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I mean overall, you know, in general. Do you find your life fulfilling and encriching? Are you at peace with yourself and the world? Do you enjoy awaking to the dawn of a new day? Just curious.

I'm on average reasonably happy. Sometimes I'm depressed, sometimes angry (though anger does make me feel good) but usually fairly content. I think that's the most I can ask.

not really, i really hate college and want to leave but my mum won't let me and i have no idea what i wanna do instead

Completely happy, I haven't been really unhappy for 5 years now.

I don't know that I'd say "completely", but I would say a very high percentage of the time. :D

i'm glad for those of you who are, 'cause most of the time, it seems like I just live from day to day, looking forward to the end of the week, only to start it over again, trapped in circular linearity.

Yeah, I'd say I'm a pretty happy individual. Things are going good, but every now and then stress rears its ugly head.

But...That's just part of living. And right now, life is good.

Very happy, more than 'kinda' but i had to vote for that because wouldnt say 'completely'.
I may have failed 5 out of 6 modules in January, and be on a 'last chance' at Uni, but i dont really care. Keep smiling :)

Since about 99% of my entertainment is derived from escapism, I can't really decide if I'm happy or not.

Supposedly, happy people don't resort constantly to escapism, but escapism makes me very happy.

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For the Months January to February 2005

ya i said depressed....cuz i am......and i will be......until i die.....or start meds....

Im fairly happy most of the time. Bad thing is i dont have that special someone to share it with, so no complete happyness here.

I'm moderatly happy .. depends on what day it is :p

Do you find your life fulfilling and encriching? Hell no.
Are you at peace with yourself and the world? G-d no.
Do you enjoy awaking to the dawn of a new day? No.

not really, i really hate college and want to leave but my mum won't let me and i have no idea what i wanna do instead
That sucks, Tink.

:(

I hope you manage to sort stuff out with your mum, and figure out what you are meant to do in life.

i'm glad for those of you who are, 'cause most of the time, it seems like I just live from day to day, looking forward to the end of the week, only to start it over again, trapped in circular linearity.
What do you want to do in life?

What do you want to get out of life?

Just asking . . .

Yes I am happy! I try to enjoy life, and see the bright side. Thinking about all those billions in the world who are less fortunate than me would make me feel guilty to think that my life sucks, so im always aware that life, wether im happy at that point, or a little depressed, is great. You dont like collage/school? Stop whining. You go to a collage.school, thats enough to put ur chances of a good life waya above the rest of the world, make the most of it.

to tell you the truth i wouldnt mind dying right now

im content at times like when i have something to keep me busy but f i have time to think im usually depressed :(

I mean overall, you know, in general. Do you find your life fulfilling and encriching? Are you at peace with yourself and the world? Do you enjoy awaking to the dawn of a new day? Just curious.
I'm about as happy as a man can be who just broke his leg! :D

to tell you the truth i wouldnt mind dying right now
May I ask why? :(

I'm about as happy as a man can be who just broke his leg! :D
Get well soon :)

actually the only things i enjoy are workin gon my computer and playing games

Get well soon :)
Thank you! :D

May I ask why? :(

well to sum up all of what i said in my time on the boards my ideal mate, who i happen to be in love with (well im in love with her she is in love with my best friend) is going out with my best friend im utterly alone im bipolar/depressive im smart but cant seem to find any mental challenges etc depression etc

its also safe to say that everytime i see my bestfriend with her its a reminder of how depressed I am and since he is in my band.....well ive nowhere to go

well to sum up all of what i said in my time on the boards my ideal mate, who i happen to be in love with (well im in love with her she is in love with my best friend) is going out with my best friend im utterly alone im bipolar/depressive im smart but cant seem to find any mental challenges etc depression etc
That sucks, Shayde.

:(

I suffer from depression sometimes as well, but I don't think I'm bipolar (I haven't been diagnosed, anyway).

Do you really want to die, enough to kill yourself?

sometimes i feel i could and i have contemplated but never have been serious enough to commit

I've never been happy, but most of the time I'm not totally depressed either.

sometimes i feel i could and i have contemplated but never have been serious enough to commit
I want you to not kill yourself, Shayde.

