Thelas
13-10-2003, 16:53
Well, it has been fun I must say, I will give you reasons why I thought of leaving.
The realazation.
I realized that my dream in NS, to be like a certain elven mod, was a false dream, that,
a. I would never become a mod with my record
b. that said mod, was not as good as they seemed
I also saw somethings that reminded me of Diablo 2 BattleNet, the hostility, the inforgiving nature of many of the players, the snobishness of the "veterans". How if in one RP of you slip up you will never get where you want to go. And the futility, there will always be some one better. Some one who will look down upon you, wether they be a player, of even a Mod, yes, Mods do look down in people. There are some mods who do not, but there are some who do, many who do. In the past I have never critisized the mods, but now I do. Many of the mods think that the lesser players are children who can not make their own decisions.
We can.
I aso felt as if all the time I was on NS made me a veterain, but I was not, I could never be a veterain, not in the eyes of those to whem I matterd most, the mods. To them I was some anoying fellow who had over large amditions. For a while the only ties that kept me in NS were those dreams of becomeing a mod and being able to help all those people, to delete the offenders, to keep the forums clean. Now that I look back on things I realize that those dreams were the only things keeping me in NS. But once I realized that becomign a Mod in NS was impossible for me, I now have no ties to NS. To me now, I have to spend a long period after playing NS killing people on Battle Feild 1942. That kept me from swearing my head off anf flaming. Well, no more. I flamed today on the SATO board, I flamed and called them things I will not repeat.
I appologise to them, I am sorry, if I could edit my posts I would edit them now. But this is the result. The result of your actions, SATO. People can change, something many of you fail to relize. At first when I came to NS I idealized Menelmacar, I did. I wanted to be like her, no longer. Now I see Menelmacar as a somewhat bad tempered person, who is nice, but has little or no tolerance for mistakes. I idealized Melkor, but found that he could abuse his powers at times. And then, GMC, but found him too quik to make desicions.
Now I idealise Saulse Secundus, ever watchfull, never participating. On NS he is unfeeling, he never RPs, he just watches.
I thank,
The Silver Turtle, you were always a kind soul
THe Brotherhood of Nod, you were always a good person to scheme with
Menelmacar, you kept me in NS for as long as I did
Whispering Voices, you showed me what good writing is
Knootoss, you are a great person OOC
Austrin-Ontis, You always were great for a good laugh
James Adams, SPAM!
Bajon, Morowind Rocks!
All other members of the Dominion, you showed me what internet friendship is.
Rave Shentavo and Kain Shentavo, you showed me great RP
Aelosia, You are a great writer, and I will finish my RP with you before I leave, no change of plans is needed.
Bisons/Dark Terror, you showed me that any one could be redemed.
Steel Butterfly, for always being around, and for helping me as a Dominion member, and a friend.
I appologize to every one here for making them think that I was leaving, I am going to keep the body of my post here for people to see. And also for the Mods to see. I agree we are only Human (Or elven :D ) but we all need to think some times.
The realazation.
I realized that my dream in NS, to be like a certain elven mod, was a false dream, that,
a. I would never become a mod with my record
b. that said mod, was not as good as they seemed
I also saw somethings that reminded me of Diablo 2 BattleNet, the hostility, the inforgiving nature of many of the players, the snobishness of the "veterans". How if in one RP of you slip up you will never get where you want to go. And the futility, there will always be some one better. Some one who will look down upon you, wether they be a player, of even a Mod, yes, Mods do look down in people. There are some mods who do not, but there are some who do, many who do. In the past I have never critisized the mods, but now I do. Many of the mods think that the lesser players are children who can not make their own decisions.
We can.
I aso felt as if all the time I was on NS made me a veterain, but I was not, I could never be a veterain, not in the eyes of those to whem I matterd most, the mods. To them I was some anoying fellow who had over large amditions. For a while the only ties that kept me in NS were those dreams of becomeing a mod and being able to help all those people, to delete the offenders, to keep the forums clean. Now that I look back on things I realize that those dreams were the only things keeping me in NS. But once I realized that becomign a Mod in NS was impossible for me, I now have no ties to NS. To me now, I have to spend a long period after playing NS killing people on Battle Feild 1942. That kept me from swearing my head off anf flaming. Well, no more. I flamed today on the SATO board, I flamed and called them things I will not repeat.
I appologise to them, I am sorry, if I could edit my posts I would edit them now. But this is the result. The result of your actions, SATO. People can change, something many of you fail to relize. At first when I came to NS I idealized Menelmacar, I did. I wanted to be like her, no longer. Now I see Menelmacar as a somewhat bad tempered person, who is nice, but has little or no tolerance for mistakes. I idealized Melkor, but found that he could abuse his powers at times. And then, GMC, but found him too quik to make desicions.
Now I idealise Saulse Secundus, ever watchfull, never participating. On NS he is unfeeling, he never RPs, he just watches.
I thank,
The Silver Turtle, you were always a kind soul
THe Brotherhood of Nod, you were always a good person to scheme with
Menelmacar, you kept me in NS for as long as I did
Whispering Voices, you showed me what good writing is
Knootoss, you are a great person OOC
Austrin-Ontis, You always were great for a good laugh
James Adams, SPAM!
Bajon, Morowind Rocks!
All other members of the Dominion, you showed me what internet friendship is.
Rave Shentavo and Kain Shentavo, you showed me great RP
Aelosia, You are a great writer, and I will finish my RP with you before I leave, no change of plans is needed.
Bisons/Dark Terror, you showed me that any one could be redemed.
Steel Butterfly, for always being around, and for helping me as a Dominion member, and a friend.
I appologize to every one here for making them think that I was leaving, I am going to keep the body of my post here for people to see. And also for the Mods to see. I agree we are only Human (Or elven :D ) but we all need to think some times.