack
25-11-2006, 07:18
Who are you?
Lacadaemon
25-11-2006, 07:19
Eh?

No. Don't be silly. Life is bitter, and it is sour, but the wise man learns to taste the sweetness in between.

Srsly.
MrMopar
25-11-2006, 07:20
Who are you?
No one. I am no one, and never will be anyone. That's what my uncle said (not word for word).
New Naliitr
25-11-2006, 07:21
*sighs*

Here we go again...
The Mindset
25-11-2006, 07:21
This is not a good place to seek opinions of suicide. If you're seriously contemplating it, I suggest you go speak to your local suicide hotline. You will not get what you are looking for here.
MrMopar
25-11-2006, 07:23
This is not a good place to seek opinions of suicide. If you're seriously contemplating it, I suggest you go speak to your local suicide hotline. You will not get what you are looking for here.
Don't you get it? That is my point. I don't have anyone who loves or even likes me. I have plenty of people who've threatened to kill me if I breathed on them- hell, one of them pulled a knife on me once.

The only person who loved me was my dad, and he's dead.
Rhaomi
25-11-2006, 07:24
The only person who loved me was my dad, and he's dead.
Then why betray that love with such a desperate act?

Suicide would only cause widespread pain and validate the opinions of those who think you are hopeless and worthless. If you really want to show 'em, go out and make something of yourself -- live a happy and successful life doing what you want to do, not what others think you should do. Perhaps doing so will demonstrate to them that people can be different from the norm and still be happy. And if not? Then forget them. Why let their ignorance and cynicism drag you down?

And please don't trot out the whole "wah, wah, my life sucks, everybody hates me" bit. Look at Africa. Look at Asia. You live in the highest echelons of freedom and comfort on this planet. Compare your life, however dull and drab, with the endless suffering of the world's poor. Think about the millions mired in sickness, poverty, war, or strife. Then try to act like you've got it bad.
Greater Trostia
25-11-2006, 07:25
Don't you get it? That is my point. I don't have anyone who loves or even likes me. I have plenty of people who've threatened to kill me if I breathed on them- hell, one of them pulled a knife on me once.

Yeah well, that's why life is 4 dimensional. In time you'll find someone else who loves or likes you. Your perception on this may be distorted too - you may well be overlooking examples of people who do.

Killing yourself would guarantee that nothing would ever improve - living would allow the chance that it does. Logically, suicide is not the answer.
Ralina
25-11-2006, 07:25
Just set a goal of a year or some such. After that date you can suicide if things dont get better, but not before it.


*spoilers*




If you are just going through teenage anxiety, you should be better by then.
Posi
25-11-2006, 07:25
Multiple choice polls are teh pwn! I skewed your results! Now you have no idea what the forum wants you do do!
MrMopar
25-11-2006, 07:26
Well, since I have a bon3r for democracy, and the overwhelming majority of voters say so, I am not going to kill myself.

I'll just probably starve myself. Nothing tastes good anyway... everything tastes bad.
Chunkylover_53
25-11-2006, 07:26
You'll get over the pain of losing your dad in time, and for what its worth, I have very few friends and lots of ppl who wanna kill me also, but I aint considering suicide
MrMopar
25-11-2006, 07:26
Just set a goal of a year or some such. After that date you can suicide if things dont get better, but not before it.


*spoilers*




If you are just going through teenage anxiety, you should be better by then.
I can't set goals. I have nothing to accomplish.
Demented Hamsters
25-11-2006, 07:27
Razors pain you
Rivers are damp
Acids stain you
Drugs cause cramp
Guns aren't lawful
Nooses give
Gas smells awful


You may as well live
- Dorothy Parker (1893-1967)
The Mindset
25-11-2006, 07:27
Don't you get it? That is my point. I don't have anyone who loves or even likes me. I have plenty of people who've threatened to kill me if I breathed on them- hell, one of them pulled a knife on me once.

The only person who loved me was my dad, and he's dead.

Then what are you wanting from this thread? You will not get sympathy. You won't get good advice. You need to speak to someone who can provide you with both, someone who does not know you and therefore cannot judge you. Life is hard, and a great deal of people on this forum can testify to that, including myself. There are ways to fix your life, but if you cannot see them, then that's your problem that you must confront.
Greater Trostia
25-11-2006, 07:28
I'll just probably starve myself. Nothing tastes good anyway... everything tastes bad.

Try some marijuana. Nothing enhances the taste of food better.
MrMopar
25-11-2006, 07:28
Razors pain you
Rivers are damp
Acids stain you
Drugs cause cramp
Guns aren't lawful
Nooses give
Gas smells awful


You may as well live
- Dorothy Parker (1893-1967)
That's the problem. I'm a wimp. I'd surrender to a paper bag with a switchblade taped to it, faster than the French would.
Posi
25-11-2006, 07:29
I can't set goals. I have nothing to accomplish.

Set something pointless and stupid. Like go running every night for three months.
The Mindset
25-11-2006, 07:29
Try some marijuana. Nothing enhances the taste of food better.

Except the blood of virgins.
MrMopar
25-11-2006, 07:29
Try some marijuana. Nothing enhances the taste of food better.
I have no money... literally. I have not 1 cent to my name, save for the clothes on my back and a broken xBox.
Kanabia
25-11-2006, 07:30
Don't you get it? That is my point. I don't have anyone who loves or even likes me. I have plenty of people who've threatened to kill me if I breathed on them- hell, one of them pulled a knife on me once.

The only person who loved me was my dad, and he's dead.

http://www.suicidehotlines.com/

Here. Look up your area and talk to someone. None of us really know how to understand what you feel. I can empathise somewhat since i've been suicidal in the past, but I can't really talk this through with you. I don't want you to kill yourself, nobody here does, so do us all a favour and make a phonecall, okay?
The Most Glorious Hack
25-11-2006, 07:31
If you're serious, seek professional help or call a Suicide Hotline (http://suicidehotlines.com/). If you aren't serious, this isn't funny.

Regardless, this isn't the place for this kind of thing.


-The Most Glorious Hack
NationStates Game Moderator