I know that we've probably never met in RL, and that I know very little about you; I don't even know your real name.

:(

Still, I want you to be alive.

I don't know if it helps for you to know that; I really hope it doesn't make you feel worse.

Know that there is someone who thinks your life is worth something, even if you don't at the moment.

My RL name is Rowland Webb; I live in Bristol, in the U.K.

John Beard Maryland U.S.A. and ya it helps a little

So far we have 6 emo kiddies

you can call me an emo child

I used to hate life, hate myself, had depression, was suicidal, thought life was pointless, was hopeless, seriously just spent every second of my day wishing I was dead.

But there is hope. I promise.

Life isn't perfect and I have my ups and downs but overall I enjoy life and I'm glad I'm alive. I have days where I feel great, I feel on top of the world and I can spend ages laughing with a permenant smile on my face. I never thought I'd feel like this, I felt trapped under a wave of depression and didn't think I'd ever escape. But life goes on and you can overcome problems and you can get that enjoyment out of life. Never give up. Happiness could be just around the corner.

And now for me to post the poem I've written which I'm most proud of:

The Smiles To be Found

Sometimes you feel
Like just fading away
Slowly flickering out
Day by day.

And sometimes you feel
Like just ending the pain
Giving up
Instead of struggling in vain.

But there is always a reason
To carry on shining bright
To solve all your problems
And find the strength to fight.

