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Hello everyone, I am New Alchemy. I am 15 years old. I used to be called Mich Selbst Und Ich on this forum when I was a huge conservative, but I've changed greatly. I post on this forum to tell my story, and to ask for help (You will see why)

My story is about love, lust, a little betrayal, and lots of heartbreak. Before I go on, let me say that I have changed ALL names.

To start, let's go back in time. 8 Months to this day to be exact. There were two people together in a room. Meghan, a short girl with dirty blonde hair, dressed gothic, had lots of freckiles, and was very unpopular. Rick was a very unpopular man who dressed gothic as well. Musclear in stature and large in frame, he stood in his room with Meghan. On that day they "so called" fell in love when they both had sex for the first time. With each other. 2 Days later they started going out. Meghan stopped going out with the guy Joey who she was going out with when she had sex with Rick(yes, she technically cheated on him).

Now that I have the foreward done, let me go on to the actual story. about the greater half of 3 to 4 months later, Meghan and I are talking. WE become fairly close (or so I thought). We both talked about how we were depressed, and about how she cut herself whenver she felt bad. She told me that she felt Rick was the first person to ever love her. We become closer and closer, and she starts giving me more and more attention when we're around other people. This behavior continues for about 2 months. Around late May Rick tried to break up with Meghan for 2 days but eventually they got back together.

On about June 1 we took a class trip to Dorney Park. Meghan, I, and a few meutal friends came. Rick did not. We sat next to each other on the bus and hang out all day together(pritty much). She talked very little about how she loved Rick. We got back and it was a great day. Then 2 days later everything changed.

On June 3rd, Meghan was over at Rick's house. They were talking, and Rick said something extremly shocking to Meghan, which caused her to cry for 2 hours. Rick had cheated on her with another girl. When she got home she told me and we were all sympthizing for her and pissed at Rick. We flooded his myspace, talked about revenge plots, and sympthizied for Meghan.

The day after he cheated on her, we were talking and another mutal friend of outs, Danny, told Meghan that he liked her. She said that she promised another guy, Nick that she would go out with him. She later took that back and told me she was confused over 2 people whom she liked.. Me and Danny. That week was hell. Danny kept on "going afteR" Meghan in the creepiest ways, and basically sexually harrased her. At the same time Meghan was trying her best to keep Rick away from her.

Then on that follwoing Friday we were over at Danny's house with 2 mutual friends. Rick had come at the door and asked to talk with Meghan, and Danny (stupidly) let him in. We guided Meghan out of the house and tried to distract Rick. Rick ran out and chased after Meghan, and our friend Matt who is really tough talked him and basically beat him up. We walked about a mile away from the house and then got driven back to Danny's house, all the while I was comfurting Meghan and Danny was hitting on her.

2 Days later as soon as I came online Meghan said she loved me and wanted to go out with me. We were offically going out, and she was ignoring Ryan. 2 days after that she came after and we made out a few times, and 2 days later we had oral sex. We would have Oral sex 4 times in that week/week and a half. She said she wanted to keep Ryan out of her head, but I told her she had to talk to him so she could get all her emotion out for him.

I left for vacation the following week, and during that time she tried to call me about 5 times nad flooded my myspace with love messages and comments. The day I came back we met and we had oral sex again. 2 days after that she told me that if she could she would be going back out with Rick. Her emotions changed in the blink of an eye, and she told me she wanted Ryan. However she told me she would never break up with me for the world, and to not be worried. After this I became a lot more clingy and obsessed, probalby in an effort not to lose her.

Then guess what happened 2 weeks later? I will never forget this day as long as I live, love and until I die. July 15, 2006. I was meeting her after work around 5 to hang out with her. Today was going to be the day we had sex. She calledm e and told me she was hanging out at Rick's house, which was across the street from where she worked. I went to go pick her up. We walked to the spot where we normal did "stuff"(hehehe) which was in the woods. We went in there, made out, eventually got naked, I started fingering her and well, it ended up in us having unprotected sex(I pulled out though). We left the woods and as we were walking back, I heard the 8 words which I feared most.

