NationStates Jolt Archive

you, yeah... you, it's the end of the week and its time for the weekend and (supposedly... for most people:rolleyes: ) some well earned time off. so, have a good week? how you feeling about things? wanna rant about anything in general? feel free to do so here :)

me, i'm still eating popcorn and feeling lonely as hell - hence why i started this thread even though its kinda spammy... i need to talk to someone :(

I'm sitting in a beanbag naked eating Cheetos.

Had a long week at work, got a really tough week coming up, where my current project reaches a conclusion, in varying shades of failure or success. :(

On the bright side, this weekend I am getting a ridiculously powerful new PC to replace the current one.

I'm sitting in a beanbag naked eating Cheetos.
I too have played computer games naked, however I only do this during summer months.

I also notice I am approaching the 10,000 post threshold. Interestingly, I got the first 8,200 or so within a year of starting to play NS, and it has taken me this long to get the rest.

I too have played computer games naked, however I only do this during summer months.

I also notice I am approaching the 10,000 post threshold. Interestingly, I got the first 8,200 or so within a year of starting to play NS, and it has taken me this long to get the rest.
Moderation slows you down I suppose.

I also have to study for my ACT.

Been praying for guidence on a decision that I have to make.

Outside of that though, I'm doing good.

Moderation slows you down I suppose.

I also have to study for my ACT.
Not really. I was Modified only 3 months after starting to play NS my posting was pretty constant over the first year. But the people with whom I started to play gradually drifted away, and my interest waned. I also had to give up my duties and leave the game for 7 months during my final year at university, returning after graduation completely out of touch and largely forgotten.

I'm sitting in a beanbag naked eating Cheetos.

If you're really this bored my, AIM is Herr Socialism.
hehe thanks... i actually cheered myself up making this (http://www.hlj.me.uk/ns/getwell.jpg)anyway :P
*goes off to read fillerbunny comics again*


On the bright side, this weekend I am getting a ridiculously powerful new PC to replace the current one.
yay!!

care to share the specs?

I'm sitting in a beanbag naked eating Cheetos.

If you're really this bored my, AIM is Herr Socialism.

Interesting concept, no scratching..... you don't want to turn things orange....

Good week overall, did anyone see the State of the Union address?? (please dont post your hatred or love of the president, just a general question, thought someone may want to speak inteligently on the speech)

Pure Metal, the name says alot..... but what kind of metal?? Like hearband (warrant) metal, or death (Canibal Corpse) metal, or unique, genius (Marilyn Manson) metal? Just curious...

Pure Metal, the name says alot..... but what kind of metal?? Like hearband (warrant) metal, or death (Canibal Corpse) metal, or unique, genius (Marilyn Manson) metal? Just curious...


that's uh....... hairband....

I had a production meeting today, and I noticed that everybody had a progress report in front of them, and I didn't. My part of the meeting didn't come up til the end, when I was asked if I knew why I didn't have a report in front of me. I had a sudden sense of apprehension and just barely managed an arch of the brows and a comic shrug.

'You don't have a report because you've completely cleared your plate', I was told. (I produce online rich media for hotels and hotel chains.) The clients had signed off on the last four out of ten videos produced for mostly European hotels, a process that had been lagging due to one reason or another - and this project, specifically, was the reason I'd been brought on board in the first place just before Christmas.

So, I just talked a bit about what was coming down the pipe and made a few jokes. Great way to end the week.

I'm sitting in a beanbag naked eating Cheetos.
don't fart. :eek:


Not really. I was Modified only 3 months after starting to play NS my posting was pretty constant over the first year. But the people with whom I started to play gradually drifted away, and my interest waned. I also had to give up my duties and leave the game for 7 months during my final year at university, returning after graduation completely out of touch and largely forgotten.
if i were around before you left, i'm sure i would have remembered you :fluffle:
and if its any consolation, i remeber the manchester thing :)

yay!!

care to share the specs?
AMD 64-bit 4000+ CPU
2GB RAM400
2x nVidia 6600GT 128MB GFX
3x 250GB HDD
10/100/1000 LAN
16x DVD (not RW)
CD-RW

Not sure about soundcard, but it supports more than 5.1 channels.

I'm also re-using my 19" CRT monitor.

*watches all the people being happy*

and if its any consolation, i remeber the manchester thing :)
We need to do another one, in Birmingham on a weekend. :)

Eh I'm just sitting here watching the History Channel eating Hamburgers.

Pure Metal, the name says alot..... but what kind of metal?? Like hearband (warrant) metal, or death (Canibal Corpse) metal, or unique, genius (Marilyn Manson) metal? Just curious...
oh man... all sorts. not just metal either *nods*

my top playlist can be seen here (http://www.last.fm/user/PureMetal/)but i've only been subscribed there for a week or two, so its not fully representitive yet.
warrant and winger are good hairmetal, yes... i have liked them to an extent in my time. never really liked marilyn manson or cannibal corpse but my favourite metal bands (off the top of my head) would be Testament, Bolt Thrower, Metallica, Megadeth, Iced Earth, Pitchshifter, Alice In Chains, Korn, Deftones, Apocalyptica, Sabbath, Pantera and Crowbar :)
but then i like a lot more than metal nowadays...

It's 3 am and I just watched The Lovers of the Arctic Circle for the first time. So now I'm....pensive. Melancholic, if you will.


I'm also insanely tired because my sleeping times are even more messed up than usual.

I'm also trying not to think about my life. Which is probably why I'm not so keen on going to bed these days...

oh man... all sorts. not just metal either *nods*

my top playlist can be seen here (http://www.last.fm/user/PureMetal/)but i've only been subscribed there for a week or two, so its not fully representitive yet.
warrant and winger are good hairmetal, yes... i have liked them to an extent in my time. never really liked marilyn manson or cannibal corpse but my favourite metal bands (off the top of my head) would be Testament, Bolt Thrower, Metallica, Megadeth, Iced Earth, Pitchshifter, Alice In Chains, Korn, Deftones, Apocalyptica, Sabbath, Pantera and Crowbar :)
but then i like a lot more than metal nowadays...


Interesting, I have never seen Anthrax and the Miles Davis Quartet back to back on a playlist before. Very eclectic tastes...

By the way, you should give Marilyn Manson another chance, the older stuff, not the newer "sellout" stuff.

It's 3 am and I just watched The Lovers of the Arctic Circle for the first time. So now I'm....pensive. Melancholic, if you will.


I'm also insanely tired because my sleeping times are even more messed up than usual.

I'm also trying not to think about my life. Which is probably why I'm not so keen on going to bed these days...
Hmm. It's 9 PM where I'm at. You're six hours ahead... GMT+1.

Where you dialed in from, if I might so ask?

Just curious.

Well, this is it. Postcount of 10,000. Feels like a hollow victory. Over 8,000 I got, talking to people no longer here. :(

Hmm. It's 9 PM where I'm at. You're six hours ahead... GMT+1.

Where you dialed in from, if I might so ask?

Just curious.

Berlin, Germany.

So that makes you - East Coast US/Canada?

I'm sitting here on my bed, with my laptop, next to my bestfriend Kristina, watching some movie on LOGO called, "The Sum of Us". Absoloutely boring as hell.

Although, my week went well.

Well, this is it. Postcount of 10,000. Feels like a hollow victory. Over 8,000 I got, talking to people no longer here. :(

Congratulations Tactical Grace. If you need someone to talk to, you can always talk to me :)

Berlin, Germany.

So that makes you - East Coast US/Canada?

Born and raised German?? Wow..... It still amazes me to talk to people across the world.... m/f??

Midwest USA here....

Well, this is it. Postcount of 10,000. Feels like a hollow victory. Over 8,000 I got, talking to people no longer here. :(
It's a beautiful thing, TG. I was around for a goodly chunk of that 8,000 in one guise or another.

Don't be wistful.

Congratulations Tactical Grace. If you need someone to talk to, you can always talk to me :)
Cheers. :)

Berlin, Germany.

So that makes you - East Coast US/Canada?
Toronto, Canada. About 1.5 km east of the base of the CN Tower.

It's a beautiful thing, TG. I was around for a goodly chunk of that 8,000 in one guise or another.

Don't be wistful.
Hehe, cool, and thank you. Where's the IP look-up button when you need it? ;)

How am I... what am I doing.... urgh, what are you, the Spanish Inquisition? :p

I'm not entirely sure I can answer either of those questions to a great degree of satisfaction. I'm doing nothing but talking to a few people over msn, browsing one or two forums, and thinking about more stuff than I can reasonably keep track of. I'm also a little bit depressed, but thats masquerading as boredom and apathy, for some reason.

My mind doesn't know when to shut up.