And there is always someone
Who will turn your world around
Who will look inside you
And see the smiles to be found.

~~~~~~

Sorry for the cheesiness of this post but when I see people who feel the way I used to, I can't help but want to help and if I can give you the tiniest bit of hope or inspiration to keep going and strive for happiness, well, thats the least I can do and maybe it will mean something good has come out of my depression.

you can call me an emo child
I'll call you John, 'cause that's your name, and you told it to me. :)

I lived in D.C. for three years of high school. I had friends who lived in Maryland, near the D.C. border.


BTW, what is an emo kiddie? I've heard punks shouting "EMO!" at passers-by, but they didn't really explain it to me. :confused:

emo=emotional

I'm normally unhappy because I'm around people who are unhappy. I can't deal with my friends being so upset. I'm normally just pretty damn confused about my own life.

dont worry i was talking to a girl i like hella alot and she said im cute so im vastly more happy thann early today

I've never been happy, but most of the time I'm not totally depressed either.
wow ur exact same situation happened to me cept i dont have a band and a lost contact with the girl in question only to randomly (what are the chances) meet up with her a school and now she 7 months pregnant so im just as depressed as when she was with her other bf (great now ive gone and gotten my self confused)

Overall? Yes. Most of the time. Except when I'm angry about something.

Do you find your life fulfilling and encriching? Hell, yes!

Are you at peace with yourself and the world? Myself, yes, the world, no (but then it'd be boring...)

Do you enjoy awaking to the dawn of a new day? God no. If I wake up to the dawn than it means that either it's too bloody early to be awake, or I haven't gone to bed yet... whichever, I need more caffeine.

Because I'm a bitter man:


"I'm just not happy. I'm just not happy. I'm just not happy because my life didn't turn out the way I thought it would." Hey! Join the fucking club, ok!? I thought I was going to be the starting center fielder for the Boston Red Socks. Life sucks, get a fucking helmet, allright?! "I'm not happy. I'm not happy." Nobody's happy, ok!? Happiness comes in small doses folks. It's a cigarette, or a chocolate cookie, or a five second orgasm. That's it, ok! You cum, you eat the cookie, you smoke the butt, you go to sleep, you get up in the morning and go to fucking work, ok!? That is it! End of fucking list!

How do you define happiness? Does it even exist? Seems to me Hobbes and Nietzsche got it right when it came to human happiness.

not really, i really hate college and want to leave but my mum won't let me and i have no idea what i wanna do instead
the wedding better cheer you up ;) :D


me, i've found myself to be almost completely neutral so far this year - i have nothing in particular to be happy about, but i'm not in a state of depression yet either. i'm actualy feeling better now than i have in a long time... the last 2 years have been wholly unpleasant to the point that i couldn't remember the last time i was happy (unless you went back a number of years). i don't really know why i got the whole depression thing, but i'm not gonna dwell on it cos i dont want it to come back http://www.ironmaiden.org/images/smilies/eyes.gif

Do you find your life fulfilling and encriching? no, i feel my life is pointless and could be so much better if only i wasn't such a looser :(
i feel guilty whenever i'm not working, which is stupid because i'm a fucking lazy bastard too.

Are you at peace with yourself and the world? no i don't really like myself at all. so many reasons. the world, for the most part, seems to ignore me, and i ignore it as far as i can. when the world starts to get too nosy i just wish i could be left alone.

Do you enjoy awaking to the dawn of a new day? no, it takes me 2 hours to get out of bed in the mornings cos i really, really don't want to get up and face things, or do anything, or see anyone :( :(
well, thats how it was. now it takes me 2 hours to get out of bed because i would simply rather stay there - nowadays i don't feel all the negative vibes

Sometimes, it depends. Usually, not so much.

And now for me to post the poem I've written which I'm most proud of:

The Smiles To be Found

Sometimes you feel
Like just fading away
Slowly flickering out
Day by day.

And sometimes you feel
Like just ending the pain
Giving up
Instead of struggling in vain.

But there is always a reason
To carry on shining bright
To solve all your problems
And find the strength to fight.

And there is always someone
Who will turn your world around
Who will look inside you
And see the smiles to be found.

wow Glitz, upbeat poem :)

kinda the opposite to some of mine ;)



Wretched steel

The cause of
All my joy and all my grief,
And all the feelings
I feel beneath,
These forced smiles and white lies
That keep me from their
Prying eyes.

To them I appear, always
Happy, dandy;
The truth far from this,
Forever, sadly.

They cannot know
The pain I feel inside,
And yet it becomes harder
And harder for me to hide.

Some day the truth will out;
I will scream,
And I will shout.
I’ll let them know
What I’m really about.
No more tears
And no more lies,
And then will come
The biggest surprise –
I will show them how I feel,
Hands clasping
The wretched steel;
Thrust into my stomach
The knife: my final meal.

No more pain,