I
Just
Want
To
Be
Single
For
Now

I started to cry and when I got back to my house I cried even more. She promised me we would get back to gether. I became even more clingy for the next week, always bringing this up every time we talked and always making sure she loved me. I, in some ways, appeared really needy and sort of insecure. I aksed her every day that week if she still loved me. Then the following weekend she sent pratically the whole weekend with Rick. On that Saturday during the weekend I appoligized for everything I did to bother her and promised her I would stop, as logn as we got back together eventually. She said she just liked being single and didn't want a relationship. The next day I was informed that Rick and Meghan had sex again.

Then she started liking another random guy, her friend Mike, became ubsessed with him but eventually started fuckign Rick again. Since most of her friends can't stand Rick and neither can her fater, they keep the fact they're having sex a secret but still are "in love".

I went through a period of grief and sadness that I still don't think I'm out of. whenever I see them together I get angry. Today I saw them on the bus going home, they were sitting next to each other, she was leaning on his sholder, and he was wispering something in her ear. She had a huge smile on her face. It gave me many emotions.. anger, anxiety, heartbreak, hopelessness.. emotions like :upyours: :sniper: :( :headbang: :mad: :upyours: :sniper: :sniper: :mp5:

Now I need help. Can someone tell me how to shake this feeling? I can't help it and it feels horrible..urg...

You're the rebound guy. Go figure you got dropped quick, but hey you got some sex out of it.

Also, the goth thing has been done you kids aren't doing anything counter culture or new, frankly it's been awful tired for atleast a decade.

You'll get over it.

I suggest revenge. But only in a way that will not have bad consequences for you. Wait until there is a good opportunity to ruin their lives.

Also, the goth thing has been done you kids aren't doing anything counter culture or new, frankly it's been awful tired for atleast a decade.

Who cares about "new"? Nothing is new.

Only time and God can take away the feeling. Pray and give it all to God.

Try to be friendly to Megan. I know it will be hard. You'll want to strangle her and sleep with her at the same time, but try to just be a friend. It's best for both of you right now.

You said you're 15? If I may give a bit of advice. Teens are excessively fickle. I was, though I'm grown out of it for the most part. I think you should be very careful about sharing physical intamcy with anyone in the future. In fact, I would recommend you wait until marriage. But whether you wait til then or not, be careful. The word love is such a common, loosely used word now. I find it very difficult to believe that someone can love you for a week and then fall out of love.

There are these things called crushes. Don't try to act too grown up. If you have a crush, it doesn't mean that you're in love. It just means you really like the other person, in a romantic way. But it doesn't have the maturity and commitment that love have. That's my last piece of advice. Try very hard to be discerning when thinking about love. Is it truly love, or is it only a crush?

" He scores off the rebound!"

You're 15 right. Are you sure this was love? Maybe it was lust? You're felling jealousy. It happens you get dumped and then see your ex going out with someone else. 2 words for you: Move On!
Seriously you have your whole life ahead of you. Enjoy life, thats what its for!
Some more words for ou:
Theres plenty more fish in the sea.

Just think about it.

You'll get over it.
Yep.
I suggest revenge. But only in a way that will not have bad consequences for you. Wait until there is a good opportunity to ruin their lives.

Or just commit suicide. It's even easier.:rolleyes:




OP: Well, that's what you get for having bad judgement....

My friend, I have good news for you and bad news.

The bad news first, since we'd like to end on a positive note.

The bad news is that Megha is not in the least bit ready for a real relationship, although she does seem to be a prime candidate for either teen pregnancy, STD or both. Not to bust on the lady who stole your heart, but she does seem to be fairly easy to entice to sexual activity. She probably does it either because she thinks it's necessary to keep a man, or because she's got low self-esteem and is easily controlled. It seems likely that the latter is true. She probably really doesn't want a relationship right now, you heard the truth... But when these other guys, including Rick pressure her, she caves in and doesn't stand up for herself.

What's that mean to you? It means that since you're the nice guy, you heard the truth, which is that she wants to be single right now. Her actions may not bear that out, but as I said, that's what a low self-esteem will do to you.