8pm here, and still working...
on the upside though, I get to play online while I work :)

Born and raised German?? Wow.....
Okay, I must say I thought you were going to pull my leg by starting out like that.

It still amazes me to talk to people across the world.... m/f??

Midwest USA here....
But you're right, it kind of is amazing, isn't it? Not least because I actually thought you were from Denmark...
And f.


I'm actually too melancholic right now to use smilies. They'd destroy that weird half-sleeping sadness I have going on right now It's...interesting. Let's see how long it'll last.

ETA: Where in the Midwest exactly? I lived in IN for a year.

Cheers. :)

Cheers to you too :)

Toronto, Canada. About 1.5 km east of the base of the CN Tower.
Hey, I've been there. Who knows, maybe I walked right by your front door? Very beautiful, Toronto. Would like to go there again, I only spent a day last time.

Hey, I've been there. Who knows, maybe I walked right by your front door? Very beautiful, Toronto. Would like to go there again, I only spent a day last time.
It's a bit ugly this time of year, though. Oddly enough, it'd be worse-looking right now if we'd had more snow this winter. All we've seen is cold rain, and at least then the streets are washed clean.

So to sum up: cold and very clean. Better in June or October (summers are stiflingly hot and humid)

so... how are you?
I'm okay, thank you. Looking forward to a yummy dinner and watching a movie with mom after - the calm before the storm as it were. Midterm week in three days! Wheeeee!

I'm off to bed. Posting it for old times' sake.

AMD 64-bit 4000+ CPU
2GB RAM400
2x nVidia 6600GT 128MB GFX
3x 250GB HDD
10/100/1000 LAN
16x DVD (not RW)
CD-RW

Not sure about soundcard, but it supports more than 5.1 channels.

I'm also re-using my 19" CRT monitor.
woah i didn't even know they did 4ghz CPUs nowadays :p
looks like a beast!

We need to do another one, in Birmingham on a weekend. :)
lol... its still miles away from me but i'm game! :)
(congrads on the 10k, btw)

Interesting, I have never seen Anthrax and the Miles Davis Quartet back to back on a playlist before. Very eclectic tastes...

By the way, you should give Marilyn Manson another chance, the older stuff, not the newer "sellout" stuff.
hehe thank you... i likes what i likes... generally anything with energy or soul, or things that speak to me (mostly no "pop")

and i do like a few tracks of Manson - i think they're older tracks, too... i will check his stuff out again, thanks :)



I'm also trying not to think about my life. Which is probably why I'm not so keen on going to bed these days...
oh yeah, i've been there :(

:fluffle:


i still hate going to sleep because it'll just mean having to wake up tomorrow morning

I'm off to bed. Posting it for old times' sake.
Don't be so mushy. Posting off at bedtime is still (has always been, as far as Ican remember) perfectly common practice on NS.

Goodnight, and congradulations on the 10 K - I sure remember you since I've been here.

It's a bit ugly this time of year, though. Oddly enough, it'd be worse-looking right now if we'd had more snow this winter. All we've seen is cold rain, and at least then the streets are washed clean.

So to sum up: cold and very clean. Better in June or October (summers are stiflingly hot and humid)

Don't remember when I was there. Summer, though. Oh, I do remember - it was around the day Clinton said "I misled people". I was a bit bummed that I wasn't in the US just when he finally decided to say that. Well, I kept an Ottawa newspaper for posterity.

We actually walked around along some waterfront up to pretty close to the CN Tower. Which sucked, because to get into the residential/downtown area, we had to walk across this weird no-man's land of scraggly grass and trash underneath elevated highways, if I recall correctly. But then we were in the old Russian neighborhood, and then on a block full of nice old houses, music, graffiti, and hip people that reminded me a bit of Haight Ashbury. Like I said - very beautiful.

I'm also a little bit depressed, but thats masquerading as boredom and apathy, for some reason.

i hear that, too... more fluffles! :fluffle:
i seem to get that most nights (or melancholy, whatever you want to call it) after i say good night to amy. :( tis the reason i started this thread *nods* depressives of NS unite! :P

and yes, i am the Spanish Inquisition... all one of me... surprise!! ;):p

Well, this is it. Postcount of 10,000. Feels like a hollow victory. Over 8,000 I got, talking to people no longer here. :(
I tried

We actually walked around along some waterfront up to pretty close to the CN Tower. Which sucked, because to get into the residential/downtown area, we had to walk across this weird no-man's land of scraggly grass and trash underneath elevated highways, if I recall correctly. But then we were in the old Russian neighborhood, and then on a block full of nice old houses, music, graffiti, and hip people that reminded me a bit of Haight Ashbury. Like I said - very beautiful.
Yeah, sounds like you were walking through my neighbourhood, all right.

you, yeah... you, it's the end of the week and its time for the weekend and (supposedly... for most people:rolleyes: ) some well earned time off. so, have a good week? how you feeling about things? wanna rant about anything in general? feel free to do so here :)

me, i'm still eating popcorn and feeling lonely as hell - hence why i started this thread even though its kinda spammy... i need to talk to someone :(

See my thread for rants...

How am i? regretting i didn't stay in tonight, thats how.

See my thread for rants...

How am i? regretting i didn't stay in tonight, thats how.
Im regretting I stayed in last night, wanna trade?

oh yeah, i've been there :(

:fluffle:
:fluffle: right back. I'm waking up a bit right now, which is kind of sad, since it makes this weird sad mood go away somewhat - it actually felt kind of good to half-consciously wallow...

i still hate going to sleep because it'll just mean having to wake up tomorrow morning
Oh yeah, that too.

Not really. I was Modified only 3 months after starting to play NS my posting was pretty constant over the first year. But the people with whom I started to play gradually drifted away, and my interest waned. I also had to give up my duties and leave the game for 7 months during my final year at university, returning after graduation completely out of touch and largely forgotten.
Awww! *I* didn't forget you! :) :fluffle:

I'm glad that there are nice people here. Makes me happy after the week I've had.

Actually, I've been gettingkind of antsy. I can hardly wait for the spring mud season to begin. :)

It's a feel-good kinda thread.

you, yeah... you, it's the end of the week and its time for the weekend and (supposedly... for most people:rolleyes: ) some well earned time off. so, have a good week? how you feeling about things? wanna rant about anything in general? feel free to do so here :) me, i'm still eating popcorn and feeling lonely as hell - hence why i started this thread even though its kinda spammy... i need to talk to someone :(

LOL. Well, I'm drunk as a skunk (Warsteiner German Verum). And I just met someone on "eHarmony" in my town, that seems like a hit. School's going great, I'm writing some cool music, and did I mention that I'm drunk.. *as a skunk* So anyway things are good. .. You're still eating popcorn!!? Here, have a beer, dude..

Im regretting I stayed in last night, wanna trade?

what happened last night? no shrimps on the barbie?

(hurr hurr, comic australian stereotypes ahoy!)

I'm glad that there are nice people here. Makes me happy after the week I've had.We're in the same region - Hello!

Yeah, sounds like you were walking through my neighbourhood, all right.
Really? I knew I was when you mentioned that "base of the CN tower" thing.
Which is obviously a stupid thing to say, seeing how you could live anywhere in a 1.5 km radius around the tower, but I'll just pretend for now that I did know and that I did walk right by your front door. You don't live in that hip/music-y/colorful block, do you?

We're in the same region - Hello!

Hello! :)

Are you going to come to my ball?

Really? I knew I was when you mentioned that "base of the CN tower" thing.
Which is obviously a stupid thing to say, seeing how you could live anywhere in a 1.5 km radius around the tower, but I'll just pretend for now that I did know and that I did walk right by your front door. You don't live in that hip/music-y/colorful block, do you?
I live in the block of old houses.

Hello! :)

Are you going to come to my ball?Oh right - yes I plan to - (it's my puppet, Raeven, BTW)

Oh right - yes I plan to - (it's my puppet, Raeven, BTW)

Sweet :)

Okay, I must say I thought you were going to pull my leg by starting out like that.


But you're right, it kind of is amazing, isn't it? Not least because I actually thought you were from Denmark...
And f.


I'm actually too melancholic right now to use smilies. They'd destroy that weird half-sleeping sadness I have going on right now It's...interesting. Let's see how long it'll last.

ETA: Where in the Midwest exactly? I lived in IN for a year.


St. Louis, MO. What part of Indiana did you live in?? I have been there a few times..
You should smile, think of all these lovely NS people around the globe that you are speaking with.. Just think, I am sincerely excited about talking to someone in the magical place that is Germany. Its the little things in life that are exciting.... if that doesnt put a smile on you, nothing will..