No more lies;
Smiling,
As I wave this world
My final goodbye’s.


i'm pretty sure that didn't make anyone feel any better :p

I mean overall, you know, in general. Do you find your life fulfilling and encriching? Are you at peace with yourself and the world? Do you enjoy awaking to the dawn of a new day? Just curious.


The reason why I say kinda is that I am at peace with myself. Well, for the most part. I hate being single for one. I used to revel in it, but hey, things change. I'm Not at peace with the world. For one, people kill each other about every minute somewhere in the world. And over the weirdest things too. One being that we all worship pretty much the same deities, we just have different names for them. The other big one is oil. What's the big deal over a liquid that will be obsolete in 5 years or so? My God this world is terrible. What do you all think we should do about it?

Matthew

My God this world is terrible. What do you all think we should do about it?

Matthew
if only people realised the futility of their competition and struggle, we could do away with many of the stupid things in the world, imo. what does it matter how rich one gets in life, or how much does oil really matter to the overall scheme of things and to our happiness?
on my good days i just shrug it off as the world being a vile place

on my bad days i think the best thing to do would be to destroy everything and start over (perhaps a little extreme :D )

First post! Eeeks

I voted "every now and then". Actually, I probably should be in the emo kid section, as overall for the past 5 years I have felt pretty depressed( once I had 3 years of nothing but depression, ick!). I put from time to time because every now and then I will get happy for a month or two... or a week.. who knows. It's crazy.. I get like.. insanely happy.. but then.. I don't now why.. but my spirits just take a nose dive. I admit that there are several things I need to do first.. such as get a job and such.. so I can be more independent and hang out with people and have gas money so I can get out every once in a while if anything ( I usually hang out with people a few times a year.. I was extremely shy until a year ago. It's awful because often when I get the chance to have someone over I just feel flustered the whole time.. I don't know how to react to people).

Shayde, Pure Metal... Group hug? =P

if only people realised the futility of their competition and struggle, we could do away with many of the stupid things in the world, imo. what does it matter how rich one gets in life, or how much does oil really matter to the overall scheme of things and to our happiness?
on my good days i just shrug it off as the world being a vile place

on my bad days i think the best thing to do would be to destroy everything and start over (perhaps a little extreme :D )

Ever play Deus Ex 1?

First post! Eeeks

I voted "every now and then". Actually, I probably should be in the emo kid section, as overall for the past 5 years I have felt pretty depressed( once I had 3 years of nothing but depression, ick!). I put from time to time because every now and then I will get happy for a month or two... or a week.. who knows. It's crazy.. I get like.. insanely happy.. but then.. I don't now why.. but my spirits just take a nose dive. I admit that there are several things I need to do first.. such as get a job and such.. so I can be more independent and hang out with people and have gas money so I can get out every once in a while if anything ( I usually hang out with people a few times a year.. I was extremely shy until a year ago. It's awful because often when I get the chance to have someone over I just feel flustered the whole time.. I don't know how to react to people).

Shayde, Pure Metal... Group hug? =P
hey wow, same here. especially the flustered around people bit - especially hard when you live with 3 other uni students :eek:


oh and welcome... have a group :fluffle:

im not too happy only b.c im im making myself sad thinking about someone:((

Ever play Deus Ex 1?
yeah, but i have an awful memory and am too tired to remember any specifics about the plot right now - all i remember is the name Bob Page and how fooking cool Helios was :D

...your point?

ooh! is it the Tracer Tong ending where you plunge the world into technological darkness to start afresh??

yeah, but i have an awful memory and am too tired to remember any specifics about the plot right now - all i remember is the name Bob Page and how fooking cool Helios was :D

...your point?

ooh! is it the Tracer Tong ending where you plunge the world into technological darkness to start afresh??

Yep. I hated how they blended all 3 separate endings into one in the seceond Deus Ex. DX1- 9.5 DX2- 8.0

i'm ashamed to say i still haven't played deus ex 2 :(

not sure why :confused:

Am I happy? Nope can’t say that I am. I have no self-esteem, I get into fights a lot, I’m in trouble with the law, never had a girlfriend, I’m 17, I smoke too much pot, I have only one friend, and I am an anti-social jerk… nah not that happy, but got no reason to kill myself…

In general i am happy with who i am and the way my life is going right now. I have a job i love, tons of friends who love me, and i'm safe and healthy.

Well at least you can identify the sources of you unhappiness; that puts you ahead of a lot of us.

Hey Metal.. I said hug.. not group make out session =P

I kid
~~~~
I am 17 also.. well... This Saturday I will be

