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After approximately a week and a half of not being on, which is considerably actually a rather long time, I'm back. As you can see, I haven't gone through with my little "plan". I had the razor in my hand, but then I just broke into tears. I cried myself to sleep last night, and have done so every night since that night for assorted reasons. Hell, I'm so fragile right now I broke into tears the night before last because I left my book at school. I realized that I need NSG to stay stable last night. So I'm back in order to preserve my sanity, and to hope to drop my suicidal tendencies. So... What's been happening?

After approximately a week and a half of not being on, which is considerably actually a rather long time, I'm back. As you can see, I haven't gone through with my little "plan". I had the razor in my hand, but then I just broke into tears. I cried myself to sleep last night, and have done so every night since that night for assorted reasons. Hell, I'm so fragile right now I broke into tears the night before last because I left my book at school. I realized that I need NSG to stay stable last night. So I'm back in order to preserve my sanity, and to hope to drop my suicidal tendencies. So... What's been happening?
may I be the first to say THANK GOD YOU DIDN'T GO THOUGH WITH IT. :fluffle:

welcome back. :D

btw, Same old Sh!t, so nothing really changed.

After approximately a week and a half of not being on, which is considerably actually a rather long time, I'm back. As you can see, I haven't gone through with my little "plan". I had the razor in my hand, but then I just broke into tears. I cried myself to sleep last night, and have done so every night since that night for assorted reasons. Hell, I'm so fragile right now I broke into tears the night before last because I left my book at school. I realized that I need NSG to stay stable last night. So I'm back in order to preserve my sanity, and to hope to drop my suicidal tendencies. So... What's been happening?
First, a welcome back.

Second, advice to see a psychiatrist/psychologist. They helped me.

Third: essentially same old same old. Everyone fighting over one issue or another. Reds and pinkos being all commie; Dems being all Demmy; Repubs being all Repuby; Anarchists being anarchistic; me being Libertarian except more reasonable. Ya know, the usual.

Now, go see that psychologist. Please. They can and do help. Helped me a LOT.

And has anyone posted anything about the UN conference to ban gun trade in all countries yet? If not it's so mine.

First, a welcome back.

Second, advice to see a psychiatrist/psychologist. They helped me.

Third: essentially same old same old. Everyone fighting over one issue or another. Reds and pinkos being all commie; Dems being all Demmy; Repubs being all Repuby; Anarchists being anarchistic; me being Libertarian except more reasonable. Ya know, the usual.

Now, go see that psychologist. Please. They can and do help. Helped me a LOT.
Second: I am probably the best uncertified 13-year-old psychologist in America. Then again, I'm probably the only one.

Second: I am probably the best uncertified 13-year-old psychologist in America. Then again, I'm probably the only one.
:D

No you're not. You're idealistic, like any other thirteen year old. Just listen to me dude. I know from experience. I've been where you've been. Hell, earlier this year I tried to kill myself too. After I got the help I've needed for way too long, I'm better. I really am, and it is amazing. I highly urge you to seek out a real, trained psychologist. For your own sake.

I don't known you, Naltiir, but I'm glad you didn't kill yourself. Really. Anyway, they're right about the psychiatrists. If you find a good one, you might even end up friends-- I know I did with mine. Or, if you're religious, a spiritual leader might be good too. But then, I don't really know.

... I'm not being that helpful, am I?

I don't known you, Naltiir, but I'm glad you didn't kill yourself. Really. Anyway, they're right about the psychiatrists. If you find a good one, you might even end up friends-- I know I did with mine. Or, if you're religious, a spiritual leader might be good too. But then, I don't really know.

... I'm not being that helpful, am I?
I do believe in reincarnation, but techincally that would drive me further to suicide knowing that I will very possibly have a better life in my next life.

Welcome back Naliitr

Quit being a bozo and thinking about killing yourself.

You are a good caring person. The world needs more like you growing up .

Snap out of it long enough to talk to somebody who can help you make some sense out of the mess. I guarantee you it can and will get way better. I promise.

You are a good caring person. The world needs more like you growing up .

What led you to that conclusion?

Eh up, I don't know you in the slightest, but endure seems like a word of significance, here. I was miserable as heck during school, pretty much all of my teens, and a few years before and after them, but I'm aware that if I'd killed myself at thirteen, bloody hell, I'd never have knowingly smiled and meant it. The point being that I had to wait until my twenties to find anything worth living for... before then I was just living in hope that something would come along. It took a long time, and didn't get easier at any point during those years, but, suddenly and quite unexpectedly, all the tears and public break-downs seemed worth suffering.

I don't know, that's probably a crappy motivational speech, basically it's just hang on, because after eight more why-am-I-bothering years, you might suddenly find someone or something that blows it all the heck away.

As to what you've missed in NS, I haven't got a clue, because I'm drunk and this is the only time I venture into the horrid waters of the General Forum [dramatic music]. I think... everything's the same, and nobody will care if you post a duplicate thread so long as you make half a point.

Now I have to go and tell Pandora that Badly Drawn Boy bores the daylights out of me [wanders off]

I don't know how things are for you, with your family and everything. But someone will care if you died. You really don't want to put people though this. My brother shot himself in december. It is difficult to describe how I felt. I was upset of course. I felt so guilty that we hadn't kept in touch the last few years. It is especially hard to cope with a suicide, there are so many questions that can't be answered. Why? Could I have stopped it? Was it my fault? This is what your family and friends will be asking themselves.