Kreitzmoorland, you seem to be like the sweetest girl around... How are you friend?? Tell us about your week....

what happened last night? no shrimps on the barbie?

(hurr hurr, comic australian stereotypes ahoy!)
something like that mate.

Me shiela went out without me.

I live in the block of old houses.
I am so envious. I'd love to live in the city but still in one of those beautiful small houses. Here, if you live in the city center, there's only these larger tenement building (usually 4-5 stories). Not that they're ugly, most are old and some are very nice. But that Russian quarter (for lack of a better term) was great - it's kind of what I imagine myself living in whenever I daydream about one day having enough money to live in NYC, or Toronto, or Boston, or Vancouver, or.... Sigh.

Kreitzmoorland, you seem to be like the sweetest girl around... How are you friend?? Tell us about your week....

and I was trying to be the sweetist girl :(

:fluffle: right back. I'm waking up a bit right now, which is kind of sad, since it makes this weird sad mood go away somewhat - it actually felt kind of good to half-consciously wallow...


"you're into depression
because it matches your eyes
...
confused, you know where you are"
- deftones: elite

Oh yeah, that too.
worst part is having to wake up and do it all again. much as i hate feeling like this in the semiconcious hours of late night, i'd much prefer the evening to drag on forever than have to wake up and bother with tomorrow, same as today, same as yesterday...

the only thing that makes it worthwhile is her... i can push it all under the surface but all the depression is still there bubbling under, and every night it breaks out to some degree once she's gone... but enough of that [/rant]

edit:
and I was trying to be the sweetist girl :(
i'm sorry but you all pale in comparison to amy/glitz

though Whereyouthinkyougoing, you are also pretty nice imo :)

St. Louis, MO. What part of Indiana did you live in?? I have been there a few times..
You should smile, think of all these lovely NS people around the globe that you are speaking with.. Just think, I am sincerely excited about talking to someone in the magical place that is Germany. Its the little things in life that are exciting.... if that doesnt put a smile on you, nothing will..
Heh, I wouldn't exactly call it magical, but alright.
I was living in Bloomington, studying. And unfortunately I never made it to St. Louis. Never saw the Gateway Arch. :(

Kreitzmoorland, you seem to be like the sweetest girl around... How are you friend?? Tell us about your week.... Is it just me, or was that a remarkably backhanded compliment?

Anyway, I don't require falttery. My week was depressingly fine. I went to school, read Bram Stoker's 'Dracula' ( SO good), went book-shopping with my boyfriend, and made some excellent mac-and-cheese (from scratch, with some butternut squash - mmm) for dinner yesterday. OOh, and I saw the movie "Igby Goes Down", which was great. I wish I were a rich and angsty teenage boy with a great sex life, and a graceful fringe.

I'm glad that there are nice people here. Makes me happy after the week I've had.
what happened in your week?

hello:p

Is it just me, or was that a remarkably backhanded compliment?

Anyway, I don't require falttery. My week was depressingly fine. I went to school, read Bram Stoker's 'Dracula' ( SO good), went book-shopping with my boyfriend, and made some excellent mac-and-cheese (from scratch, with some butternut squash - mmm) for dinner yesterday. OOh, and I saw the movie "Igby Goes Down", which was great. I wish I were a rich and angsty teenage boy with a great sex life, and a graceful fringe.

100% sincere compliment..... everytime you write something, it just seems genuinly friendly and sweet....nothing wrong with that.... although I have never heard of putting squash in man n cheese... that almost makes it healthy...

and I was trying to be the sweetist girl :(

Western PA, I can only imagine you are the sweetest girl ever, I just don't know ya yet..... nice to meet ya though....... how was thy week in PA?

hello:p
..... Hi

wow, hello Tara..... a new face..... Am I officially the first to ever say hello to you????? amazing...

..... Hi

#2 isnt so bad either...... Where you at newcomer??

.... although I have never heard of putting squash in man n cheese... that almost makes it healthy...:) well, neither had I, but given my family's health-mania, I thought it best to go for Martha Stewart's "healthy macaroni & cheese" - and it turned out great, so no harm done.

I'm... coming down off an irritation high. And I'm really tired, and getting tireder. Today was my daughter's 2 year old birthday, so we had all my in-laws over for her "birthday party". Now most of my in-laws are great. They're considerate, generous, and pretty much everything you could ask for. And then there's the other one.

Is it rude to say "ok, just LEAVE already" when everyone else has been gone 15 minutes, and she's still dawdling around and making no signs of leaving? Oh, and since when is it ok to shake a 2 year old awake just because her precious aunt is here to see her. I mean, a bunch of other people arrived first, and we'd tried talking to her to see if she was ready to wake up, and she'd looked, stretched, and gone back to sleep. But boy, when her aunt got here, the world must've been complete, because when she was shaken, she woke right up! (And started crying for her mommy.) And then her aunt's telling her which presents to open, and how to open them. And she authoritatively told dad that my daughter has a "sign language" sign she made up for "open". Which is just rubbish. Yes, she was asking me to open it, and making the appropriate motions with her hands, but it's not something she does as a sign for it. Open is open is open, and no idiot aunt is gonna change that. Leave the poor child alone, and stop being a know-it-all, and telling people things that aren't true. Oh, and don't ask me for $25 as my "share" of an $80 joint gift when I wasn't even talking to you. Did she miss that $25 doesn't go evenly into $80 no matter how many people are included? And I mean, this isn't to mention that she popped my daughters favorite of the balloons (red) by being careless and just laughed when the girl burst into tears. Or that she tried to tie up balloons under the lamp so nobody could see anybody else. Oh and when my daughter got upset becuase the Thomas the Tank Engine cake I'd made her didn't have wheels anymore, and her aunt was eating them, she just kept showing them to her, as if that would make her feel better. Seirously, can you THINK of a way to get a kid more upset? And when I sat down with her, and got her to say "byebye" to the "Chocolate Thomas" her aunt KEPT showing her the wheels, and offering to put a half-eaten peice of cake back so the thing would have wheels. Keep your freak-germs to yourself. And all this in a room with about 10 people in a 10x12 space. Oh, and then she got 2T winter clothes for her again, when I had JUST told her we had plenty of winter clothes, and she could get spring or summer in 2T, but winter should be 3T so it didn't get worn once and put away. And she made a point of letting me know she was taking the reciept with her.

*whew* Really... one of these days I'd just LOVE to let loose and just for a day, tell her off every time she irritates me and see what happens. Isn't that bad of me?

that almost makes it healthy...
blasphamy

what happened in your week?

Facing a life changing decision and trying to figure out which way to go. Its a decision my parents left up to me because it affects me.

"you're into depression
because it matches your eyes
...
confused, you know where you are"
- deftones: elite

That is brilliant. I love it.

Although I do feel like an impostor now. I've noticed how many people here have gone or are going through depression (an awful lot, if you ask me). While I've been messing up my life good for quite some time now, I'm not depressive. I'm far too good at this "pushing it all under the surface" thing. Maybe I'm just in a naturally good mood, or genetically optimistic, or something; because while I more and more think I'm exhibiting some symptoms of depression, I'm not, well, sad (except right now, obviously), much less suicidal. Maybe I should just get myself the fuck together.

Or I could do that tomorrow and for now spend another hour or so wallowing in the after-effects of the movie & listening to melancholic music. Sounds good.


though Whereyouthinkyougoing, you are also pretty nice imo :)
Awwwwww. Thank you, PM, so are you. :)

Western PA, I can only imagine you are the sweetest girl ever, I just don't know ya yet..... nice to meet ya though....... how was thy week in PA?

Nice to meet you too :)

It was ok. Been wrestling with life changing decision and its been occupying my thoughts.

Facing a life changing decision and trying to figure out which way to go. Its a decision my parents left up to me because it affects me.
to burden of living your own life, I hate making those decisions. Care to share?

Facing a life changing decision and trying to figure out which way to go. Its a decision my parents left up to me because it affects me.

So when are you due??? Just kidding, what is this decision, perhaps we can contribute ideas....

So when are you due???

Now this is a very interesting question.

Now this is a very interesting question.

So I guessed it.... Do tell....

So I guessed it.... Do tell....

It was the stupidist thing I ever did and went against everything thatI believe in.

It was the stupidist thing I ever did and went against everything thatI believe in.

Now you have to set this up with a little background, how old?? Are you a student?? Employed?? Just to give us a frame of reference.

When you say this goes against everything you believe in, yet hint at possibly not carrying to term, those two seem a contradiction. Care to elaborate/

What about those more important questions, like What are you wearing?? Do you have a pic of this hottie that is Western PA?:fluffle:

Now you have to set this up with a little background, how old?? Are you a student?? Employed?? Just to give us a frame of reference.