Completely.

I have a great wife and three cats. I'm going to school to get a degree so I can hopefully get a good paying career. And a lot of other really good stuff... but I have to go pee now.

Happy? Now and then you can say.

Overall as a person, life is rather easy in Uni, I don't have a girlfriend but not desperate for one either, If I come along and get one good and well... but right now i'm cash-strapped that I contemplate and calculate how much my lunch is going to be tomorrow so I can last the week. I need to get a part-time job soon. And studies.. well i'm doing alright.. till the exams approach then time to start worrying :D.

And I'm a relatively happy person, with friends. So I guess i'm alright

Either than that, I tend to get depressed when the bills come in monthly, it's not easy when you have lots of debts on your shoulders..my dad is in very bad financial debt and we're waiting for our business deal to rescue us, but it's taking it's time and toll.

Cats rock.. I live with one... I love him, but he rejects me... But I know he loves me.. I am serious, he does! =/

Hey Metal.. I said hug.. not group make out session =P

I kid
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I am 17 also.. well... This Saturday I will be
sorry - i've been hanging around my e-wife for too long... starting to fluffle ( :fluffle: ) at random intervals :p


happy birthday on saturday, btw :)

Happy? Now and then you can say.

Overall as a person, life is rather easy in Uni, I don't have a girlfriend but not desperate for one either, If I come along and get one good and well... but right now i'm cash-strapped that I contemplate and calculate how much my lunch is going to be tomorrow so I can last the week. I need to get a part-time job soon. And studies.. well i'm doing alright.. till the exams approach then time to start worrying :D.


Welcome to student life. It doesn't change until after you graduate... (or so the spirits of those who have passed on tell me).

2nd post. I'm pretty new.

Happy? You know, I'm not really sure what that means. It's one of those words like "love" that gets used in so many different contexts that it doesn't mean much anymore. Do you mean are my circumstances good? And do you ask that because you want to compare? The truth is, I don't want my fulfillment to be based solely on what's going on in my life. I believe that happiness is something that you work hard to create with yourself. Not something that depends on whether your friend got mad at you, or if a hot girl talked to you today, or if your families breaking up. It's hard work. God knows I'm not very good at it. But I believe that that's the only way to really be content with your life.

I am completely happy! :) It seems that the happier I am with my life the less I sleep. The more productive I am the happier I feel, such as when I'm getting ahead in my school work, getting things done like driving school, personal projects and such. The most unhappy people I know (note that; "I know") don't really do much with their time. They mostly slack off in school, play video games all day and watch T.V. When they do do work its compulsitory, and its something they really don't want to do. Another thing that seems to make people more happy is finding a purpose for them selfs, even if its just for the next 6 months.

I am completely happy! :) It seems that the happier I am with my life the less I sleep. The more productive I am the happier I feel, such as when I'm getting ahead in my school work, getting things done like driving school, personal projects and such. The most unhappy people I know (note that; "I know") don't really do much with their time. They mostly slack off in school, play video games all day and watch T.V. When they do do work its compulsitory, and its something they really don't want to do. Another thing that seems to make people more happy is finding a purpose for them selfs, even if its just for the next 6 months.
perhaps those unhappy people you know are slacking off so much, and resenting work, because they are unhappy? when i get miserable, my work is the first thing to suffer.
i agree with the purpose thing (sorry - not very eloquent, but i am so tired - its 4am here...). thats usually the cause of my unhappiness, when i feel/realise i have no purpose... so i give up on things and don't do anything constructive at all, and that only makes things worse :(

well I put kinda because now I am usually really happy and everythings going really well in school..good grades..lots of cool friends..but there was a time when everything was so bright. last year i was fairly happy and in one week i was not talking to anyone and didnt speak for about a month in school. My gpa dropped greatly also. This is because my girlfriend broke up with me after 6 months and went out with my best friend two days later also my old friends took his side when i talked to him about it, they didnt talk to me. Theres a lot more story to it, but i would rather not bore myself with typing it all out. Now I look back on this and laugh at how everything that possibly could have gone wrong..did. I got screwed over in every which way. Also 3 days later my grandpa died. But yeah, just nobody in here kill yourself or anything cause it always gets better.

I have to ask HorMaN, in relation to being fine but not pissed, sad, or angry, what constitutes happy in your thread? :rolleyes:

Hey, your from Wisconsin!

*patriotism to cows*

Considering I want to kill just about everyone who crosses my path, no.

Sorry, you can not add yourself to your own ignore list.

This made me laugh, but I'm still not happy, as the joy will end in a couple minutes.

I'm not a terribly happy person. Mostly I find happiness in ignoring things that would make me unhappy. Although I have found out how to be truly happy (at least I think I have).

About a year ago I read the book Stranger in a Strange Land. Toward its end it basically says that happiness is found in understanding and accepting other people (at least that's how I see it).

Anyway, last week something called 'Respect Day" came to our school. I went into it with an open mind, so I actually learned from it. It started out with the lady in charge of it breaking down peoples' "emotional barriers" (my term). Once they were down, I felt a lot happier. So did other people (I'm pretty sure). That day I also found that people really are very similar. All the hateful bickering and such is simply pointless (can't we all just get along?)

Basically I want to say this:
Unhappiness is caused by pretending to be something other than what you are, but this happiness doesn't last if it isn't shared with someone :(

So, I was utterly happy for a day. If I could find someone I could share that with, I would leap at the opportunity. Without someone to share such a state of happiness with, it quickly dies.

