Bolol
24-11-2005, 04:11
I know I talk alot about my condition and the surgury I went through...just know that it isn't for attention's sake, just that it has been most prevalent in my mind. I haven't been able to go to school since early October and things are starting to unravel.
Five out of the seven days in a week, I'm at home...alone. Just sitting about doing mindless tasks waiting for something to happen. If anyone ever tells you that boredom can't make you crazy...I want you punch him/her square in the face and then kick them a few times for good measure.
As a testament to my mental state I now suffer from severe swings. One minute I'm fine, talking about wierd happenings in the news, things I had for breakfast. You know, benign and mundane stuff. Then, the slightest thing will set me off. Like a simple, immature accusation from a child. And then I am told I cannot get so "worked up" about things because it is bad for my health. Even if what I'm getting upset about is utter shit, I really don't give a damn.
You want to know what's bad for my health? Locking me away for months, never truly feeling "good", and then not allowing me to express my frustration and, dare I say, rage...
This is why I rarely post political threads...bad karma.
If there's one thing my predicament has given me (and let me tell you, there isn't MUCH) it is a sense of clarity.
I see all this materialism in people my age. High-Schoolers...I never truly realized how fucked up in the head some of these people are. Fancy cell-phones, new cars...and then the next day they'll bitch about something else. My little brother, wanting every little thing...my other brother, bitching about everything else, and my mother getting upset over a scratch on the counter and the slightest dent in her Subaru fucking SUV.
These bitches don't really understand do they?
Not only that, I can think of many things wrong in people's warped little minds...
-Joe D. Dumbfuck gets hauled away for 20 years for drug possession, while a rapist gets out on parole.
-An evangelist, playing on the fears of the ignorant, blames gays for tragedy.
-A man does hard work for 50 years...at which point they effectively tell him to fuck off.
-"Drugs" are illegal, but Tobacco and Alcohol kill more in a year then they do in five.
-Environment groups terrorize children while the most they do for Earth is sit around and listen to REM.
-A majority think that creationism should be taught in a science class. AM I THE ONLY FUCKER THAT SEES SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS?
-Jesus taught brotherhood and kindness...yet more people have killed and have been killed in his name than anyone else in history.
-A man suffering from cancer can't be allowed to die. No, they have to wait for him to SHIT HIMSELF before they can do that...
-Zealots claim they're "pro-family"...yet they support corporal punishment and bomb abortion clinics.
-Wonderful news, they lifted the assault weapons ban, now John M. Alcoholic Aryan Nations FUCKER can get his M60E4 back...
I feel better having vented and got all that bad karma out of my system. Thank you for listening to my rant...and good night...
*passes out on keyboard*
Five out of the seven days in a week, I'm at home...alone. Just sitting about doing mindless tasks waiting for something to happen. If anyone ever tells you that boredom can't make you crazy...I want you punch him/her square in the face and then kick them a few times for good measure.
As a testament to my mental state I now suffer from severe swings. One minute I'm fine, talking about wierd happenings in the news, things I had for breakfast. You know, benign and mundane stuff. Then, the slightest thing will set me off. Like a simple, immature accusation from a child. And then I am told I cannot get so "worked up" about things because it is bad for my health. Even if what I'm getting upset about is utter shit, I really don't give a damn.
You want to know what's bad for my health? Locking me away for months, never truly feeling "good", and then not allowing me to express my frustration and, dare I say, rage...
This is why I rarely post political threads...bad karma.
If there's one thing my predicament has given me (and let me tell you, there isn't MUCH) it is a sense of clarity.
I see all this materialism in people my age. High-Schoolers...I never truly realized how fucked up in the head some of these people are. Fancy cell-phones, new cars...and then the next day they'll bitch about something else. My little brother, wanting every little thing...my other brother, bitching about everything else, and my mother getting upset over a scratch on the counter and the slightest dent in her Subaru fucking SUV.
These bitches don't really understand do they?
Not only that, I can think of many things wrong in people's warped little minds...
-Joe D. Dumbfuck gets hauled away for 20 years for drug possession, while a rapist gets out on parole.
-An evangelist, playing on the fears of the ignorant, blames gays for tragedy.
-A man does hard work for 50 years...at which point they effectively tell him to fuck off.
-"Drugs" are illegal, but Tobacco and Alcohol kill more in a year then they do in five.
-Environment groups terrorize children while the most they do for Earth is sit around and listen to REM.
-A majority think that creationism should be taught in a science class. AM I THE ONLY FUCKER THAT SEES SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS?
-Jesus taught brotherhood and kindness...yet more people have killed and have been killed in his name than anyone else in history.
-A man suffering from cancer can't be allowed to die. No, they have to wait for him to SHIT HIMSELF before they can do that...
-Zealots claim they're "pro-family"...yet they support corporal punishment and bomb abortion clinics.
-Wonderful news, they lifted the assault weapons ban, now John M. Alcoholic Aryan Nations FUCKER can get his M60E4 back...
I feel better having vented and got all that bad karma out of my system. Thank you for listening to my rant...and good night...
*passes out on keyboard*