When you say this goes against everything you believe in, yet hint at possibly not carrying to term, those two seem a contradiction. Care to elaborate/

It really isn't something I'm proud of and only my best friend knows outside of my family.

Yes I am a student. Part time employee because my parents wanted me to have a job. And I am a religious person.

As for my age.. I'd rather not say if that's ok.

What about those more important questions, like What are you wearing?? Do you have a pic of this hottie that is Western PA?:fluffle:
try www.pubescent-teenagers-chat.com you may have better luck

try www.pubescent-teenagers-chat.com you may have better luck

thanks.....

It really isn't something I'm proud of and only my best friend knows outside of my family.

Yes I am a student. Part time employee because my parents wanted me to have a job. And I am a religious person.

As for my age.. I'd rather not say if that's ok.
then will you say if your a highschool student or tertiary?

That is brilliant. I love it.

Although I do feel like an impostor now. I've noticed how many people here have gone or are going through depression (an awful lot, if you ask me). While I've been messing up my life good for quite some time now, I'm not depressive. I'm far too good at this "pushing it all under the surface" thing. Maybe I'm just in a naturally good mood, or genetically optimistic, or something; because while I more and more think I'm exhibiting some symptoms of depression, I'm not, well, sad (except right now, obviously), much less suicidal. Maybe I should just get myself the fuck together.

Or I could do that tomorrow and for now spend another hour or so wallowing in the after-effects of the movie & listening to melancholic music. Sounds good.

there are many different faces, or sides, to depression, any of which can be felt to varying degrees of intensity in any combination at any one time. only you can know for sure. even then, you can't really know for sure... ah its such a weird thing, so full of paradoxes and contradicitons that you can hardly be sure of anything.

i hope, for your sake, that you're not actually depressed :fluffle:


me, i'm not depressed any more. not like i used to be. but as i say its still there and it hits me back sometimes, usually in the evening after i've been talking to amy... she makes me feel happy, she makes me laugh and smile and feel good about myself, so when she's gone i crash back down to being alone in my old room in my parents' attic with the pressures and worries about the next day flooding back in too, and my guard just ups and gives in for a while, longing for her turning to needing her, turning to being sad and lonely without her. sometimes all i want to do is sleep and get rid of the misery, sometimes (like tonight) i just want to let it all out and not wake up tomorrow (though i would hate that cos i'd never see amy! :eek: ). sorry about posting miserable stuff like this but i need to vent somewhere and glitz is away for a day or two... (you can now envy the kinds of conversations we have... i don't know how she puts up with me :p and my self-centredness :()

then will you say if your a highschool student or tertiary?

Highschool student.

Although I do feel like an impostor now. I've noticed how many people here have gone or are going through depression (an awful lot, if you ask me).

I think most people at some point in their lives deal with some level/form of depression. Not everyone, by any means, but most people, yes.

Someone look at my post on page 2, and answer, so I don't explode, please, ok?

Highschool student.
I have my opinion but it is you decision if you can put your religious beliefs aside I probably would not have the child, as the burden is not only on yourself it is on the child aswell.

How am I, you ask?
I
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I have my opinion but it is you decision if you can put your religious beliefs aside I probably would not have the child, as the burden is not only on yourself it is on the child aswell.

I actually thank you for your opinion.

I have my opinion but it is you decision if you can put your religious beliefs aside I probably would not have the child, as the burden is not only on yourself it is on the child aswell.

This could start a whole new kind of debate.. I beg to differ, no need to punish an innocent child for your own convenience's sake...

I think most people at some point in their lives deal with some level/form of depression. Not everyone, by any means, but most people, yes.

Someone look at my post on page 2, and answer, so I don't explode, please, ok?

I actually just did & was going to answer - when I saw it earlier it was still under construction, hee...

To get to the point: what a bitch. There, I said it.

She's annoying the heck out of me just by reading this, so I can totally understand if you have an urge to strangle her. Or, well, tell her off.

My sister has some majorly sucky in-laws, so does my best friend. And we have yet to come up with a good way to deal with any of them. They're going to be around for many, many years to come, so you can't really "break up" with them. You should probably find a good balance between telling her firmly what she can and cannot do in your house & with your kid, and keeping your own sanity by ignoring/tolerating her as much as possible. After all, she's not going to be around every day.

Yeah, not very satisfactory, I know.

This could start a whole new kind of debate.. I beg to differ, no need to punish an innocent child for your own convenience's sake...

That debate is the last thing I want.

That debate is the last thing I want.

Well, we can always change the subject. Besides this portion of your world, what else did your week have in store... Bear in mind we have just met, so I know nothing about you, except that you seem nice enough..

Well, we can always change the subject. Besides this portion of your world, what else did your week have in store... Bear in mind we have just met, so I know nothing about you, except that you seem nice enough..

Studied for a test that I got a B+ in. Still thought I was robbed. And spending time with my friends shopping and swimming. One of my friends has an indoor pool :D

me, i'm not depressed any more. not like i used to be. but as i say its still there and it hits me back sometimes, usually in the evening after i've been talking to amy... she makes me feel happy, she makes me laugh and smile and feel good about myself, so when she's gone i crash back down to being alone in my old room in my parents' attic with the pressures and worries about the next day flooding back in too, and my guard just ups and gives in for a while, longing for her turning to needing her, turning to being sad and lonely without her. sometimes all i want to do is sleep and get rid of the misery, sometimes (like tonight) i just want to let it all out and not wake up tomorrow (though i would hate that cos i'd never see amy! :eek: ). sorry about posting miserable stuff like this but i need to vent somewhere and glitz is away for a day or two... (you can now envy the kinds of conversations we have... i don't know how she puts up with me :p and my self-centredness :()


Yikes, I know what that's like. I spend so long on the internet, that I build up what I consider to be really deep and complex relationships - the kind that make my day better just by them signing in. Which of course only means that when they're NOT around, my day is noticably worse. A lot of people might consider that sad, but I can't bring myself to care about that.

For me, it's getting nasty now that I'm taking hormones. Emotions like that are becoming harder to control.

Studied for a test that I got a B+ in. Still thought I was robbed. And spending time with my friends shopping and swimming. One of my friends has an indoor pool :D

sounds fun.... although you then have the dreaded wet hair in freezing temps outside... What kind of test?

Some people got quiet. Is kreitzmoorland still awake??

Studied for a test that I got a B+ in. Still thought I was robbed. And spending time with my friends shopping and swimming. One of my friends has an indoor pool :D

What class? College or otherwise? I've got an Anat/Phys quiz on Monday Morning *dread* .. Good Job!!

she makes me feel happy, she makes me laugh and smile and feel good about myself, so when she's gone i crash back down to being alone in my old room in my parents' attic with the pressures and worries about the next day flooding back in too, and my guard just ups and gives in for a while, longing for her turning to needing her, turning to being sad and lonely without her.
I can totally relate. Especially the thing about "your old room in your parent's attic" seems familar; not literally, of course, but I definitely have been at a place in my life where it was very important to change outer circumstances in order to get away from inner things that were dragging me down. I didn't even realize how important, until a family emergency made me fly back home a mere 4 weeks after I'd left for a year in the US - I was sitting in the plane crying because everything in me screamed "No! I don't want to go back! This is not how it's supposed to be. Things are supposed to change, and if I go back, they won't!". And that was when I knew I would return after only a couple of days - so much for being a drama queen... Seriously though, I usually keep my emotions bottled up so thoroughly that any internal outburst like that makes quite an impression on me.
Of course, I'm just blabbing about myself again here... Nothing of this is to say that you're in the same situation.

sorry about posting miserable stuff like this but i need to vent somewhere and glitz is away for a day or two... (you can now envy the kinds of conversations we have... i don't know how she puts up with me :p and my self-centredness :()
Um, this is your thread, you can post whatever you want. Look at my ramblings, it can hardly get any more random. Also, I don't think you're self-centered.
I for one was very glad that thread was here tonight when I needed it, instead of just 10 new political rants.

something like that mate.

Me shiela went out without me.

never trust a sheila, they usuallly tend to be playing you the raw prawn.

christ, i've watched about 20 years of Neighbours and Home and Away and i still can't grasp the vernacular ;)

How am I feeling? Well, I'm not too sure at the moment...

sounds fun.... although you then have the dreaded wet hair in freezing temps outside... What kind of test?

Not a problem! I dry my hair really well :D

As for the test, it was a math test. I still think she misplaced a decimal point. *throws a paper ball at her backpack*

Some people got quiet. Is kreitzmoorland still awake??

That I cannot answer :D

never trust a sheila, they usuallly tend to be playing you the raw prawn.

Hmmm.. I don't doubt this. However, we're, some of us, pretty f*cking cool.

I can totally relate. Especially the thing about "your old room in your parent's attic" seems familar; not literally, of course, but I definitely have been at a place in my life where it was very important to change outer circumstances in order to get away from inner things that were dragging me down. I didn't even realize how important, until a family emergency made me fly back home a mere 4 weeks after I'd left for a year in the US - I was sitting in the plane crying because everything in me screamed "No! I don't want to go back! This is not how it's supposed to be. Things are supposed to change, and if I go back, they won't!". And that was when I knew I would return after only a couple of days - so much for being a drama queen... Seriously though, I usually keep my emotions bottled up so thoroughly that any internal outburst like that makes quite an impression on me.
Of course, I'm just blabbing about myself again here... Nothing of this is to say that you're in the same situation.


Um, this is your thread, you can post whatever you want. Look at my ramblings, it can hardly get any more random. Also, I don't think you're self-centered.
I for one was very glad that thread was here tonight when I needed it, instead of just 10 new political rants.

I'm sitting here in my wonderful house, with a very affectionate cat purring on my lap (she's very affectionate when i am either stoned or drunk, bless her...she's the ex's and she prefers me to the ex, which i'm sure adds to the ex's behaviour) and i'm just thinking about the attic in the parental home, where i lived for six years, and how it was always safe and warm and the sun would rise and i didn't have a blind over the skylight so i would wake, happily, at dawn.

You know, getting your own place has a lot of good things to be said about it...but a very large part of me would never have left the 'rents home.

How is it WesternPA and I have both been around for a while, but never spoken?? Its weird when 2 paths cross after a long time... So what else is in PA?? Looking forward to a superbowl????

Eh, i'm good. Got a 21st party to go to tonight.

Hmmm.. I don't doubt this. However, we're, some of us, pretty f*cking cool.

I'm very sure you are. In fact, i live in hope that a large portion of you are, given i'm not particularly attracted to men in any shape or form (sorry chaps in the South Wales area looking for HOT INTRAWEB ACTION)...you know the only people who are more complimentary to women than other women are men.

How is it WesternPA and I have both been around for a while, but never spoken?? Its weird when 2 paths cross after a long time... So what else is in PA?? Looking forward to a superbowl????

Crossed paths. Well, I lived in PA for two years. Chew on that one. :)

How is it WesternPA and I have both been around for a while, but never spoken?? Its weird when 2 paths cross after a long time... So what else is in PA?? Looking forward to a superbowl????

Ya know? I really do not care much about football but I love being a cheerleader? LOL!!! I watch that game for the commercials! Gotta see what new goodies are coming out to the market.

I just love shopping :D

Crossed paths. Well, I lived in PA for two years. Chew on that one. :)

I was born and raised here :D

I'm very sure you are. In fact, i live in hope that a large portion of you are, given i'm not particularly attracted to men in any shape or form (sorry chaps in the South Wales area looking for HOT INTRAWEB ACTION)...you know the only people who are more complimentary to women than other women are men.

A large portion of us aren't. But some are. As with you men. I assume some of you are cool, although I've had no luck myself at age 28. But I'm sure that I'll find my "complementary" some day.. :)

Ya know? I really do not care much about football but I love being a cheerleader? LOL!!! I watch that game for the commercials! Gotta see what new goodies are coming out to the market.

I just love shopping :D

Watch it for the game, damnit. Cheer for our beloved Steelers.

I may not be from PA, but I like it enough. :p

I was born and raised here :D

I lived in Chester Springs when i was 12-14. It sucked ass. Everyone was either horsey or a total prick. Not you, obviously. Just where I lived. *out in the country*

I actually just did & was going to answer - when I saw it earlier it was still under construction, hee...

To get to the point: what a bitch. There, I said it.

She's annoying the heck out of me just by reading this, so I can totally understand if you have an urge to strangle her. Or, well, tell her off.

Yeah, not very satisfactory, I know.

Maybe not a solution, but it's extremely satisfying to have someone else empathize with my annoyance. I DO feel like strangling her. Or at least slapping her, and/or kicking her, and telling her to shut up and get out.

A'course, I can't do that. And the worst of it is she's 30. You might expect that behavior from a bratty 14 year old, but a 30 year old? What gets me is her parents are both great. And her brothers are wonderful. And her twin sister is only slightly neurotic, but in largely non-obnoxious ways. It's just her. But she makes up enough irritation for all of them.

Watch it for the game, damnit. Cheer for our beloved Steelers.

I may not be from PA, but I like it enough. :p

Giggling

I'm a shopper so I can't help it :D

I'll try to watch the game for the game though just for you Potarius.

And watch your language around me please :D

I lived in Chester Springs when i was 12-14. It sucked ass. Everyone was either horsey or a total prick. Not you, obviously. Just where I lived. *out in the country*

Out in the country, eh? I lived in such a place in the "fair state of Texas". "Magnolia" is the name of the general area, and my god, the people there are despicable.

I couldn't stand the public school. The kids were so dumb and inbred, and they had weird hick accents (kids with hick accents... who'd've thought?). Ugh, and the cowboy boots...

And watch your language around me please :D

Aw, fuck.

IRRELEVANCE


What the hell? PotarIUS? I don't understand...

Aw, fuck.

:( your depressing me :(

:D

What the hell? PotarIUS? I don't understand...

YOU'RE irrelevant! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!

*runs out of the room crying*

Giggling

I'm a shopper so I can't help it :D

I'll try to watch the game for the game though just for you Potarius.

And watch your language around me please :D

*peers intently at the lauguage* wow, that gets boring fast.

I went to college out between Pittsburgh and Erie. I wouldn't choose to live there permanently if I could get out of it.

Still, go Steelers!

I'm sitting in a beanbag naked eating Cheetos.


Eeeewww... Don't you stick to the bean bag???

YOU'RE irrelevant! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!

*runs out of the room crying*

which means *wanna fuck?* .. ooops.. my language.

*peers intently at the lauguage* wow, that gets boring fast.

I went to college out between Pittsburgh and Erie. I wouldn't choose to live there permanently if I could get out of it.

Still, go Steelers!

Sucks, doesn't it? A friend of my dad lived in Pitt back in the 50's when he played for the Steelers (Gilbert "Buddy" Dial, who lives just blocks from my house). He said it was a great place to live... Now, not so much. It's got some of its character intact, but the fall of the steel industry pretty much offed it.

which means *wanna fuck?* .. ooops.. my language.

LMAO!

*peers intently at the lauguage* wow, that gets boring fast.

I went to college out between Pittsburgh and Erie. I wouldn't choose to live there permanently if I could get out of it.

Still, go Steelers!

Edinboro? Geneva?

I love it here.

Edinboro? Geneva?

I love it here.

Grove City, actually. At least you didn't suggest Slimy Pebble.

So...it's not superbowl talk, and it's also not some random girl i randomly dislike, but...

This weekend kinda sucks.

Next weekend will suck beyond words, because I'm a girl without a Valentine and all these problems with this one particular boy, so I guess I really shouldn't complain, but I'm a girl. It's what I do.

I could go on for hours about my situation, but you'd all want to stab me, so I'll spare you.

Hope your weekends are all better than mine.

So...it's not superbowl talk, and it's also not some random girl i randomly dislike, but...

This weekend kinda sucks.

Next weekend will suck beyond words, because I'm a girl without a Valentine and all these problems with this one particular boy, so I guess I really shouldn't complain, but I'm a girl. It's what I do.

I could go on for hours about my situation, but you'd all want to stab me, so I'll spare you.

Hope your weekends are all better than mine.

I'm a guy, and I complain all too often. Nyah.

Im a girl. I complain myself.

As for a boyfriend, yea I have one of those. He's treating me to a dinner on Valentines day :D

Im a girl. I complain myself.

As for a boyfriend, yea I have one of those. He's treating me to a dinner on Valentines day :D

LUCKY BITCH !! !! !!

LUCKY BITCH !! !! !!

*falls into a state of silence because she became speechless at the last word*

*falls into a state of silence because she became speechless at the last word*

You're funny. Well, I'm a bitch, too.. you're just a _Lucky_ B. :p

You're funny. Well, I'm a bitch, too.. you're just a _Lucky_ B. :p

Giggling.

don't know where my bf is taking me though. That is driving me nuts.

Giggling. don't know where my bf is taking me though. That is driving me nuts.

Stupid B.. who cares? :fluffle:

Stupid B.. who cares? :fluffle:

Well I actually care. :D

Well I actually care. :D

Well then you're stupid. :gundge:

Giggling.

don't know where my bf is taking me though. That is driving me nuts.