I am glad that you have reconsidered. All you have to do now is trust that things will get better. At 13 years of age, you have barely lived your life. It is good that you are telling us about this, but if you still have any thoughts about taking your own life, please talk to a psychologist.

Well, you did miss the Jolt servers shitting their collective pants last night...

well uh... welcome back dude. :)

He hasn't posted here in half an hour...should I be worried?

What led you to that conclusion?

Your posts

I do believe in reincarnation, but techincally that would drive me further to suicide knowing that I will very possibly have a better life in my next life.
Don't forget this:
No matter where you go, there you are.
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and
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“Be the change you want to see in the world.”

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and
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Mime's a-wasting!

Perhaps that's useful for a laugh or perhaps even a temporary philosophy.


BTW, i was one of the only people that voted in those polls to ostracize your prior nation in favour of you not being forced to change your posting style. :)

I thought you were white?


Ohhh you said back... Never mind

Ohhh you said back... Never mind
...you'll be back... :D

Welcome back, only saw a few of your posts, but you seem well thought out, which is a little uncommon, so don't make it more uncommon :P

Suicide thingy, come to NZ, i'll make it better.
Or try something fun, live as a homeless person for a week, month or more, its great. At 13 you can do lots of things. From where i stand, it doesn't actually get better, you just realise it doesn't matter.
If you aren't where you want to be, go there. you can do whatever you want, its just scary to start.

After approximately a week and a half of not being on, which is considerably actually a rather long time, I'm back. As you can see, I haven't gone through with my little "plan". I had the razor in my hand, but then I just broke into tears. I cried myself to sleep last night, and have done so every night since that night for assorted reasons. Hell, I'm so fragile right now I broke into tears the night before last because I left my book at school. I realized that I need NSG to stay stable last night. So I'm back in order to preserve my sanity, and to hope to drop my suicidal tendencies. So... What's been happening?

I've been posting more. That's about it on my end.

I've been there where you are, though I wanted to go in a car, and I certainly didn't turn to NSG for sanity. Last place I would look for it. As others have said, see a psychologist. That's all, folks.

Hey Naliitr, if you really want help or to talk about things, I am good with that sort of stuff..feel free to TG me or IM me.

Second: I am probably the best uncertified 13-year-old psychologist in America. Then again, I'm probably the only one.
*giggles*

Well, you did miss the Jolt servers shitting their collective pants last night...
I missed this too.. what happened?

Second: I am probably the best uncertified 13-year-old psychologist in America. Then again, I'm probably the only one.
Everyone fancies themselves a psychologist. I don't, but other people use me as one anyway... but I can't even figure my own problems... fuck that, see a pro. A certified pro.

He hasn't posted here in half an hour...should I be worried?
It simply means I got offline.

Your posts
What content in those posts led you to that conclusion?

Don't forget this:
No matter where you go, there you are.
..
and
..

..
and
..


Perhaps that's useful for a laugh or perhaps even a temporary philosophy.


BTW, i was one of the only people that voted in those polls to ostracize your prior nation in favour of you not being forced to change your posting style. :)
Old Ghandi was right, but he forgot one little eincy weincy little thing. It's hard to change the world. Very hard. If people see a revolutionary thinker, they shoot him now-in-days.

After approximately a week and a half of not being on, which is considerably actually a rather long time, I'm back. As you can see, I haven't gone through with my little "plan". I had the razor in my hand, but then I just broke into tears. I cried myself to sleep last night, and have done so every night since that night for assorted reasons. Hell, I'm so fragile right now I broke into tears the night before last because I left my book at school. I realized that I need NSG to stay stable last night. So I'm back in order to preserve my sanity, and to hope to drop my suicidal tendencies. So... What's been happening?
Good! Stronger than you thought, I see. :fluffle:

Old Ghandi was right, but he forgot one little eincy weincy little thing. It's hard to change the world. Very hard. If people see a revolutionary thinker, they shoot him now-in-days.
Its better to try to change the world than to give up and fall at the first hurdle...

After approximately a week and a half of not being on, which is considerably actually a rather long time, I'm back. As you can see, I haven't gone through with my little "plan". I had the razor in my hand, but then I just broke into tears. I cried myself to sleep last night, and have done so every night since that night for assorted reasons. Hell, I'm so fragile right now I broke into tears the night before last because I left my book at school. I realized that I need NSG to stay stable last night. So I'm back in order to preserve my sanity, and to hope to drop my suicidal tendencies. So... What's been happening?

Oh, quit the suicidal attention-whoring already. It's so pathetic, not to mention that you do it so poorly.

Old Ghandi was right, but he forgot one little eincy weincy little thing. It's hard to change the world. Very hard. If people see a revolutionary thinker, they shoot him now-in-days.
He was talking about seeing a change in the world, and how it's your responisibility to live up to your conscience. I don't disagree with him in the slightest, nor do i take it lightly.
Besides, it's just a smidge too ego-centric to expect the entire world to change to accomodate you - usually that turns out pretty f*cking badly.
But you're a lot closer to right about the revolutionary thinker mentality - it's best to seperate "anarchic" thinking from "progressive" thinking, and whether the difference is clearly defined for you and any interested onlookers.

I do believe in reincarnation, but techincally that would drive me further to suicide knowing that I will very possibly have a better life in my next life.

Ah, but you could also be reincarnated as yourself.