For now, yeah it's gonna hurt like hell everytime you see her with another guy. I don't know if she was your first or not, but if she was you're gonna have a much harder time letting go. I assure you, in time you will feel better. For now, you can deal with it by spending more guy time with your buddies, focusing on whatever hobbies you enjoy, and generally doing yuor best to distract yourself.

The very worst thing that can happen right now is for Meghan to call you up and say she loves you and wants to try again. If that happens, you MUST RESIST! You must NOT allow yourself to be caught up in her issues again or you will, at best, find yourself in a relationship with a girl in which you can NEVER feel fully secure. Just think. Imagine that a month from now you and she are together, screwing your brains out on weekends and generally having a great old time. Then you find out she's "hanging out" with some male friend. Do you really think you'd be comfortable with that? Do you really think that you could be secure in believeing that she's stayingfaithful to you? Maybe she would.. but with what' salready happened, you'd probably never feel sure about it again.

And I've been there, bro. It SUCKS. It's a kind of stress that feels like your intestines are being twirled around a fork. THAT is what you have in store for you if you ever hook up with her again.

The good news: You're better off being at the end of that relationship rather than the beginning. It was kind of immature of you to get clingy and all, but respectable that you recognized it and made an effort to get that under control. That will serve you well in the future, when you find a girl who knows what she wants and is string enough inside to be true to her word.


Good luck to you.

I'd love to sympathise with you. I genuinely would, having been through the same, but guess what, I don't. You ought to have been well aware of the likely motivations for her actions at the time, and if you genuinely "love" her, why does her response elicit such irrationality? Surely if her decision aids her recovery, you should be happy for her?

I'd love to sympathise with you. I genuinely would, having been through the same, but guess what, I don't. You ought to have been well aware of the likely motivations for her actions at the time, and if you genuinely "love" her, why does her response elicit such irrationality? Surely if her decision aids her recovery, you should be happy for her?

Is being a dirty whore ever a real recovery?:confused:

Hey, a couple of hours out on the firing range will fix ya right up! :P Works fer me! loL!

(or if that dont work, a lotta time playing FPSs)

Is being a dirty whore ever a real recovery?:confused:

Apparently. "Society" maintains so, even if I find it, erm, odd.

How is she a whore in any case? Sounds like a confused teen seeking compakionship and the sense of being wanted.

Also you may wanna see about getting a blood test for STDs. Heaven only knows where the young lady had been before, and if you preformed oral sex on her, well you could end up with nastiness.

Look, I hate to say it, but quit the whole teenage melodrama scene. It's not fun (you've figured that out on your own, I dare say) and it's just not worth it. Sit back and wait to grow up. It's not love. It's hormones, and lust. At very least hold off until you've figured out how to not fall for the first girl with anything in common with you, who has habits of damaging herself, sleeping around, and generally being fickle and slutty. Come on... you can do better than this...

Edit: Oh, and in the meantime, figure out who YOU are, and where YOU stand, and such... no way can you have a decent relationship without a basis.

Now I need help. Can someone tell me how to shake this feeling? I can't help it and it feels horrible..urg...Time and the next girl to break your heart are the best cures for lovesickness. Don't worry though, you're young and should be able to rebound quickly. The sooner you have experiences like these in life, the easier it will be to handle them later on. You're only fifteen, and your life has only just begun (just watch out for twenty. It's a bitch...)

What did you expect from a girl who jumps between guys like a wasp on a six pack?

*snip*
On that day they "so called" fell in love when they both had sex for the first time. With each other. 2 Days later they started going out. Meghan stopped going out with the guy Joey who she was going out with when she had sex with Rick(yes, she technically cheated on him).
*snip*


Thanks for clearing that up -- I was thinking class was still in session and it turned into a scene from Caligula or something.

Okay, seriously now. Nobody, or at least as close to nobody as makes no odds, has their shit together in their teens, pal. You're not the first one to be dangled like raw meat on a string in front of the twin beasts of love and lust.

