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Well, to let this make sense, this chick is a girl I met three years ago. I recieved this in March of 2003, and had it saved in my email folder. Forgot about it, and a million other mails. Anyways, I stumbled upon it today, and it really choked me up. Me and her had a thing going on then(Though she couldnt date till she was 16...and then things never went through after that). Anyways, here is the mail... I just really got sad, because me and her are a bit distant now, she has a new boyfriend, and has rejected me... reminded me things are different than they once were...

Hey Tony-
Whats up? I have done a lot of thinking, (with the little brain that I have.) about what you said. "That you get nervous," when you are around me. I guess I understand why. No one has liked me like you, so thats probably why Im nuts about you too. I just don't think you should get nervous when your around me, or even just see me. I'm not a big thing (at least to anyone else.)
You have done so much for me. You have made my life worth living, and I think I understand why god made people. So this would happen. Our relationship is like no one else's I know. You are a very special person, and you deserve the best. You are intelligent, sweet, humorous, and you are the best male friend I have ever had. I want to thank you for being my friend in the first place. I was luck to end up with a friend like you, I pray every night that things will get better by the time we go out.
So if there is a god, he will answer my prayers (This is a test for him.) If I could write down all the things I like about you I would, but I don't have enough paper. That's why I'm saying," I like you for you." That's the easiest way to say it so you won't forget. Not that you would or anything.
Have you hear the song, "HERO?" It's a really good some. It goes something like this. -There's a hero, if you look in side you heart. You don't have to be afraid of what you are. There's an answer, if you reach in to your soul. And the sorrow that you know will melt away. "And then a hero comes a long with the strength to carry on, and you cast your fears aside, and you know you can survive. So when you feel like hope is gone look inside you and be strong. And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you." Its a long road, and you face the world alone. No one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love, if you search with in your self. And the emptiness you felt will disappear. "And then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on, and you cast your fears aside, and you know you can survive. So when you feel like hope is gone, look inside and be strong. And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you." Lord knows, dreams are hard to follow, but don't let any one tare them away. Hold on, there will be tomorrow, in time you'll find the way. "And then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on, and you cast your fears aside, and you know you can survive. So when you feel like hope is gone, look inside you and be strong. And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you." -"That a hero lies in you."

I like this song because it gives you a good feeling. It makes me happy to know someone cares, even if it is not the hero in me, it could be you that cares about me. Either way I feel loved.

P.S. LOVE AND LUCK FROM: (Name deleted)

Burn it! It's a relic of the past, best not to dwell on it, and now you can safely and detachedly laugh at your own youthful naivete. Or something.

What, is it spring? What the hell is up with all the love sick threads?

What?

It is-oh...right.

Guess that explains it then.


I.......'ll just be going then.

These threads bring up some memories from the past year or two. Ironically enough, I too shared in the posters' experiences during the spring, late May to be exact.

What the deuce is with spring and love?

Let this serve as a reminder that the past will ALWAYS own your ass.

Burn it! It's a relic of the past, best not to dwell on it, and now you can safely and detachedly laugh at your own youthful naivete. Or something.

Its a bit hard to laugh. I've never had a girlfriend, she was the closest thing to one I ever had.

Its a bit hard to laugh. I've never had a girlfriend, she was the closest thing to one I ever had.

Yes, this kind of emotion is almost impossible to get over... I feel for you. :(

I'd send her an E-Mail or talk to her, and try to revive a relationship from long ago. Nothing romantic, mind you, but sometimes friends can be just as good as lovers.

I'd send her an E-Mail or talk to her, and try to revive a relationship from long ago. Nothing romantic, mind you, but sometimes friends can be just as good as lovers.

We arent enemies or anything, but we just arent close anymore. I was thinking of forwarding the mail back to her, or printing it and giving it to her with a message from me...but I dunno. I really did love her, its hard to see her with another guy.

