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The title is pretty darn self-explanatory, but since this is Nationstates, I have to write a whole description of the question...

Basically, I'm asking if you've ever thought of (or attempted to) take your own life. If you're embarrased, don't be. This is Nationstates, and I can assure you that less than .000005% of NSers know you on a personal level.

Nope

Yah, but then I grew up.

No, I enjoy my life enough not to take it away from me.

Yep, but I wasn't serious. It was more of a "that would show them" teenage angst thing. I've never really suffered from depression, which something I would thank a deity for every day, was I into that kind of stuff.

No. It would be incredibly stupid to take your own life.

Yea. Once I was going to, had it all planned and everything. Plans changed, I got dragged off on holiday somewhere by my parents (who didn't know), and the thought passed. I've seriously considered it on several occasions since then.

No, I enjoy my life enough not to take it away from me.

So you never ever thought, during the darkest times of your life, of the option of just ending it all with a bullet to the head? For a person to have never ever considered killing themselves over their entire lives is a big accomplishment, in my opinion.

Tried, didn't work, tried, didn't work, tried, didn't work, gave up. Life is good now so I'm glad it didn't work.

No. I'm not a little emo bitch, thank you very much.

No. I'm not a little emo bitch, thank you very much.

Just because you want to kill yourself doesn't make you Emo. Hannibal wasn't emo. Ernest Hemmingway wasn't emo. Adolf Hitler wasn't emo. Kurt Cobain wasn't emo. James Forrestal wasn't emo. And the list goes on and on and on and on...

Just because you want to kill yourself doesn't make you Emo. Hannibal wasn't emo. Ernest Hemmingway wasn't emo. Adolf Hitler wasn't emo. Kurt Cobain wasn't emo. James Forrestal wasn't emo. And the list goes on and on and on and on...
He certainly was.

He certainly was.
Nah, for a start (most of) the music he played was good. Emo, be definition, excludes nearly all good music.

Nah, for a start (most of) the music he played was good. Emo, be definition, excludes nearly all good music.
Yes he played good music.
No emo doesn't exclude good music. :mad:

Nah, for a start (most of) the music he played was good. Emo, be definition, excludes nearly all good music.

Emo music is the spawn of satan it's so horrible.

Nah, for a start (most of) the music he played was good.

that’s madness go wash your mouth with soap!

No I have never considered suicide not even in my darkest days must be because of the price of good rope these days

that’s madness go wash your mouth with soap!
Oh I don't mean stuff like Teen Spirit or Lithium (catchy tunes, but not exactly brilliant). I mean stuff like everything on In Utero, much of Incesticide, and quite a lot of Nevermind. And a few things of Bleach.

Yes, but I never tried anything. Fortunately, I had (and still have) some very supportive friends who made me realise that my life was actually worth living. And they were right. I owe them my life, so I will now do anything for them until I consider the favour repaid.

I almost did once...knife to the throat and all that good stuff...Luckily, Jesus stopped me from doing it.

Knife through the throat? Messy, blood spraying everywhere. Knife to the heart, fatal, not very messy.

I was fairly severely depressed for about 10 years (seeing as I'm 25 now, do the math). First time I considered suicide I was 5. I didn't really get over it until I was nearly killed in a chemical accident where I worked at the time when I was 22. I had a choice, I could of stayed and died, or I could of gotten out. Thought about it for a bit, longer than I should have. Anhydrous ammonia does rather peculiar things to you when you suck up enough of it. As an industrial accident it wouldn't of been ruled a suicide, my life insurance would of payed off and my next of kin could of sued.

I really thought about it, but in the end, because no one had given any kind of evacuation warning I instead made it to the main office (which had me walk through a cloud of ammonia/acid mix) only to find out everyone else was already out.

Fuckers.

Sense of smell hasn't been the same sense. I can't smell some things, other things I pick up very strongly. Particularly people, men especially I'm quite sensitive to. I can tell if someone has been in a room recently by the lingering scent. Chlorine smells very strong for me, even in very small amounts. The smell of ham baking smells like Pineapple to me, various other oddities. Ammonia when it hits your eyes feels cold, like something is trying to vacuum them out of their sockets.

Only once, and even then I only planned it, I didn't go through with it because I realised that killing yourself to "get back" at someone was kinda shit.

Suicide is the coward's way out.

Suicide is the coward's way out.

Fortunately dead folk don't really give a rat's ass what the livin' thing of 'em.

Other, anytime I think of that I just take it out on a random emo... :D

(You do know I am joking)

Seriously...never.

Nope, never, i don't consider to be an accomplishment though.

Fortunately dead folk don't really give a rat's ass what the livin' thing of 'em.

That has almost nothing to do with what I said.

So you never ever thought, during the darkest times of your life, of the option of just ending it all with a bullet to the head? For a person to have never ever considered killing themselves over their entire lives is a big accomplishment, in my opinion.

Nope, in my darkest times of my life I still cared enough about my future and the people around me that the thought of suicide never occured.

No. I'm not a little emo bitch, thank you very much.

So suffering a symptom of major depression makes one "a little emo bitch"?

I think not.

I've only wondered what death would feel like.

No, my life is too "precious" to kill it off. I like my life, and nothing so far is huge enough that would make me think of suicide.

Suicide is the coward's way out.

I'll give you the benefit of the doubt and think that you mean it is honorable to struggle against the absurdity of existence.

The Myth Of Sisyphus (http://www.siue.edu/~evailat/sisyphus.html)

Studies have shown that over 90% of people who die from suicide have one or more psychiatric disorders at the time of their death. I'm sure you wouldn't call someone suffering a symptom of psychological disorder names because of that suffering.

I'll give you the benefit of the doubt and think that you mean it is honorable to struggle against the absurdity of existence.

The Myth Of Sisyphus (http://www.siue.edu/~evailat/sisyphus.html)

Studies have shown that over 90% of people who die from suicide have one or more psychiatric disorders at the time of their death. I'm sure you wouldn't call someone suffering a symptom of psychological disorder names because of that suffering.

I should of elaboratred, Suicide is the the coward's way out with the exeption of individualls with psychological disorders.

Basically, I'm asking if you've ever thought of (or attempted to) take your own life. If you're embarrased, don't be. This is Nationstates, and I can assure you that less than .000005% of NSers know you on a personal level.
i thought about it practically every day for about 2 years, and attempted once in the second year. shortly after things got better and i haven't thought that way (seriously) in quite some time now :)

I've only wondered what death would feel like.


Suppose it depends on how you go. If your heart just stops you sorta pass out. The same feeling you get from holding your breath too long. Light headed, then you lose conciousness.

I know because I have a heart condition that stopped it from beating once for about 30 seconds. The feeling of light headedness hit very fast, by the time my heart started again I was barely aware.

I thought about it, tried a couple times, but never really felt like going through with it.
It more or less amounts to availability: I could, at any time, kill myself, and that would be it. There is no benefit to checking out early, so there really is no rush to pull it off quickly or beat some sort of urgent deadline.
So, yeah, I'm suicidal, but I'm also a procrastinator.

Besides the daily self-injury I perform, I've attempted it. And I feel no remorse about my actions.

Yes, who hasn't?
Everyone has.
I just get curious of the afterlife, so mysterious

When I was hospitalized at times the pain was so great that I thought "wouldn't it be easier if I just died". However, I don't consider this thought suicidal, more of an admonision to myself.

I've also thought of the funniest way to eat it. One of my favorites is being nibbled to death by goldfish.

Not seriously, no. Not being afflicted with any psychological disorders other than adolescence (although some might argue..... ;)) I swiftly realised that:

1.) Suicide is fairly pointless anyway;

2.) I'll die anyway, so why not enjoy life for a few more years before it does happen?

3.) My rope wasn't strong enough, I lived on the second floor, and my family's flat had no weapons of adequate strength or condition. ;)

Not seriously, no. Not being afflicted with any psychological disorders other than adolescence (although some might argue..... ;)) I swiftly realised that:

1.) Suicide is fairly pointless anyway;

2.) I'll die anyway, so why not enjoy life for a few more years before it does happen?

3.) My rope wasn't strong enough, I lived on the second floor, and my family's flat had no weapons of adequate strength or condition. ;)
1.) It is? I thought it released you from this life.

2.) Wait, you can actually ENJOY life?

3.) Get a knife.

Yes, I've thought about it. Yes, I've tried. Twice so far.

Well now. This is suprising. A lot more people on NS have actually attempted suicide than I thought. I knew there was me and Silence And Nothing (Who I think has sucecced as I have not seen her for a while. Good for her!), but now I know Zilam has, Ruffino has, and even PM has! The last one slightly suprised me. It always seems as though he has such a cheery demeanear.... (SP?)

Well now. This is suprising. A lot more people on NS have actually attempted suicide than I thought. I knew there was me and Silence And Nothing (Who I think has sucecced as I have not seen her for a while. Good for her!), but now I know Zilam has, Ruffino has, and even PM has! The last one slightly suprised me. It always seems as though he has such a cheery demeanear.... (SP?)


See, that's where you and I differ. You speculate that a girl may have killed herself and think "good for her", I see the same situation and think "why didn't someone help that poor girl?" I don't enjoy clinical depression, I just can't seem to get out of it. I wish I could stop feeling this way. Personally, I find it sad that you wear suicidal thoughts as a badge of honor.

See, that's where you and I differ. You speculate that a girl may have killed herself and think "good for her", I see the same situation and think "why didn't someone help that poor girl?" I don't enjoy clinical depression, I just can't seem to get out of it. I wish I could stop feeling this way. Personally, I find it sad that you wear suicidal thoughts as a badge of honor.
Hey, if they're dead, that's a good thing, as they no longer have to suffer. I'm not saying the whole commiting suicide thing was good, I'm just saying the dead thing is good for her because she doesn't have to suffer anymore.

How does someone manage to attempt suicide and fail? You could easily chug a number of household chemicals and die within minutes. Is there some faulty method that ends up foiling people's attempts?

How does someone manage to attempt suicide and fail? You could easily chug a number of household chemicals and die within minutes. Is there some faulty method that ends up foiling people's attempts?
Razor blades don't always bleed you out. You know, people can come into your room and find you. Then they "save" you.

How does someone manage to attempt suicide and fail? You could easily chug a number of household chemicals and die within minutes. Is there some faulty method that ends up foiling people's attempts?


How's this?

“Razors pain you; rivers are damp; acids stain you; and drugs cause cramp. Guns aren't lawful; nooses give; gas smells awful; you might as well live.”

I thought about it, but then i realised The Universe would be more pissed off with me alive than dead. Yep, I'm a happy guy.