She wants to be single because she's apparently trying to figure out which kind of guy she likes (hint -- "clingy", which you freely admit to being, isn't usually a top choice). This does NOT make her evil, malicious or even worth any anger. It makes her young. Complete consideration for the feelings of others is not the young's strong suit (generally) -- and no, I don't think that's bad in and of itself...it's only bad when nothing is done to atone for or even acknowledge the pain that lack of consideration can cause.

History, culture, popular notions (i.e. TV) have conspired to make many young men and women believe that in order to get what they believe they want (sex and the ability to discover what it's like with different people), they have to play the courtship game and "belong" to someone. This is mostly because of the heinous double standard that suggests that men who do this are "players" and to be praised for their prowess, while women who feel the same way and do the same things are "sluts" who can't keep their legs closed.

As a direct result, the word "love" gets bandied about and used as a pretext for sexual activity rather than an accurate description of what they're truly feeling. They are more likely intensely attracted to the other person either as a result of their newness (sometimes referred to as being "in limine" or "at the threshold") or perhaps even as a habit with regard to someone not so new (in that case, it's likely that the not-so-new person just has "something" she likes but cannot put into words).

So what you likely need to do, were you to ask me (and you did...along with all of NSG), is to realize that "love" as it's declared in adolescence, is a dramatic, often MELOdramatic, fluid thing. It is not the kind of love that binds people for life, it's a kind of temporal love that attracts people to each other for reasons of exploration, sexual curiosity/fulfillment, and the good ol' warm fuzzy feeling.

NOTE TO THE YOUNG'UNS: In no way am I suggesting that the kind of love I ascribe to you is bad, inferior, undesirable or stupid. Far from it. It's necessary to discovering what your own personal definition of love is. Love evolves over time: both your concept of it, and its presence in your life.

Best wishes, and roll with the punches.

see, having sex this early will really f*ck with your emotions, cause you think you love each other. Thats what happens at that age. I just steer clear of such situations. Its gonna hurt for a while, but in the end, you'll get over it and I hope you'll be a lot wiser in who you pick and for what reasons.

I would agree with an earlier poster in that, even if say a month or year from now, she asks to go out again, do not enter into another relationship with her. You'd just be setting yourself up for jealousy, uncertainty and probably disappointment.

Ah, the growing up of a young sensitive boy into a cynical, thick-skinned man. It's always nice to witness this miracle of nature.

Yeah, definately DONT even think about going out with her again. Just treat her like a damaged nuclear reactor. Stay the hell away from her, and just ignore her. If shes smart, she'll realize she screwed up and come crawling back, (but if that comes, leave her) or if shes the slut she wont care and keep on doing what she does. My money's on the second one.

see, having sex this early will really f*ck with your emotions, cause you think you love each other. Thats what happens at that age. I just steer clear of such situations. Its gonna hurt for a while, but in the end, you'll get over it and I hope you'll be a lot wiser in who you pick and for what reasons.Of course, have sex later on in life will only increase the emotional dangers of such a situation...

Hey, a couple of hours out on the firing range will fix ya right up! :P Works fer me! loL!

(or if that dont work, a lotta time playing FPSs)
;)
Apparently. "Society" maintains so, even if I find it, erm, odd.

How is she a whore in any case? Sounds like a confused teen seeking compakionship and the sense of being wanted.
Yes, well....society isn't always to be trusted so readily. It has its own agenda.

Yes, but seeking that through sex? That is slutty, my friend.
Time and the next girl to break your heart are the best cures for lovesickness. Don't worry though, you're young and should be able to rebound quickly. The sooner you have experiences like these in life, the easier it will be to handle them later on. You're only fifteen, and your life has only just begun (just watch out for twenty. It's a bitch...)

You're depressing to people who aren't already depressed, you know that?:(

I suggest becomeing a pirate and raiding the high seas.

Of course, have sex later on in life will only increase the emotional dangers of such a situation...

How so? [/mildly concerned]

Ah, the growing up of a young sensitive boy into a cynical, thick-skinned man. It's always nice to witness this miracle of nature.

It's a survival mechanism. Without it we'd be driven to fits of emo rage and all suicide by age 20.

Men are so much easier.

I suggest becomeing a pirate and raiding the high seas.