I have to ask HorMaN, in relation to being fine but not pissed, sad, or angry, what constitutes happy in your thread? :rolleyes:
Happy means that you enjoy life. That you are at ease.

I have major depressive disorder, PTSD, and dysthymia. I also have anxiety and panic disorder with mild agoraphobia. Do the math!

Okay, okay, despite all this, I do have my moments of happiness. ;)

far from generally happy at the moment - too many things that worry me... but even though most evenings i can't wait for the day to be finally over, and thinking hey, a heart attack in my sleep would be sweet - i've got moments of happiness, they usually involve someone smiling at me for no reason or a good convo and the like.

Oh? Am I happy? Can you answer that for me? :p

Relatively, I mean someone could physically rip off my genitals, tear out my heart and bash them with a hot iron, as aposed to just metophorically.

yay 1667 posts im no longer evil

For the first time in lord knows how many years (hang on, I'll count... 5) I can honestly say I'm happy most of the time. Yay, and cookies all round ^.^

Still get down a bit occasionally (but then, tha's m'own fault for having a crush on a guy who lives on the other side of the world... way to go, me :rolleyes: ), but I can usually handle that by reminding myself that it's not actually, you know, a big deal. Or even a medium deal.

And that's the point where I normally break out the Morrowind or the 3D Pinball ^.^

Who, may I ask? Anyone on this forum?

Who, may I ask? Anyone on this forum?

'Who' as in 'who do I have a crush on'? :confused:

'Who' as in 'who do I have a crush on'? :confused:
No, "who" as in "Whose name begins with the letter "7" and ends with the number "yellow"?"

At least, that's what I assume here.

No, "who" as in "Whose name begins with the letter "7" and ends with the number "yellow"?"

At least, that's what I assume here.

That would make wayyyyy more sense, since I thought everyone here knew who I liked :p

I guess that would just be that pesky ego-centrism again
*hunts down inner 3-year-old and locks it in a soundproof box*

Originally posted by Shaed
but then, tha's m'own fault for having a crush on a guy who lives on the other side of the world... way to go, me

Just wondering if it's anyone from NS, and sorry. That sucks. :(

Just wondering if it's anyone from NS, and sorry. That sucks. :(

Hee, no need for the condolences. I still spend lots and lots of time being happy about it too.

And yes, they are from NS ^.^

That would make wayyyyy more sense, since I thought everyone here knew who I liked :p

Me, right?

:D

Profoundly depressed tonight :(

Why?

Why?

Profoundly depressed tonight :(
:fluffle:
You're not alone in that.

Why?

Maybe just because it's raining. Probably not, I usually like thunderstorms. I'm bipolar, so sometimes there is no reason. But I've been thinking about my family lately. We're so screwed up.

:fluffle:
You're not alone in that.

Thanks Neo, I needed that :)

I'm sorry! I like rain, too. If it makes you feel better, than I'll wish rain for you.

For the first time in lord knows how many years (hang on, I'll count... 5) I can honestly say I'm happy most of the time. Yay, and cookies all round ^.^

Still get down a bit occasionally (but then, tha's m'own fault for having a crush on a guy who lives on the other side of the world... way to go, me :rolleyes: ), but I can usually handle that by reminding myself that it's not actually, you know, a big deal. Or even a medium deal.

And that's the point where I normally break out the Morrowind or the 3D Pinball ^.^

Three cheers for Morrowind, the only game where my chracter can jump so high he cannot see the ground without cheating.

Three cheers for Morrowind, the only game where my chracter can jump so high he cannot see the ground without cheating.
Ha, one of my friends showed me that once!
It's a bit of a problem coming back down, though...

Ha, one of my friends showed me that once!
It's a bit of a problem coming back down, though...

Nah, I don't use the scrolls. I have some enchanted rings that cause me to jump pretty high. Not as high as the scrolls, but then again I don't die when I hit the ground. :D I do take some damage but its not aproblem when you've got Godhp and a helm that heals you constantly. Yeah, it was great when I first found the jump scrolls, though. The way you find them actually is that you're just walkingalong, then you here a scream and a guy falls out of nowhere and dies at your feet.