Oh, how TERRIBLE. I mean, he's got a big surprise planned for you, and will do his best to make it a nice night. It must be horrible for you.

I don't like valentines day. If I remember, I'll wear black, in protest. Not to say I won't like it if my husband decides to buy me some chocolate or something, but I won't be upset if he doesn't. I might even like it better if he goes and buys twice as much at half price the next day when they're selling off all the extra valentines day stuff.

Well I actually care. :D

On sort of a personal note, is this boyfriend the potential father of one baby?

Just curious...

It's awesome that the two of you have plans. I still need to make a reservation for my wife and I somewhere. Guess I better get going on that..

Well then you're stupid. :gundge:


That wasn't so friendly...... Lighten up on the girl...

On sort of a personal note, is this boyfriend the potential father of one baby?

Just curious...

It's awesome that the two of you have plans. I still need to make a reservation for my wife and I somewhere. Guess I better get going on that..

Yes he is the father. And yes it is awsome.

Jewish? I am not stupid. Right now, I wouldn't get me going.

Yes he is the father. And yes it is awsome.

Jewish? I am not stupid. Right now, I wouldn't get me going.

Ignore the rude comment, everyone has their days..... Just think, no matter what he is doing for you on valentines day, it is the thought that counts, I am sure it will be lots of fun..

Gotta go, work is almost over. It's nice to meet you.....

Good night all...

That wasn't so friendly...... Lighten up on the girl...

In Context, it was totally cool. If it wasn't, I wish she would tell me. But I think she and I are cool like that? :D

Ignore the rude comment, everyone has their days..... Just think, no matter what he is doing for you on valentines day, it is the thought that counts, I am sure it will be lots of fun..

Gotta go, work is almost over. It's nice to meet you.....

Good night all...

Good night. Feel free to look me up :) I think that is what that little telegram thing is for :D

Yes he is the father. And yes it is awsome.

Jewish? I am not stupid. Right now, I wouldn't get me going.

The father! I am so thrilled for you. !!!
You think I was actually serious? How little you know me. I apologize. I'm very excited for you. Awesome news!

WesternPA: I am merely jealous and letting it out into the air. I don't think you're stupid. Jeez oh petes! I'm happy for you!

The father! I am so thrilled for you. !!!
You think I was actually serious? How little you know me. I apologize. I'm very excited for you. Awesome news!

Yea. He and I have been both been praying together for answers.

I'm training on repairs. A friend got me a cool position. Man I'm happy.

WesternPA: I am merely jealous and letting it out into the air. I don't think you're stupid. Jeez oh petes! I'm happy for you!

Relax. I have a tendency to take things seriously and I do get extremely emotional and it interfers with my judgment sometimes :D

Relax. I have a tendency to take things seriously and I do get extremely emotional and it interfers with my judgment sometimes :D

Praying for answers. How old are you, my dear? I get emotional, also. And I'm sure hormones have a lot to do with it (for both of us). If it makes you feel better, I'm 28 and have no kids.

Praying for answers. How old are you, my dear? I get emotional, also. And I'm sure hormones have a lot to do with it (for both of us). If it makes you feel better, I'm 28 and have no kids.

If its all the same to you, I'd rather not reveal my age.

If its all the same to you, I'd rather not reveal my age.

It's okay. If it's all the same to you. I had an abortion when I was 18. I don't know if I should have. But I did. Anyway, I hope you're going to be okay. I've never been the same since I was pregnant. Ever since I've craved children like a drug. It's very odd. Some day soon I hope I'll meet the guy. I truly hope you love your man.

It's okay. If it's all the same to you. I had an abortion when I was 18. I don't know if I should have. But I did. Anyway, I hope you're going to be okay. I've never been the same since I was pregnant. Ever since I've craved children like a drug. It's very odd. Some day soon I hope I'll meet the guy. I truly hope you love your man.

I actually do love him and he also loves me in return. Just don't know what we're both going to do yet.

I actually do love him and he also loves me in return. Just don't know what we're both going to do yet.

Anything.. *anything*.. can be accomplished through love. Remember that, trust in that. I wish you luck and you're in my thoughts.

Anything.. *anything*.. can be accomplished through love. Remember that, trust in that. I wish you luck and you're in my thoughts.

I know and thanks :)

I'm just glad that he is with me. I wish he was here now.

I actually do love him and he also loves me in return. Just don't know what we're both going to do yet.

Not saying you should necessarily do it yourself, but my husband's grandmother got married at 16, and it worked out for her. It's not impossible - and it's only in the last hundred years it's even thought of as odd.

Not saying you should necessarily do it yourself, but my husband's grandmother got married at 16, and it worked out for her. It's not impossible - and it's only in the last hundred years it's even thought of as odd.

Thanks Qwystyria.

Now ladies and gentlemen, I am off to bed. I need my sleep.

Anything.. *anything*.. can be accomplished through love. Remember that, trust in that. I wish you luck and you're in my thoughts.

Well, anything bar making "Will and Grace" watchable, anyway.

Yikes, I know what that's like. I spend so long on the internet, that I build up what I consider to be really deep and complex relationships - the kind that make my day better just by them signing in. Which of course only means that when they're NOT around, my day is noticably worse. A lot of people might consider that sad, but I can't bring myself to care about that.

For me, it's getting nasty now that I'm taking hormones. Emotions like that are becoming harder to control.
quite. personally i don't consider it sad: just because you are communicating with text over the interweb doesn't mean the emotions, the reltaionships or even the communication itself is any less real, or intrinsically - as some people seem to assume - going to be any less intense or mean less to you than RL relationships of whatever sort.

good luck with the hormone treatment :S

I can totally relate. Especially the thing about "your old room in your parent's attic" seems familar; not literally, of course, but I definitely have been at a place in my life where it was very important to change outer circumstances in order to get away from inner things that were dragging me down. I didn't even realize how important, until a family emergency made me fly back home a mere 4 weeks after I'd left for a year in the US - I was sitting in the plane crying because everything in me screamed "No! I don't want to go back! This is not how it's supposed to be. Things are supposed to change, and if I go back, they won't!". And that was when I knew I would return after only a couple of days - so much for being a drama queen... Seriously though, I usually keep my emotions bottled up so thoroughly that any internal outburst like that makes quite an impression on me.
Of course, I'm just blabbing about myself again here... Nothing of this is to say that you're in the same situation.

well actually, not quite the same situation, but i can relate. i left uni because of the people there, my 'friends', depression, all sorts of stuff... and i avoid going back to cardiff like the plague. i get intensely aggressive and defensive whenever the idea of going to cardiff, for whatever reason, pops up or the notion of going to see my friends there (who i have now lost all contact with after having known some of them for about 9 years :(). so i can relate to that... if i were to sit in the car going back there you can bet i'd feel miserable enough to cry with all the old thoughts and memories coming back. so, i can relate :fluffle:
what was the upshot of all that though? i bet it wasn't as bad as you thought on the plane *nods*

problem for me is i hate the "old room at my parents place" too. well, i don't hate it but i'm lonely and i don't have contact with anyone outside the family for weeks on end, let alone anyone my own age for months on end. kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place because i can't go back to uni (couldn't deal with it again) and certainly not cardiff uni, but i know there's got to be something better out there than doing a job i really don't care about and half the time can't stand and being totally reliant on my parents at the age of 20.
ah i'm rambling now

Um, this is your thread, you can post whatever you want. Look at my ramblings, it can hardly get any more random. Also, I don't think you're self-centered.
I for one was very glad that thread was here tonight when I needed it, instead of just 10 new political rants.
hahah good point... i'm so used to hijacking other people's threads i don't even realise when they're mine :p
this thread sure has been a good place for people to let off steam and talk about things on their mind... i like that :)

I'm sitting here in my wonderful house, with a very affectionate cat purring on my lap (she's very affectionate when i am either stoned or drunk, bless her...she's the ex's and she prefers me to the ex, which i'm sure adds to the ex's behaviour) and i'm just thinking about the attic in the parental home, where i lived for six years, and how it was always safe and warm and the sun would rise and i didn't have a blind over the skylight so i would wake, happily, at dawn.

You know, getting your own place has a lot of good things to be said about it...but a very large part of me would never have left the 'rents home.
quite... much as i don't like what i'm doing here or the fact that i am still here at 20, going on 21, it is comfortable and safe... this is why i ran away from uni back to here when i couldn't take it any more. part of me knows that its time to move on, but another part of me knows i won't have it this good again - in some respects - for many, many years to go, but i can't stay here...

and i miss my cat, too :(

Alive

Quite good actually, although the fact that I'm back at TAFE this coming week is a bit of a dampener (Thursday is going to be shocking - from 9am - 10pm. Ouch).