Best advice yet.:p

;)

Yes, well....society isn't always to be trusted so readily. It has its own agenda.

Yes, but seeking that through sex? That is slutty, my friend.


Not slutty, but a time honoured teen tradition. Granted, she could conduct herself more responsibly, but guess what, the OP could have kept his trousers on. I daresay she never intended to have sex, she merely let one form of consolation lead to another.

Unprotected sex? I hope you go to Planned Parenthood and get yourself checked for STDs. I figure a case of AIDS might help put your emotional crisis into perspective.

You're depressing to people who aren't already depressed, you know that?:(Well, you're older than 20, aren't you? Things get better after the second decade nightmare for most people ;)

How so? [/mildly concerned]The younger you are the easier it is to rebound from emotional and relationship stress. "The first cut is the deepest" they say, and when you're younger, it heals quicker, according to my therapist.

Not slutty, but a time honoured teen tradition. Granted, she could conduct herself more responsibly, but guess what, the OP could have kept his trousers on. I daresay she never intended to have sex, she merely let one form of consolation lead to another.

Umm...can't it be both?:confused: I don't see something being slutty as excluding it from being a said tradition....In fact, I daresay such a tradition is encouraged....And yes, he could have. That was irresponsible, but that has nothing to do with her sexual rampage. And even so, letting herself succumb to that petty form of consolation was indeed slutty. Justification of it doesn't change the fact that she was taking sex from whatever source she could get it.

Well, you're older than 20, aren't you? Things get better after the second decade nightmare for most people ;)
Yeah, I'm 18. Better, you say? Hmm...
[/quote]The younger you are the easier it is to rebound from emotional and relationship stress. "The first cut is the deepest" they say, and when you're younger, it heals quicker, according to my therapist.[/QUOTE]

I've never healed quickly from wounds like that. I tend to brood on them a long time. But then these things are by no means universal.

This is exactly why I believe that having sex at a younger age isnt so great because then girls (or guys) think they can get whatever they want by just jumping with you into bed, then when they dont need ya anymore, they dump you like a sack of crap! Then when you think that they reall y "loved you" it wasnt so. Then you feel like crap. Just tread carefully!

Emo much?

You're 15. Get over it.

Hello everyone, I am New Alchemy. I am 15 years old. I used to be called Mich Selbst Und Ich on this forum when I was a huge conservative, but I've changed greatly. I post on this forum to tell my story, and to ask for help (You will see why)

My story is about love, lust, a little betrayal, and lots of heartbreak. Before I go on, let me say that I have changed ALL names.

To start, let's go back in time. 8 Months to this day to be exact. There were two people together in a room. Meghan, a short girl with dirty blonde hair, dressed gothic, had lots of freckiles, and was very unpopular. Rick was a very unpopular man who dressed gothic as well. Musclear in stature and large in frame, he stood in his room with Meghan. On that day they "so called" fell in love when they both had sex for the first time. With each other. 2 Days later they started going out. Meghan stopped going out with the guy Joey who she was going out with when she had sex with Rick(yes, she technically cheated on him).

Now that I have the foreward done, let me go on to the actual story. about the greater half of 3 to 4 months later, Meghan and I are talking. WE become fairly close (or so I thought). We both talked about how we were depressed, and about how she cut herself whenver she felt bad. She told me that she felt Rick was the first person to ever love her. We become closer and closer, and she starts giving me more and more attention when we're around other people. This behavior continues for about 2 months. Around late May Rick tried to break up with Meghan for 2 days but eventually they got back together.

On about June 1 we took a class trip to Dorney Park. Meghan, I, and a few meutal friends came. Rick did not. We sat next to each other on the bus and hang out all day together(pritty much). She talked very little about how she loved Rick. We got back and it was a great day. Then 2 days later everything changed.

On June 3rd, Meghan was over at Rick's house. They were talking, and Rick said something extremly shocking to Meghan, which caused her to cry for 2 hours. Rick had cheated on her with another girl. When she got home she told me and we were all sympthizing for her and pissed at Rick. We flooded his myspace, talked about revenge plots, and sympthizied for Meghan.