I am EXTREMELY UNhappy.

I had jaw surgery last august, and I'm still waiting for feeling to come back in my lower lip. I was literally born with depression. I have no job, I flunked out of college, I live with my parents, I'm single and I have no gf (as you all know by now :p :D ), and I'm applying for social security disability benefits (I have severe hearing loss AND multiple scoliosis, meaning a bad back, rendering me unable to work normally), and I have contemplated suicide a number of times, one of which sent me on a 72 hour medical hold after I decided that I wasn't worth ANY female's time and went to my high school's catwalk to dive headfirst, which I backed off from at the last minute.

I'm as unhappy as unhappy can be...

:( :( :(

PS, and I nearly weeped when reading this thread. that's how depressed I am.

I occasionally have bouts of happiness, however...

I think i was a natural born depressive. I'm kinda happy but almost every night that "i hate my life" feeling sneaks up on me/

Nah, I don't use the scrolls. I have some enchanted rings that cause me to jump pretty high. Not as high as the scrolls, but then again I don't die when I hit the ground. :D I do take some damage but its not aproblem when you've got Godhp and a helm that heals you constantly. Yeah, it was great when I first found the jump scrolls, though. The way you find them actually is that you're just walkingalong, then you here a scream and a guy falls out of nowhere and dies at your feet.

Mwahahaha, I love the jumping goodness. I play as a Moogle too, so I get an extra 30 points for bouncy jumping. Plus I've got almost all my stats and skills up to 100 (I'm such a no-lifer nerd ^.^), so that helps too.

First time I jumped as my Moogle character I was expecting to jump up maybe a foot or two... ended up jumping right over a building. That was fun :p Silly extra 30 points

And landing's never a problem for me as long as I don't jump straight up... as long as I jump at an angle it's all bouncy happiness.

I am EXTREMELY UNhappy.

I had jaw surgery last august, and I'm still waiting for feeling to come back in my lower lip. I was literally born with depression. I have no job, I flunked out of college, I live with my parents, I'm single and I have no gf (as you all know by now :p :D ), and I'm applying for social security disability benefits (I have severe hearing loss AND multiple scoliosis, meaning a bad back, rendering me unable to work normally), and I have contemplated suicide a number of times, one of which sent me on a 72 hour medical hold after I decided that I wasn't worth ANY female's time and went to my high school's catwalk to dive headfirst, which I backed off from at the last minute.

I'm as unhappy as unhappy can be...

:( :( :(

PS, and I nearly weeped when reading this thread. that's how depressed I am.

I occasionally have bouts of happiness, however...

Poor baby. You're living my life. I had jaw surgery and it took years for most of the feeling to come back. I still have some numb spots. My mother just thought I was a moody child, but turns out I'm bipolar. I'm on disability because I'm a nut job. And I have fibromyalgia, so I know about back pain. And I'm sooo depressed tonight. We can whine together and have a pity party.

I am EXTREMELY UNhappy.

I had jaw surgery last august, and I'm still waiting for feeling to come back in my lower lip. I was literally born with depression. I have no job, I flunked out of college, I live with my parents, I'm single and I have no gf (as you all know by now :p :D ), and I'm applying for social security disability benefits (I have severe hearing loss AND multiple scoliosis, meaning a bad back, rendering me unable to work normally), and I have contemplated suicide a number of times, one of which sent me on a 72 hour medical hold after I decided that I wasn't worth ANY female's time and went to my high school's catwalk to dive headfirst, which I backed off from at the last minute.

I'm as unhappy as unhappy can be...

:( :( :(

PS, and I nearly weeped when reading this thread. that's how depressed I am.

I occasionally have bouts of happiness, however...

*hugs TPE* *gives him a fluffy Plutonian kitten*

You know everyone here loves you, right? Well, except the trolls... but really, that's more of a good thing than a bad thing...