We arent enemies or anything, but we just arent close anymore. I was thinking of forwarding the mail back to her, or printing it and giving it to her with a message from me...but I dunno. I really did love her, its hard to see her with another guy.
Support her; love her as a friend. I love my best friend; she's a sister to me. I love my boyfriend, but that is another kind of love. You can love a friend without romantic feelings; it's a familiar love. Tell yourself that if it gets hard.

You sounds like you want to rekindle a friendship. I say do it. Friends are something that is still good with this world. If something more comes of it, then good; if not, as long as you two are good friends then that is also good.

I like your idea. Remind her of it, and write somethign touching, but not mushy and all wimpy dripping with sap. ^_^

Its a bit hard to laugh. I've never had a girlfriend, she was the closest thing to one I ever had.

Oh, you'll laugh later, not now.

But for now I recommend you don't incourage thoughts about how great things were, what she's doing now, with whom, etc etc. Those kinds of thoughts just never help, they foster obsession and morbidity, and prevent you from moving forward and making new girlfriends. Just my 2 cents really.

Oh, you'll laugh later, not now.

But for now I recommend you don't incourage thoughts about how great things were, what she's doing now, with whom, etc etc. Those kinds of thoughts just never help, they foster obsession and morbidity, and prevent you from moving forward and making new girlfriends. Just my 2 cents really.

you're right. its better to move on. i didnt, and i've reretted it ever since. (crap, now im sad again :( )

We arent enemies or anything, but we just arent close anymore. ....... I really did love her, its hard to see her with another guy.

I know how you feel, my GF and I were going out for about 2 years when I found out she had been cheating on me for months, with one of my best friends. For some reason I'm not angry at her, but the only thing that's kept me from killing him already is that I don't have enough money to afford a gun.

I wouldn't send her own e-mail back to her, or print it out and give it to her. At best, you'll embarrass her; at worst, she might think you're being creepy-obsessive or even somehow threatening her. Whatever, if she feels bad or even just uncomfortable, she'll blame you for the feeling and maybe start to dislike you.

What's more, you'll feel bad if you mess up what you had. Right now it sounds as if you can think of yourself-then as a decent person who behaved honourably towards a very young woman who is still learning how to deal with strong feelings.

You may be, technically, much the same age as she is, but it sounds as if you were the more emotionally mature. If you can gradually move from being not-enemies to being friends again, fine, just don't push yourself.

Oh, you'll laugh later, not now.

But for now I recommend you don't incourage thoughts about how great things were, what she's doing now, with whom, etc etc. Those kinds of thoughts just never help, they foster obsession and morbidity, and prevent you from moving forward and making new girlfriends. Just my 2 cents really.

Obviously the best choice. However, like depression, even if you know everything whats wrong, you cant stop yourself.

I wouldn't send her own e-mail back to her, or print it out and give it to her. At best, you'll embarrass her; at worst, she might think you're being creepy-obsessive or even somehow threatening her. Whatever, if she feels bad or even just uncomfortable, she'll blame you for the feeling and maybe start to dislike you.

What's more, you'll feel bad if you mess up what you had. Right now it sounds as if you can think of yourself-then as a decent person who behaved honourably towards a very young woman who is still learning how to deal with strong feelings.

You may be, technically, much the same age as she is, but it sounds as if you were the more emotionally mature. If you can gradually move from being not-enemies to being friends again, fine, just don't push yourself.

You're probably right. I hate simple logic.

This is a good example of why personal notes should be written with pen and paper - some whackjob, years later, may put your private message on an international internet forum.

This is a good example of why personal notes should be written with pen and paper - some whackjob, years later, may put your private message on an international internet forum.

Yeah, screw you too :P

I'll pass on to you a suggestion that has gotten me through a rather traumatic time with my ex.

Take everything that reminds you of her, and hide it. Don't throw it away, just hide it for now. Keep yourself busy and remember that no matter how old you are, you'll always have time to find that true person.