Monday's a night class, thank goodness.

im going to the darkness yuh!!!!!

Restarted my other online addiction - eBAY.
Won something today - $US 15.52 + 2 postage

Restarted my other online addiction - eBAY.
Won something today - $US 15.52 + 2 postage

Sweet. Congratulations :)

Sweet. Congratulations :)

Hehe :D

Buy mostly from USA. UK postage is ridiculously high, but Europe isn't too bad. I never get stuff from South America or Asia, can't trust the postage system over there.

Hehe :D

Buy mostly from USA. UK postage is ridiculously high, but Europe isn't too bad. I never get stuff from South America or Asia, can't trust the postage system over there.

Ok! I'l take that underadvisement if I ever do ebay.

feeling sick with myself today

feeling sick with myself today

I hope you feel better soon Pure Metal.

I hope you feel better soon Pure Metal.
gonna go back to bed till it goes away

thank you

feeling sick with myself today

I had chickenpox early in 2006 (not great way to start 2006). Still got the scars. Almost back to normal now.

gonna go back to bed till it goes away

thank you

Your welcome. :)

I had chickenpox early in 2006 (not great way to start 2006). Still got the scars. Almost back to normal now.
not that kind of sick; sick of myself, sick of being myself
sleeping will help. when i wake up it'll be gone. usually is

not that kind of sick; sick of myself, sick of being myself
sleeping will help. when i wake up it'll be gone. usually is

You can only change yourself. And if you get sick of your new self, change again back to your old self. :)

uh..halo..im okay i guess..just hanging around..well..this is my first message in this forum place..i hope it works:) ...if not..well then =>:headbang: ..hehe lol

you, yeah... you, it's the end of the week and its time for the weekend and (supposedly... for most people:rolleyes: ) some well earned time off. so, have a good week? how you feeling about things? wanna rant about anything in general? feel free to do so here :)

Week was okay, a bit stressy at work. And yours ? ;)

I'm about to go to hand out some political flyers (our evil right-wing mayor wants to destroy 250 social housing apartments and kick out the families living in them :'( ), and then to do some shopping for my trip to germany next week (I go to visit a very dear friend of mine and her son (awww he's so lovely, he melted my heart) ). And then I'll go to friends for the evening, playing some role-playing game probably. A nice usual week-end for me :)

me, i'm still eating popcorn and feeling lonely as hell - hence why i started this thread even though its kinda spammy... i need to talk to someone :(

Oh :( you can't speak with her ? phone or irc or icq or whatever ?

Btw, IRC is a good way to avoid feeling too lonely even for a shy single geek like me ;)

Well i was ok until i saw the posts about valentines day, reminding me im still single.:(

Well i was ok until i saw the posts about valentines day, reminding me im still single.:(

Its ok Tetict! You'll find that special someone :)

Its ok Tetict! You'll find that special someone :)

Had her,but didnt tell her i liked her till it was too late and we entered the "friend zone".

Had her,but didnt tell her i liked her till it was too late and we entered the "friend zone".

*hits you upside the head*

When will men learn? :D

Week was okay, a bit stressy at work. And yours ? ;)

I'm about to go to hand out some political flyers (our evil right-wing mayor wants to destroy 250 social housing apartments and kick out the families living in them :'( ), and then to do some shopping for my trip to germany next week (I go to visit a very dear friend of mine and her son (awww he's so lovely, he melted my heart) ). And then I'll go to friends for the evening, playing some role-playing game probably. A nice usual week-end for me :)
good for you - kick that right-wing ass ;)
and my week was stessful and crap, and utterly unfulfilling, as will be next week


Oh :( you can't speak with her ? phone or irc or icq or whatever ?

Btw, IRC is a good way to avoid feeling too lonely even for a shy single geek like me ;)
usually talk on msn but she's away seeing freinds this weekend. texted her a bit but its not the same

IRC scares me :P

You can only change yourself. And if you get sick of your new self, change again back to your old self. :)
what if you don't know what you want to be?
and you never really liked yourself to change back into?

It has been yet another week of school. This week, instead of the usual, incredibly boring stuff, I was working on a project, which I will continue wokring on the following week. The project is an evil P.O.S. of a game which I am writing in Java. (heck, Evil is part of it's name) It was, unlike the way it usually is, not too boring. And I wasn't exposed to much of the mindless babble, shouts and other noises of useless morons (of which I have a steadily increasing desire to kill).

I think I will remember an unusual amount of details from these two weeks; typically, after a month or so, every week at school is greatly blurred out in my memory, and I only remember a few, random details here and there and an overall impression. Years back, I remember even less details. I could probably count the vivid memory fragments I have left from each of the previous school years. In a sense, life won't truly begin until after school, that's for sure. Hopefully, it will be worth living.

As for my freetime, I remember much more of it than school, but still, the school years probably will largely be a large hole in my memory. This week, I have worked on some of my freetime projects, which largely are what brings me joy. I have begun working on a fork of the FLTK GUI-library, which I will call FLPTK. Assuming I manage to do what is needed to get it working for making GUIs of my set of DSP plugins, (which I am converting to a little framework I have done, so that by changing a single #define I can get them to compile into either a VST plugin, or a Winamp plugin) something that would truly be a nightmare with the original FLTK, as each plugin will have a separate GUI being updated in a separate thread, leading to pretty nasty problems, I might release it sometime in the future, together with my set of plugins. (otherwise, I will have to think of another cross-platform, cross-plugin-format GUI solution)

I have also been getting angrier lately. My emotions, particularly anger, were weakened (to the point were I didn't feel anything) during a period of depression before. I posted about it here, a long time ago. They have gradually recovered, since. As for what I am angry about, the answer is: humanity, human stupidity, and morons. I am attempting to gradually get rid of as much human stupidity as possible. Being human, it would be impossible to get rid of it all, but I am making quite a bit of progress. The rest of humanity doesn't, however. Most of humanity is unbearably stupid.

Humanity is my main problem, and my largest enemy. One of the single most wonderful things imagineable is the complete destruction of it. Unless humanity changes drastically, I hope for the quickest possible eradication of it. Hopefully within my lifetime. I doubt I could stand dying, knowing that human stupidity would live on. Not that it would matter once I had died. *ends this rant before it gets too derailed, too incoherent, and too messed up*

On a sidenote; laugh maniacally. Not only is it good for you, but 'tis also HOLY! MWAHahhAHAHHAhHahAHhhAHAHAHAA!!1!

School.... Making...... Me...... Insane..... I Suppose You've All Heard My Rants About The Unintelligence At My School. I'm Hating School Because Of It. I Doubt It'll Get Better Once I Get Into High School. Maybe People 'll Fear Me Cause I'm In ROTC? Maybe...

so, have a good week? how you feeling about things? wanna rant about anything in general? feel free to do so here
Friday night, went to a poetry reading.
Woke up on today to an empty house where I crashed at.
Took bus home, found out everyone was going to get souped up.
I decided to stay home. I don't need any people with the capabilities to black mail me in the same house!

Ranting in general...nä...other than that those kids that run around the pool are freakin' idiots. I've had three cracked skull's too many on my watch. I wish they'd listen to me when I told them to "Stoppa!"

School.... Making...... Me...... Insane..... I Suppose You've All Heard My Rants About The Unintelligence At My School. I'm Hating School Because Of It. I Doubt It'll Get Better Once I Get Into High School. Maybe People 'll Fear Me Cause I'm In ROTC? Maybe...

I highly doubt it. I just put up with it. Don't show them how smart you are.

I'm just setting up the new PC I ordered earlier.

OMFG it is the sex. :eek:

I specially went for a spec optimised for my game of choice, and oh man. Now there's twelve hundred quid well spent. I am sooo going to own noobs with this setup.

I'm just setting up the new PC I ordered earlier.

OMFG it is the sex. :eek:

I specially went for a spec optimised for my game of choice, and oh man. Now there's twelve hundred quid well spent. I am sooo going to own noobs with this setup.
EVE?

Well i was ok until i saw the posts about valentines day, reminding me im still single.:(

Bloody hell. I hate V Day. It is soooo depressing.

Bloody hell. I hate V Day. It is soooo depressing.

No need to hate V day JMC! It doesn't have to be depressing. Treat yourself :D

No need to hate V day JMC! It doesn't have to be depressing. Treat yourself :D
I do that daily nightly and ever so rightly

Had her,but didnt tell her i liked her till it was too late and we entered the "friend zone".
ouch, however I think I just did the same

EVE?
Yes. EVE is extremely memory-intensive.

I just saw Brokeback Mountain tonight and finished readind "I, Lucifer" last night so I am pretty darn well I have to say.

I just saw Brokeback Mountain tonight and finished readind "I, Lucifer" last night so I am pretty darn well I have to say.

Well, if that turns you on.

you, yeah... you, it's the end of the week and its time for the weekend and (supposedly... for most people:rolleyes: ) some well earned time off. so, have a good week? how you feeling about things? wanna rant about anything in general? feel free to do so here :)

me, i'm still eating popcorn and feeling lonely as hell - hence why i started this thread even though its kinda spammy... i need to talk to someone :(

Me? Right now? Terribly horny and rather alone. :(
Ah well, as long as my batteries don't leave me...

Well, if that turns you on.


Heath and Jake in cowboy hats plus a novel thats thought provoking and cleverly written? absolutely.

I just saw Brokeback Mountain tonight
Figures. Even the Aussies have seen it already and here it's not even released. :rolleyes:
Btw *shamelessly using this opportunity* have you heard anything good about "Candy", that new Australian movie with Abbie Cornish & Heath Ledger? It'll be in the film festival here next week & I'm thinking about going.

Figures. Even the Aussies have seen it already and here it's not even released. :rolleyes:
Btw *shamelessly using this opportunity* have you heard anything good about "Candy", that new Australian movie with Abbie Cornish & Heath Ledger? It'll be in the film festival here next week & I'm thinking about going.

No I havent, but thanks for the heads up....I will be there with bells on when it comes to theater.

No I havent, but thanks for the heads up....I will be there with bells on when it comes to theater.
Aw, damn. It sounds terribly depressing (two lovers going on heroin and, well, staying there, I guess...) but Australian movies tend to be good, plus - hello - it has Heath Ledger. And it's the world premiere, so he might (that's a big might) even take a day off the Oscar promotion circus and come here. Meaning I'd actually watch it *with* him.

No need to hate V day JMC! It doesn't have to be depressing. Treat yourself :D

That's V-Day for ya. Getting advice from people who have someone. / Only problem is if I treat myself I'll be fully aware that it's me and not a man. *uggg* The only solution is to get fuck drunk and pass out. :p

That's V-Day for ya. Getting advice from people who have someone. / Only problem is if I treat myself I'll be fully aware that it's me and not a man. *uggg* The only solution is to get fuck drunk and pass out. :p

I hope you don't do that. Don't want nothing bad to hapen to ya :)

I hope you don't do that. Don't want nothing bad to hapen to ya :)

No, I know ;) .. I AM very positive. It's just V-Day is a collective reminder of how not-hooked-up I am. I'm sure I'll find someone soon. Soonish. *I hope so gosh darnit* :D

No, I know ;) .. I AM very positive. It's just V-Day is a collective reminder of how not-hooked-up I am. I'm sure I'll find someone soon. Soonish. *I hope so gosh darnit* :D

giggles.

I'm sure you will Jewish Media Control :)

I have faith that you will. I'm just lucky to have a guy right now.

No, I know ;) .. I AM very positive. It's just V-Day is a collective reminder of how not-hooked-up I am. I'm sure I'll find someone soon. Soonish. *I hope so gosh darnit* :D

Ah, for me to be 15 years older, eh?

Ah, for me to be 15 years older, eh?

6 years would do it for me. DAMN. I WISH YOU WERE OLDER !! :D

That's V-Day for ya. Getting advice from people who have someone. / Only problem is if I treat myself I'll be fully aware that it's me and not a man. *uggg* The only solution is to get fuck drunk and pass out. :p
now theres an idea

now theres an idea

Thought it up all by myself. :) It's the cure. ((I'm not convinced))

Thought it up all by myself. :) It's the cure. ((I'm not convinced))
the cause and solution to all of lifes problems

the cause and solution to all of lifes problems

Look on the bright side, tomorrow is a new day and if you manage not to get totally fucking drunk, then maybe you might have a good one.......or maybe not, im really just guessing here.

Good thank you my cold has almost gone all but a sniff and a funny voice

Pretty shit. Me and my gf of 9 months are nearly over. We went to a party tonight and it sucked. However, we might work things out, I dunno. Apart from that, not too bad I guess. I'm tired and have a sunburnt nose though.

Pretty shit. Me and my gf of 9 months are nearly over. We went to a party tonight and it sucked. However, we might work things out, I dunno. Apart from that, not too bad I guess. I'm tired and have a sunburnt nose though.
sorry to hear that :(

Hey PM. My PC owns. I'm using it right now.

sorry to hear that :(
It's ok. She danced with my mate after I left the party. Now, before I get shouted out for over-reacting, I'd just like to let you know that in 9 months she refuses to dance properly with me at a party unless we're alone lol. That was just the thing that annoyed me most.. Were a range of other things, but meh hehe. It isn't too bad.

Dependant really, Thrice last night was a much appreciated relief from suburbia and all the mitigations of my life, but still raised more preoblems than it solved...

I need to think upon things less.

I have spent the last five hours in bed considering what a crappy, pointless and boring life I have. I rounded it off with thinking about how many people like me, and I came up with a number which can never be divided. So not too good, I guess.

H a p p y :)

Hey PM. My PC owns. I'm using it right now.
OMFG!11! :p

sweet dude :P

go own some noobs *nods* ;)



It's ok. She danced with my mate after I left the party. Now, before I get shouted out for over-reacting, I'd just like to let you know that in 9 months she refuses to dance properly with me at a party unless we're alone lol. That was just the thing that annoyed me most.. Were a range of other things, but meh hehe. It isn't too bad.
hmm yeah i was about to say "wtf? just dancing??" but that is kind of unfair to say the least :S

but before you go all angry on her and get all dump-y, just ask her why? (maybe its cos you're an awful dancer lol.... or maybe such a good dancer she feels intimidated by dancing with you... ask her why she danced with that other guy. i know you probably will cos you're not stupid, but it had to be said)

I had like some kind of freaky allergic reaction, and now i'm entirely covered in red bumps from my neck to my ankles.....

weird.

I have spent the last five hours in bed considering what a crappy, pointless and boring life I have. I rounded it off with thinking about how many people like me, and I came up with a number which can never be divided. So not too good, I guess.
oh i know what thats like... been there :(
1. you're not alone, 2. people probably do like you, and 3. if you want to talk about anything i can TG you my msn addy :)

oh i know what thats like... been there :(
1. you're not alone, 2. people probably do like you, and 3. if you want to talk about anything i can TG you my msn addy :)
I'm not disliked, but I'm not exactly anyones favourite either. My best friend wont answer my calls, and the rest of my friends (all two of them) told me to get lost and quit bothering them the day before yesterday. It's hard to feel liked when people do that...

I'm not disliked, but I'm not exactly anyones favourite either. My best friend wont answer my calls, and the rest of my friends (all two of them) told me to get lost and quit bothering them the day before yesterday. It's hard to feel liked when people do that...

Probably not my place, or entirely helpful, but ow.:(

Seriously, leave it to cool off for a little, maybe a few days, and, since I assume you are still in education, approach them there an ask why, or make new friends.

I'm not disliked, but I'm not exactly anyones favourite either. My best friend wont answer my calls, and the rest of my friends (all two of them) told me to get lost and quit bothering them the day before yesterday. It's hard to feel liked when people do that...
hmmm yeah :(
my friends have pretty much severed contact with me, so i kinda know what its like. wish i had some advice or way to help but the only advice i can give is to not think about it: go distract yourself for a while and do something "fun"... watch a movie or something, have some laughs. almost anything is better than lying in bed feeling miserable (even though it feels better at the time)

I have also recently been going through a long time of thinking about my dog who died (read: my parents had killed) in august last year. I had had him for 12 years... Basically a very low time, even for me.

I have also recently been going through a long time of thinking about my dog who died (read: my parents had killed) in august last year. I had had him for 12 years... Basically a very low time, even for me.
:fluffle:

:fluffle:
Thanks, I needed that.

I'm not having a very good morning.

I'm not having a very good morning.
If you dont mind talking to someone you dont know i'd like to know about your bad morning.

If you dont mind talking to someone you dont know i'd like to know about your bad morning.

I've spent more time in the bathroom than I have with my family.

*sighs* I guess I should've expected it though!

I've spent more time in the bathroom than I have with my family.


Why?

Why?

Because I'm pregnant!

Because I'm pregnant!
Ahh right, hope its not as rough is it sounds. (Im male so wouldnt know).

Ahh right, hope its not as rough is it sounds. (Im male so wouldnt know).

It can be at times. Luckily it isn't so bad now.

It can be at times. Luckily it isn't so bad now.
Well i hope it passes soon and i know its probably a bit late but congrats on the baby.

Well i hope it passes soon and i know its probably a bit late but congrats on the baby.

Thanks.