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This is my problem. Since I was about twelve I’ve been experiencing something that I find slightly disturbing. A voice talks to me. He’s never said anything negative to me so I’m not too worried about his presence. He’s been very reassuring to me in the past and always tells me the right thing to do (though I don’t always listen). My thoughts have also been very broken and don’t connect when I explain them to other people but they make plenty of sense to me. I also tend to get into conversations with my voice and basically can’t really decipher what’s real and what’s not. The is not very disturbing at the time when it’s happening but people often ask me why I said something during those times that I don’t really remember saying. Some of my friends see me zone out and think it is funny to hit me on the head which upsets me and causes the voice to talk more. I have also become slightly paranoid in the past year. When I see something out of the corner of my eye I will often take as a threat and panic though it’s often a shadow. For the first year I had the voice he had suggested that I refrain from talking about him so I did. Then he became aware of how much it bothered me so he told me it was fine for me to talk about him if it would relax me but it did the opposite. People took it as a joke so I’d play along so they wouldn’t think poorly of me. When I began to think about suicide he would calmly talk me out of it for as long as it took. These talks would interfere with school quiet often though they don’t happen anymore. The voice remains quiet when I’m working hard on something or if I get upset with his “angel like” attitude toward thing. He has never been quiet for more than a day. I decided to get help for my suicidal thoughts because of his advice. While I was filling out the form it asked if I had been hearing voices. I was inclined to put yes but my mother told me that I better not be hearing voices as a joke but I took it seriously and put no. About three weeks ago something changed in a bad way. A new separate voice began to speak to me but this one is negative. It keeps telling me I’m worth nothing and such. My positive voice tells me not to listen but he seems to be getting over powered very slowly by the one I don’t want. I don’t know how long I can keep telling myself that the negative one is just lying to me. My mother and father have been getting upset with me over my grades and this is often due to the voices, even the positive one. I’m afraid to tell them about this because they would think I’m making stuff up or trying to get away with failing. I’m also afraid that if my sister found out she’d be scared and I don’t want any of those to happen. What do I do?

I need serious awnsers. No jokes please.

How do I tell my parents?

This sounds like textbook schizophrenia. Have it checked out by a psychiatrist.

it could be hormonal. it could be emotional. it could be something else. my advice is to seek medical advice if this is actually serious and not just an opportunity for you to be dramatic and me to get a post+1.

Definitly schizophrenia.

i dont know if i should be blunt or not, but this is a sign of schizophrenia.

you should talk to your doctor and have him refer you to a specialist. its a long term illness but it can be treated. not that you definitely have it, but the sooner you know for sure, the better.

Vegetarianistica']it could be hormonal. it could be emotional. it could be something else. my advice is to seek medical advice if this is actually serious and not just an opportunity for you to be dramatic and me to get a post+1.
Agreed, at least with the second part. I still think it sounds like schizophrenia. Have it checked as soon as possible.

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Post +1 >_>

Hrm considering the average mental level of this forum you would act in your own best interrest to follow the advice mentioned earlier by seeing your nearest specialist.

I truelly urge you not to read any replies of people who have no knowledge in this field and the same goes for the people wanting to reply. Something this severe is not something you can just "casually" give advice on.

This was happening before hormones kicked in. I don't know if it's schizophrenia because I do suffer from mild depression but it started before I became depressed. Mental problems do run in the family but not the one that it sounds like.

Hrm considering the average mental level of this forum you would act in your own best interrest to follow the advice mentioned earlier by seeing your nearest specialist.

I truelly urge you not to read any replies of people who have no knowledge in this field and the same goes for the people wanting to reply. Something this severe is not something you can just "casually" give advice on.

I understand this and maybe I should make my question more clear. How do I tell my parents?

Get real help. See a psychiatrist. As for informing your parents, maybe you should start off with "I'm going to tell you something, and I'm completely serious. Please just listen". And then go into as much detail as you can so that they know you haven't just made it up.

Please seek medical advice, and also, confide in your parents. If you find it hard to talk to them, tell them you have something important to say, and let them read what you've just written (or print it out). You've described it very clearly, and it may be easier to understand when it's all in one piece as opposed to being constantly interrupted with questions when you try to explain. All the best - you obviously have a good head on your shoulders, and you can make it through.

Get real help. See a psychiatrist. As for informing your parents, maybe you should start off with "I'm going to tell you something, and I'm completely serious. Please just listen". And then go into as much detail as you can so that they know you haven't just made it up.

Thanks. I still am worried about what their reaction will be.

Well, geez. That can be schizophrenia? Why didn't someone tell me, I've been had voices in my head for years...I talk with 'em, debate, argue. *shrug* Never bothered me.......

Random antecdotal post +1


But anyways, what with your newfound "negative voice" Seek help. Personally, I'd think you were fine before, seeing as it talked you out of killing yourself, but now...ehhh....not so much.

Thanks. I still am worried about what their reaction will be.

The way I see it, if it makes them unhappy, that's good really, because it means they're taking it seriously and care about your wellbeing.

Second to the textbook schizophrenia.

I understand this and maybe I should make my question more clear. How do I tell my parents?

Hrm, I feel hard pressed to give advice on such a delicate subject but in case you have parents ( and I stress -in case-) that tend to downplay the severity of a serious event or in your case afflication, you should probably see the specialist first and have him (in case it is a severe afflication) back you up in case your parents try to dissuade you from seeing a specialist.

Also you will be able to inform them much better than now as I assume you are quite confused yourself.

Again this is what you should do in my opinion and not an advice from an expert.