The day after he cheated on her, we were talking and another mutal friend of outs, Danny, told Meghan that he liked her. She said that she promised another guy, Nick that she would go out with him. She later took that back and told me she was confused over 2 people whom she liked.. Me and Danny. That week was hell. Danny kept on "going afteR" Meghan in the creepiest ways, and basically sexually harrased her. At the same time Meghan was trying her best to keep Rick away from her.

Then on that follwoing Friday we were over at Danny's house with 2 mutual friends. Rick had come at the door and asked to talk with Meghan, and Danny (stupidly) let him in. We guided Meghan out of the house and tried to distract Rick. Rick ran out and chased after Meghan, and our friend Matt who is really tough talked him and basically beat him up. We walked about a mile away from the house and then got driven back to Danny's house, all the while I was comfurting Meghan and Danny was hitting on her.

2 Days later as soon as I came online Meghan said she loved me and wanted to go out with me. We were offically going out, and she was ignoring Ryan. 2 days after that she came after and we made out a few times, and 2 days later we had oral sex. We would have Oral sex 4 times in that week/week and a half. She said she wanted to keep Ryan out of her head, but I told her she had to talk to him so she could get all her emotion out for him.

I left for vacation the following week, and during that time she tried to call me about 5 times nad flooded my myspace with love messages and comments. The day I came back we met and we had oral sex again. 2 days after that she told me that if she could she would be going back out with Rick. Her emotions changed in the blink of an eye, and she told me she wanted Ryan. However she told me she would never break up with me for the world, and to not be worried. After this I became a lot more clingy and obsessed, probalby in an effort not to lose her.

Then guess what happened 2 weeks later? I will never forget this day as long as I live, love and until I die. July 15, 2006. I was meeting her after work around 5 to hang out with her. Today was going to be the day we had sex. She calledm e and told me she was hanging out at Rick's house, which was across the street from where she worked. I went to go pick her up. We walked to the spot where we normal did "stuff"(hehehe) which was in the woods. We went in there, made out, eventually got naked, I started fingering her and well, it ended up in us having unprotected sex(I pulled out though). We left the woods and as we were walking back, I heard the 8 words which I feared most.

I
Just
Want
To
Be
Single
For
Now

I started to cry and when I got back to my house I cried even more. She promised me we would get back to gether. I became even more clingy for the next week, always bringing this up every time we talked and always making sure she loved me. I, in some ways, appeared really needy and sort of insecure. I aksed her every day that week if she still loved me. Then the following weekend she sent pratically the whole weekend with Rick. On that Saturday during the weekend I appoligized for everything I did to bother her and promised her I would stop, as logn as we got back together eventually. She said she just liked being single and didn't want a relationship. The next day I was informed that Rick and Meghan had sex again.

Then she started liking another random guy, her friend Mike, became ubsessed with him but eventually started fuckign Rick again. Since most of her friends can't stand Rick and neither can her fater, they keep the fact they're having sex a secret but still are "in love".

I went through a period of grief and sadness that I still don't think I'm out of. whenever I see them together I get angry. Today I saw them on the bus going home, they were sitting next to each other, she was leaning on his sholder, and he was wispering something in her ear. She had a huge smile on her face. It gave me many emotions.. anger, anxiety, heartbreak, hopelessness.. emotions like :upyours: etc.

Now I need help. Can someone tell me how to shake this feeling? I can't help it and it feels horrible..urg...


dude your 15 you are so way ahead in the game it ain't funny...at any rate you have about 1,000's or more( if you like) ummm... encounters at the very least to look forward to....hey spread the love around dude lots of lonely babes looking for a good guy ...:D And gurss what ! Sooner or later you may even find one that can make up her MIND !

Some people search a LIFETIME for a women that can make up her mind...:D

just think of all the fun while you look .

dude your 15 you are so way ahead in the game it ain't funny...at any rate you have about 1,000's or more( if you like) ummm... encounters at the very least to look forward to....hey spread the love around dude lots of lonely babes looking for a good guy ...:D And gurss what ! Sooner or later you may even find one that can make up her MIND !

Some people search a LIFETIME for a women that can make up her mind...:D

just think of all the fun while you look .

That doesn't sound fun to me. It sounds like a lonely, pathetic way to waste one's life.

I can think of worst ways to waste it.

And I can't say that asking the internet community about personal problems is the best course of actions. You get responses ranging from "kill em now!" to "go be friends, smile on your brother, always brush your teeth and go to church" (Sorry about the reckless exageration). So you still pretty much have to decide what to do on your own still.

It does provide emotional support though, I suppose.

I can think of worst ways to waste it.

And I can't say that asking the internet community about personal problems is the best course of actions. You get responses ranging from "kill em now!" to "go be friends, smile on your brother, always brush your teeth and go to church" (Sorry about the reckless exageration). So you still pretty much have to decide what to do on your own still.

It does provide emotional support though, I suppose.

It's a good place to vent.*nods*
And the variety of responses are irritating enough to ruin one's trust in the internet to prevent future foolishness.:p

Now I need help. Can someone tell me how to shake this feeling? I can't help it and it feels horrible..urg...

Time will heal the emotional hurt. More to the point, get yourself to a doctor ASAP and get tested for STDs and AIDs. She seems to like having multiple partners, and that is VERY DANGEROUS FOR YOU.

Protect yourself

http://www.sxc.hu/pic/m/d/dk/dkg/332690_stop_aids_-_use_condoms_3.jpg

- It's YOUR responsibility.

We flooded his myspace,
And already, I hate everyone involved in this story. That didn't take long. This is also the reason why I didn't have sex when I was 15, but then again...I don't think we had myspace that far back.

Danny kept on "going afteR" Meghan in the creepiest ways, and basically sexually harrased her.
When goths are involved, creepy and sexual harrasment have no bounds.

while I was comfurting Meghan and Danny was hitting on her.So your a pussy and your boy Danny is horny, I think I'm getting this.

2 Days later as soon as I came online Meghan said she loved me and wanted to go out with me.
I don't give a fuck what anyone says, at 15, you do not have any concept of romantic love.

I left for vacation the following week, and during that time she tried to call me about 5 times nad flooded my myspace with love messages and comments.
Did you call her back, ask her what was up, and talk to her, or did you just ignore these messages and only went out with her for her sweet nectar and tallented tongue?

2 days after that she told me that if she could she would be going back out with Rick. Her emotions changed in the blink of an eye, and she told me she wanted Ryan.
Welcome to the world of women.

However she told me she would never break up with me for the world, and to not be worried. After this I became a lot more clingy and obsessed, probalby in an effort not to lose her.
So she told you she wanted this other guy's junk...but then she wont break up with you, and you believed her?

Today was going to be the day we had sex. She called me and told me she was hanging out at Rick's house, which was across the street from where she worked. I went to go pick her up.
What really happened was she let Ricky bone her, and then went and got boned by you. You got sloppy seconds...

We walked to the spot where we normal did "stuff"(hehehe) which was in the woods. We went in there, made out, eventually got naked, I started fingering her and well, it ended up in us having unprotected sex(I pulled out though). We left the woods and as we were walking back, I heard the 8 words which I feared most
I want to be serious, lets get married? I have a bad secret, I have herpes?

I
Just
Want
To
Be
Single
For
Now

Oh.

I started to cry and when I got back to my house I cried even more. She promised me we would get back to gether. I became even more clingy for the next week, always bringing this up every time we talked and always making sure she loved me.
And you believed her again?

She said she just liked being single and didn't want a relationship. The next day I was informed that Rick and Meghan had sex again.
Shes a hoe. Problem solved. She loves dick, so give it to her.

Can someone tell me how to shake this feeling? I can't help it and it feels horrible..urg...
Go get laid some more, get the fuck over it and stop being a whiny bitch, have sex with her mom or sister, tell her father that she and whats his face are fucking, or just do the standard emo thing and cut yourself and start a shitty band.

Protect yourself

http://www.sxc.hu/pic/m/d/dk/dkg/332690_stop_aids_-_use_condoms_3.jpg

- It's YOUR responsibility.

Friend of yours?:p