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A very good friend of mine hung himself on Thursday. He was married with a little boy and a 6 month old baby girl. I feel so bad about it and can't believe that he did it.

He had been told that he had a brain tumour on Wednesday and maybe he couldn't cope with the idea of what that meant to him.

He was the kindest, loudest, tallest, bestest of men. He exploded into a room and was the most alive person I ever knew.

I just wanted to tell someone.

:(

I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

A very good friend of mine hung himself on Thursday. He was married with a little boy and a 6 month old baby girl. I feel so bad about it and can't believe that he did it.

He had been told that he had a brain tumour on Wednesday and maybe he couldn't cope with the idea of what that meant to him.

He was the kindest, loudest, tallest, bestest of men. He exploded into a room and was the most alive person I ever knew.

I just wanted to tell someone.

:(

I'm sorry about that, man. My condolences.

Thank you

I dont know why, but I wanted to let people know. Is that weird?

Thank you

I dont know why, but I wanted to let people know. Is that weird?
Not weird in the slightest. And I wish there was something that I could say to help. :(

Thank you

I dont know why, but I wanted to let people know. Is that weird?

Sorry to hear this. :(

And no, not weird at all.

I'm sorry for your loss. Mourn your loss, celebrate his life

I'm sorry, for you and for his family.

Thank you

I dont know why, but I wanted to let people know. Is that weird?
No. Sometimes talking about your greif is a good way to start working throgh it. I'm sorry for your loss and I hope the man's family will be OK.

Thank you all for being so nice. I met him as he was a friend of my ex husband, he went through some tough times and for a while virtually lived with us. He was wonderful with my kids, wonderful to me when my marriage broke up. I thought that he was the happiest man I knew, I saw him a couple of weeks ago before I went on my holiday and all he could do was tell me about how wonderful his life was, how brilliant it was to be a dad and how beautiful his new baby girl was..When I heard that he had been found hanging in his work by two of his friends on Thursday I could not accept it, and I don't think that I will ever really understand or come to terms with his loss. I feel so terrible for his lovely wife and his boy..I cant imagine what they must feel like...my own kids are devastated. I just heard that the funeral is on this Thursday...I cant believe that he is gone

A very good friend of mine hung himself on Thursday. He was married with a little boy and a 6 month old baby girl. I feel so bad about it and can't believe that he did it.

He had been told that he had a brain tumour on Wednesday and maybe he couldn't cope with the idea of what that meant to him.

He was the kindest, loudest, tallest, bestest of men. He exploded into a room and was the most alive person I ever knew.

I just wanted to tell someone.

:(Sorry to hear about that... My condolences.

Sorry to hear about your loss. My condolences to both yours and his families. :( May he Rest In Peace.

Oh, Carisbrooke... I'm so sorry to hear that. :fluffle:

Sorry to hear about your loss, remember your friend well.

Oh, Carisbrooke... I'm so sorry to hear that. :fluffle:


:fluffle: :( Thank you my lovely..I am off to bed now as I have not been sleeping much.

:( Thank you again all for being so nice

A hand to wave along the road
A laugh to lighten any load
A place to bring a burden heart
And heal the ache of sorrow's dart

Who'd willing share in joy or tears
And help to ease the darkest fears
Or my soul like his own defend
And all because he was my friend

No grave could hold so free a soul
I see him in the frisking foal
I hear him laughing on the breeze
That stirs the very tops of trees

He soars with falcons on the wing
He is the song that night birds sing
Death never dared him captive keep
He lies not there, he does not sleep

But there is silence at my side
That haunts the place he used to ride
And my companions can't alay
The loss that I sustained this day

How bleak the future now has grown
Since I must face it all alone
My road is weary, dark and steep
And it is for myself I weep

:(

My condolences. :( :fluffle:

That's bad, and I'm sorry. Do what you can for the family he's left behind; it'll help both them and you.

Thank you

I dont know why, but I wanted to let people know. Is that weird?
No.

When I lost my friend a few months ago I'm sure I posted several emotional ranting threads, this seems like you're still getting it.

I had a an entire day of knowing I lost my friend, she was also my teacher and homeroom teacher, so I had to spend the first half hour of school knowing I lost a friend, and being surrounded by her.

The halls were quiet, the classes were too. I wanted to get my mind off it and I was stuck with so many reminders the whole day..

Followed by a very bad experience with the bus driver..

I took all 100% of the days dose of shit in about 3 seconds. It hurt so bad :(

Followed by another bad experience with the bus driver; ended in me cursing at her way too much, flipping her off as I went up the street, and throwing my cell phone at a wall and breaking it..

I was sick with stress for three weeks after that.


A few days ago I was looking through the NS archives, saw Zooke's thread, it brought every single memory back..



Sorry for this stupid rant..

You will think of him every day because it seems he had an impact on your life, it will become barable, you will realise that even though he's gone.. you still have every single thing you experienced with him.

So he really is still around. The friendship is too.

He still exists.

:fluffle:

Thanks IL Ruffino, I just went to his workplace, and took a bunch of donuts, brownies and cookies with me, we all sat about drinking coffee and talking about him, I had a big hug with the two guys who found his body and we all got some stuff off of our chests. I am feeling much better now about attending the funeral, even though it will be hard and made harder by the fact that my ex husband and his girlfriend will be there too...but Jason was a good friend to me and my children, a big loud and good hearted man who will leave a big hole in the world.

If I have one message for people from this, it is always talk to your friends and family and never keep things to yourself, you may never know how much you mean to people. :(

A very good friend of mine hung himself on Thursday. He was married with a little boy and a 6 month old baby girl. I feel so bad about it and can't believe that he did it.

He had been told that he had a brain tumour on Wednesday and maybe he couldn't cope with the idea of what that meant to him.

He was the kindest, loudest, tallest, bestest of men. He exploded into a room and was the most alive person I ever knew.

I just wanted to tell someone.

:(
Oh my God, I'm just seeing this now. This is beyond terrible. I am so, so sorry.

Ouch, i'm really sorry to hear that... :(

I'm really sorry to hear that man, may he be remembered by those who loved him. :( :( :(

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I wish there were something I could say to ease the pain, but I know that there isn't. Keep an eye on his children, though. Dealing with the loss of a parent is an incredibly difficult, traumatic experience that they will have to cope with for years to come. I don't know what else to say, except that I'm sorry, and I hope your family and his are able to make it through this time alright.