Well, geez. That can be schizophrenia? Why didn't someone tell me, I've been had voices in my head for years...I talk with 'em, debate, argue. *shrug* Never bothered me.......

Random antecdotal post +1


But anyways, what with your newfound "negative voice" Seek help. Personally, I'd think you were fine before, seeing as it talked you out of killing yourself, but now...ehhh....not so much.

That's my opinion. I don't believe what the negative one is telling me currently but...

Thanks. I still am worried about what their reaction will be.
they will react to it the same way as if you had symptoms of lukemia. they will take it seriously, be worried about you, and take you to a doctor as soon as possible.

just like any other illness, it can be treated but only if you know whether or not you have it. or you may find out youre FINE or that you have some other ailment. no way to know until you see a doctor.

I understand this and maybe I should make my question more clear. How do I tell my parents?

make sure they're having a good day. make sure they've eaten dinner. tell them what you've told us. tell them it's serious and that you need to do something about it because it's scary. they love you. they'll understand and want to help you. be strong! it can only get better.

Schizophrenia FTW!
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You came to the right place for advice/opinions on insanity. The people of this forum seem to know quite a lot about it. *nods*

Vegetarianistica'] it can only get better.

That's what I told myself when the first voice showed up.

That's my opinion. I don't believe what the negative one is telling me currently but...

As far as I know (I am not a psychiatrist), what it's telling you is just your own worries. Everyone has worries, and most of the time they're wrong. Just because it comes in voice form doesn't make it any more true.

Still, see an expert.

As far as I know (I am not a psychiatrist), what it's telling you is just your own worries. Everyone has worries, and most of the time they're wrong. Just because it comes in voice form doesn't make it any more true.

Still, see an expert.

Since when do my worries encourage me to harm myself?

As far as I know (I am not a psychiatrist), what it's telling you is just your own worries. Everyone has worries, and most of the time they're wrong. Just because it comes in voice form doesn't make it any more true.

Still, see an expert.
Eh...combined with the other sympthoms, and the strenght of the voices (at least, what I gathered from the post), this is more than normal worries.

Alright, I'm done pretending to be a proffessional. Go see a real doctor.

Eh...combined with the other sympthoms, and the strenght of the voices (at least, what I gathered from the post), this is more than normal worries.

Alright, I'm done pretending to be a proffessional. Go see a real doctor.

I plan on it but my parents have to take me to see one and the hard part about that is telling them why I need to go.

Schizophrenia FTW!
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You came to the right place for advice/opinions on insanity. The people of this forum seem to know quite a lot about it. *nods*

I personally enjoy applying the quote "I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it!" Just because something's different in the head doesn't mean something's wrong in the head.


Except for now.....now he's suffering from it. :(

Eh...combined with the other sympthoms, and the strenght of the voices (at least, what I gathered from the post), this is more than normal worries.

Alright, I'm done pretending to be a proffessional. Go see a real doctor.

All I'm saying is that the voice is a personification of one aspect of the poster's own thoughts. It's not coming from outside, after all.

I plan on it but my parents have to take me to see one and the hard part about that is telling them why I need to go.


Think you've got a school counselor who cares enough to take you? maybe an older freindd with a car who could pretend to be a gaurdian.....Eh, whatever. Get of the computer and tell 'em I say. Get it over with, print out the post and read it out loud, or hand it to them.

All I'm saying is that the voice is a personification of one aspect of the poster's own thoughts. It's not coming from outside, after all.

I can believe that, the voices will change in presence as your personality changes with your environment, like going from elementary to middle school, or moving, or stuff like that.

Think you've got a school counselor who cares enough to take you? maybe an older freindd with a car who could pretend to be a gaurdian.....Eh, whatever. Get of the computer and tell 'em I say. Get it over with, print out the post and read it out loud, or hand it to them.

None of my friends drive. We're all old enough but we choose not to.A school counselor would be a good idea.

All I'm saying is that the voice is a personification of one aspect of the poster's own thoughts. It's not coming from outside, after all.

I also believe its not coming from outside but that doesn't make it any less real.

I also believe its not coming from outside but that doesn't make it any less real.

They're real thoughts, but thoughts can be mistaken. Anyway, a psychiatrist should be able to tell you what you need to hear.

They're real thoughts, but thoughts can be mistaken. Anyway, a psychiatrist should be able to tell you what you need to hear.That being, he will be taking psycotropic drugs the rest of his life. (her if her fits)

I may talk to myself, but I'm strange. However, I don't hear voices. There is a difference, that being, the latter condition requires medical treatment.

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Originally Posted by Kzord
They're real thoughts, but thoughts can be mistaken. Anyway, a psychiatrist should be able to tell you what you need to hear.


That being, he will be taking psycotropic drugs the rest of his life. (her if her fits)

I may talk to myself, but I'm strange. However, I don't hear voices. There is a difference, that being, the latter condition requires medical treatment.


Yeah, this all sounds pretty worrying to me. I'm no mental health expert, but you should definitely see someone who is, Kayami. Hey, I'm not saying you're crazy - I talk to myself, just like ^ - but I don't get replies.
I know it's easy for me to say, but I wouldn't worry too much about what your parents might think. If you make it utterly clear to them that you're not messing around, that you're not having some joke but this is a serious issue and that it really worries you, then they will listen to you, and do their best to help you out. I know my parents would do the same for me.
Make them understand that you've got this stuff going on and they will support you. So will everyone on this board: I for one would like to hear back from you again, just to know you're ok. Let us know hw you do.
Um... well you don't have to. But it would be reassuring.