Mwahahaha, I love the jumping goodness. I play as a Moogle too, so I get an extra 30 points for bouncy jumping. Plus I've got almost all my stats and skills up to 100 (I'm such a no-lifer nerd ^.^), so that helps too.

First time I jumped as my Moogle character I was expecting to jump up maybe a foot or two... ended up jumping right over a building. That was fun :p Silly extra 30 points

And landing's never a problem for me as long as I don't jump straight up... as long as I jump at an angle it's all bouncy happiness.

Are you a salivate-y as I am about Elder Scrolls IV?

Poor baby. You're living my life. I had jaw surgery and it took years for most of the feeling to come back. I still have some numb spots. My mother just thought I was a moody child, but turns out I'm bipolar. I'm on disability because I'm a nut job. And I have fibromyalgia, so I know about back pain. And I'm sooo depressed tonight. We can whine together and have a pity party.
Then come on over to Jupiter's core! :D :D :D :fluffle: :D :D :D

(Or to Paradise Club, whichever you prefer ;) )

Are you a salivate-y as I am about Elder Scrolls IV?
You bet.

Are you a salivate-y as I am about Elder Scrolls IV?

I don't think I was... haven't heard much about it recently...

Give me some sort of link and I might salivate I guess...

I don't think I was... haven't heard much about it recently...

Give me some sort of link and I might salivate I guess...

Ask and ye shall recieve.... (http://www.elderscrolls.com/games/oblivion_overview.htm)

I specifically recommend looking at the screenshots. They are actual screenshots, not touched up or edited or cutscenes or anything....

*hugs TPE* *gives him a fluffy Plutonian kitten*

You know everyone here loves you, right? Well, except the trolls... but really, that's more of a good thing than a bad thing...
Thanks :)

@Bitchkitten
What's fibromyalgia? Is it something similar to having an s-shaped curve in my spine or something like that?

We can whine together and have a pity party.
Ooh, let me join in the cacophany!

@Bitchkitten
What's fibromyalgia? Is it something similar to having an s-shaped curve in my spine or something like that?
Even though I'm not her, I'll answer:
No, it's a "musculoskeletal pain and fatigue disorder".
http://www.fmnetnews.com/pages/basics.html

Thanks :)

@Bitchkitten
What's fibromyalgia? Is it something similar to having an s-shaped curve in my spine or something like that?
It's more muscular than skeletal. Bad cramps or burning feeling, usually just in my back and shoulders. But when it gets really bad I feel it in places I didn't even realize I had muscles. Like the tops of my ears. I have to avoid too much exercise, too little exercise, sitting in one position too long, cold, stress or waterbeds. Pain in the-well, everywhere. :D

It's more muscular than skeletal. Bad cramps or burning feeling, usually just in my back and shoulders. But when it gets really bad I feel it in places I didn't even realize I had muscles. Like the tops of my ears. I have to avoid too much exercise, too little exercise, sitting in one position too long, cold, stress or waterbeds. Pain in the-well, everywhere. :D
Aww... That sounds terrible :( Pain from the cold? Ouch. I like cold, but sometimes, It can be too much even for me. When its' really cold, my bones actually hurt when I go outside, because I'm so skinny. :( Inside, I'm okay :D

I'm currently reading the link Neo-A gave me... Finished! Hopefully, they'll find a cure for it soon :)

Even though I'm not her, I'll answer:
No, it's a "musculoskeletal pain and fatigue disorder".
http://www.fmnetnews.com/pages/basics.html
Thanks Neo, it's nice to know I have nearly every connected condition. :p

Thanks Neo, it's nice to know I have nearly every connected condition. :p
Funny, "nice" is on of the last words I'd think would go in that position in the sentence.
:p

Perhaps I should have included this :rolleyes: instead of this :p

;)

after realizing some people have actually serious problems. hell yes i am happy. because not too much is wrong with me. i could complain about irresponsibility, possible mental illness, and def. alcoholism. but then that would be whining.

after realizing some people have actually serious problems. hell yes i am happy. because not too much is wrong with me. i could complain about irresponsibility, possible mental illness, and def. alcoholism. but then that would be whining.

Whine away. I've been doing it all night. :rolleyes: